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My Official Intro...

Mrs.McIrishMrs.McIrish member
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Hi Ladies,

I've sporadically replied on other ladies' posts over here but this is my first actual post. I kept telling myself I didn't belong over here "yet" since I'm "only" on cycle 18. But after a miserable year of 4 IUI's and 2 failed IVF's, I think I belong here more than other boards. When I first came to the Bump, this board was brand new and I remember people being up in arms about why the board was needed.  Sadly I "know" why we need this board now.  My home board has always been TTC >35 and I'm finding it harder and harder to relate to the new people that pop up for a month or two,get the BFP and move on...I just can't be a cheerleader over there especially when it is a lady who is trying for #3 or #4 etc.  I just don't have it in me anymore when the chances of me having a baby at this point is beyond slim. I wish I could be a bigger person but I just can't..

So, my name is Cathy and I'm an Infertile due to DOR. I produce 2 eggs on max drugs and make really crappy embies that have no chance of sticking. 

Hugs to all.

 

TTC #1 since 8/1/10; Me:41 and BRCA1+, DH:46
DOR (FSH 24.3)/ terrible egg quality ; homozygous MTHFR c677t
5 IUI's: 2/11 to 6/11 and 1/12= BFN
OE IVF#1-4 8/11-6/12= all BFN
DE IVF#1 11/12 bad embryos= BFN
DE IVF #2 2/13 BFP/Beta hell: m/c 5w6d
CFNBC 7 months, not doing well; decided on guarantee program at RBA w/frozen DE
DE IVF #3 1/14  ET 4BB; BFP;M/C 5w1d, incomplete m/c; MVA extraction in ER 7w1d

DE FET#1 ET 3/1714; BFP, beta 1 3/27= 197, beta 2 3/31= 1586, beta 3 4/7= 13879!!
First u/s= Twins with HBs at 6w2d! We are Team Pink x 2!!

K & K born 11/21/14 at 38wks 4 days

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SAIF/PAIF Welcome


http://waitingforraintostop.wordpress.com

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  • BeeBee08BeeBee08 member
    Big ((hugs)).  I know what you mean about not thinkig you should be here, but honestly, it really is the only place I've ever "been" that understands exactly how I feel.  It's nice to have a safe place like this.  Good Luck with your journey going forward!

     
    me 33/DH 36
    ttc since 10/2008; d/x: mild MFI, stageII endo
    ~~PAIF/SAIF Welcome~~
    11 IUI’s = 1 m/c (7w4d)
    IVF#1 January 2012 BFN, FET #1 April 2012 BFN
    Surprise BFP October 2012 m/c (7w), Surprise BFP April 2013 m/c (6w4d)
    IVF #2: July 2013, ET 1 embryo 7/18, beta 1 @ 14dp3dt - 757, beta 2 @ 16dp3dt - 1762
    U/S 1 @ 6w4d = 1 little frogger with HB of 118, U/S 2 @ 7w3d measuring right on track with HB of 160
    Stick Frogger Stick! Please!!!!!!!!!!!!!   It's a Girl, EDD April 7, 2014

    BabyFruit Ticker

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  • MrkyrainMrkyrain
    Welcome to the dark side sweets.  Glad you came over but sorry you have to be here.  I feel the same way as you do about where to belong.  I knew it was time to come over IFV when I found myself starting to think snarky thought on even the regular IF board.  I know that doesn't make me a nice person and I will always belong to that board and support the women.  However,  I do find that I read the posts on IF Veterans and can relate so much more.  
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  • lovemymonkeylovemymonkey

    (((((((((hugs))))))))

    Welcome to the board, Cathy. It's a crappy "club" to belong to, but the ladies here are THE best. I know you'll find the support and encouragement here that you need to get you through this journey. Wishing you all the best~

    After 5 years of TTC, 3 IUIs, 5 IVFs, 2 FETs, multiple losses and an adoption that wasn
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  • Mrs.McIrishMrs.McIrish member

    imageMrkyrain:
    Welcome to the dark side sweets.  Glad you came over but sorry you have to be here.  I feel the same way as you do about where to belong.  I knew it was time to come over IFV when I found myself starting to think snarky thought on even the regular IF board.  I know that doesn't make me a nice person and I will always belong to that board and support the women.  However,  I do find that I read the posts on IF Veterans and can relate so much more.  

    Hey hon, how is stimming going? I haven't seen an update in a few days??

