Another sleepless night

weddedwife

And of course I can't stop crying. The nights are the worst.

My child was born dead. Seriously, what is ever going to make that okay? This is so fvcked.

caitriona87

I'm sorry.

It will never be like it was before, but as time goes on it will slowly get easier to live with. I remember those first days and weeks, where you are now, and it was absolute torture. Now, ~10 months later, it is still hard and painful, but you become accustomed to it. You learn to live with the pain. You will get through this and you will sleep again. ((hugs))

 

sandykins

lots of hugs. In time, you begin to accept that this is your life and you will be able to sleep again.

magdalina.h

Nothing every makes it okay. I still will be sitting there before bed saying good night to everyone and after I talk to Aidan think, damn I'm a baby loss mom. My child died in my arms. I am a totally different person now.

dandywarhol

{{hugs}} I've talked to a lot of people in similar situations and they've all said that you never get over this, but it gets duller, not necessarily easier.  You arrive at a new kind of "normal".  The thought of a new normal is sad and scary.  

We all have this ugly, sad badge that we get to wear for the rest of our lives.  I'm trying to come to grips with letting myself define the loss and not have the loss define me.  

It sucks.  It is fvcked. And I hate the Universe for it.    

krysiahamaty

Huge hugs. So sorry. I don't think it will ever be ok. It's just a matter of figuring out a new normal.

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