    TTC #1 since 8/1/10; Me:41 and BRCA1+, DH:46
    DOR (FSH 24.3)/ terrible egg quality ; homozygous MTHFR c677t
    5 IUI's: 2/11 to 6/11 and 1/12= BFN
    OE IVF#1-4 8/11-6/12= all BFN
    DE IVF#1 11/12 bad embryos= BFN
    DE IVF #2 2/13 BFP/Beta hell: m/c 5w6d
    CFNBC 7 months, not doing well; decided on guarantee program at RBA w/frozen DE
    DE IVF #3 1/14  ET 4BB; BFP;M/C 5w1d, incomplete m/c; MVA extraction in ER 7w1d

    DE FET#1 ET 3/1714; BFP, beta 1 3/27= 197, beta 2 3/31= 1586, beta 3 4/7= 13879!!
    First u/s= Twins with HBs at 6w2d! We are Team Pink x 2!!

    K & K born 11/21/14 at 38wks 4 days

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    SAIF/PAIF Welcome


    http://waitingforraintostop.wordpress.com

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  • reb259reb259 member

    Hi Cathy...

    I have responded to many of your threads on IF and I can completey understand your feelngs...I feel the same.

    Huge hugs...I hope you find the support you need on this board.  I am here if you need to talk!!

    I am AMA and all tests on H came back normal
    3 failed IVF with OE and 2 failed frozen DE cycles
    Last fresh hail mary DE cycle starting Feb 2013
    PAIF/SAIF always welcome
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  • illinigalillinigal member
    Hello and welcome.  Sorry you have to be here, but these women are the best.
    TTC #1 since October 2008. Dealing with MFI.
    IVF #1 w ICSI in July 2010 = BFN
    IVF #2.1 in Oct 2010 converted to IUI = BFN
    IVF #2.2 w ICSI in Dec 2010 = BFN
    Met with new RE in new city on 1/31/11.
    IVF #3 w ICSI in April 2011. HPT on 5/9 = BFP!
    Beta #1 on 5/10 (10dp5dt) = 99.4. Beta #2 on 5/12 = 284. First u/s on 5/26. = Fraternal TWINS!
    Twin boys born & lost on 8/16/11 at 18w1d due to PPROM & preterm labor.
    IVF #4.1 in Jan 2012 converted to IUI on 1/7/12 = BFN
    IVF #4.2 w ICSI in Feb 2012. Lupron on 2/10. Stims on 2/18. ER on 2/29- 7R,6F
    ET scheduled for 3/5/12- nothing to transfer :(
    Dh seeing new MFI uro & Dh starting meds- June 2012.
    IVF #5 in Dec 2012 = BFFN.
    IVF #6 planned for Spring 2013. Praying for our take home baby/ies.
    **P/SAIF and P/SAL always welcome!**

    Lilypie Angel and Memorial tickers
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  • Edwina.McDunnoughEdwina.McDunnough

    Hugs and welcome McIrish.

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  • MrkyrainMrkyrain
    imageMrs.McIrish:

    imageMrkyrain:
    Welcome to the dark side sweets.  Glad you came over but sorry you have to be here.  I feel the same way as you do about where to belong.  I knew it was time to come over IFV when I found myself starting to think snarky thought on even the regular IF board.  I know that doesn't make me a nice person and I will always belong to that board and support the women.  However,  I do find that I read the posts on IF Veterans and can relate so much more.  

    Hey hon, how is stimming going? I haven't seen an update in a few days??

    Yeah, I haven't updated.  It's going pretty crappy.  I have one follicle that is at 22 and the other three are pretty far behind.  I think the plan is to let the lead follicle go and see if they can grow the other three.  Meanwhile, the stims are killing me this time.  Poor me.  :P  How are you? 

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  • Mrs.McIrishMrs.McIrish member
    imageMrkyrain:
    imageMrs.McIrish:

    imageMrkyrain:
    Welcome to the dark side sweets.  Glad you came over but sorry you have to be here.  I feel the same way as you do about where to belong.  I knew it was time to come over IFV when I found myself starting to think snarky thought on even the regular IF board.  I know that doesn't make me a nice person and I will always belong to that board and support the women.  However,  I do find that I read the posts on IF Veterans and can relate so much more.  

    Hey hon, how is stimming going? I haven't seen an update in a few days??

    Yeah, I haven't updated.  It's going pretty crappy.  I have one follicle that is at 22 and the other three are pretty far behind.  I think the plan is to let the lead follicle go and see if they can grow the other three.  Meanwhile, the stims are killing me this time.  Poor me.  :P  How are you? 

    Ugh. I'm so sorry to hear this. I've never heard of letting the big one go for the others to grow so that's good to hear that it is possible to do that.  I'm thinking of you. Hugs.

    TTC #1 since 8/1/10; Me:41 and BRCA1+, DH:46
    DOR (FSH 24.3)/ terrible egg quality ; homozygous MTHFR c677t
    5 IUI's: 2/11 to 6/11 and 1/12= BFN
    OE IVF#1-4 8/11-6/12= all BFN
    DE IVF#1 11/12 bad embryos= BFN
    DE IVF #2 2/13 BFP/Beta hell: m/c 5w6d
    CFNBC 7 months, not doing well; decided on guarantee program at RBA w/frozen DE
    DE IVF #3 1/14  ET 4BB; BFP;M/C 5w1d, incomplete m/c; MVA extraction in ER 7w1d

    DE FET#1 ET 3/1714; BFP, beta 1 3/27= 197, beta 2 3/31= 1586, beta 3 4/7= 13879!!
    First u/s= Twins with HBs at 6w2d! We are Team Pink x 2!!

    K & K born 11/21/14 at 38wks 4 days

    imageimage

    SAIF/PAIF Welcome


    http://waitingforraintostop.wordpress.com

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  • mtlaurelmtlaurel

    Hey McIrish,

    Nice to have you over here, though I wish you didn't have to come. I've been thinking of you, and am glad to see that you're pampering yourself and planning your vacation. I hope you can go into 2012 feeling a little bit recovered from all you've endured this year.

     

    TTC #1 since June 2010
    Me: 36, DH: 42
    Dx: DOR and MFI

    DH: low count + very low motility; hormones all normal; Sperm DNA Frag. test = poor to fair; male karyotyping normal
    Me: FSH 13.4 + AMH 0.26 + hypothyroidism; Scratch the hypothyrodism (?); Blood clotting and immune panel all negative; endometrial biopsy normal

    IVF #1 (MDLF - Jul/Aug 2011): BFN (9R, 5M, 3F with ICSI, 3dt of 1 10-cell grade 2, no frosties)
    IVF #2 (EP-antagonist - Sep/Oct 2011): BFN (6R, 4M, 3F w/ ICSI, 3dt of 1 6-cell, 1 7-cell, grade 4s, no frosties)
    DE IVF #1 (shared cycle - June 2012): c/p (6R, 6F w/ICSI, 3dt 1 8-cell grade A- and 1 7-cell grade A-; no frosties)
    DE IVF #2 (shared cycle with new donor - Nov/Dec/ 2012): - BFP!!!!! 12/14/12. U/S on 12/27 shows twins!!!!!

    SAIFW/PAIFW
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  • jessican08jessican08 member
    Welcome and ((HUGS)).
    TTC 12/2009
    Me: 32 - Stage II Endo / DH: 36 - Low count and morphology (1%)
    IUIs 1-3 BFN, lap Dec. 2010, IUIs 4-6 BFN
    IVF w/ICSI #1 - ER 2/8: 24R 19M 9F ET 2/13 2-5 day blasts (no frosties) = BFP - b/g twins!
    E & C Born 10/19/2012
    Lilypie First Birthday tickers
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  • ellenchris0506ellenchris0506
    I just transitioned over hear myself.  I know EXACTLY how you feel!
    Ellen & Chris 5/6/06
    -------------------------
    TTC Since 10/2007 with no luck and a 'go with the flow' attitude
    1/1010 FINALLY decided to have testing done, dx MFI
    7/2010 - DH starts Clomid to increase testosterone and hopefully sperm count
    10/2010 - Still low (but improved) sperm count.
    11/30/10 - IUI #1 and only = BFN
    February 2011 - IVF #1 w/ ICSI =
    Chemical PG (Beta 1: 10, Beta 2: 19, Beta 3: 17) :-(
    April 2011 - IVF #2 w/ ICSI = BFN :-(
    September 2011 - IVF #3 w/ ICSI = BFFN
    November 2011 - AMH level tested - .83 (normal for age range)
    February 2012 - IVF #4 w/ ICSI = (best response ever yet still) BFFN
    April 2012 - DNA testing - NORMAL, RE suggests cycling again with own eggs or using DE
    On Break indefinitely...not sure we can afford the emotional and financial roller coaster anymore.
    *PAIFW/SAIFW*
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  • MrkyrainMrkyrain
    imageMrs.McIrish:
    imageMrkyrain:
    imageMrs.McIrish:

    imageMrkyrain:
    Welcome to the dark side sweets.  Glad you came over but sorry you have to be here.  I feel the same way as you do about where to belong.  I knew it was time to come over IFV when I found myself starting to think snarky thought on even the regular IF board.  I know that doesn't make me a nice person and I will always belong to that board and support the women.  However,  I do find that I read the posts on IF Veterans and can relate so much more.  

    Hey hon, how is stimming going? I haven't seen an update in a few days??

    Yeah, I haven't updated.  It's going pretty crappy.  I have one follicle that is at 22 and the other three are pretty far behind.  I think the plan is to let the lead follicle go and see if they can grow the other three.  Meanwhile, the stims are killing me this time.  Poor me.  :P  How are you? 

    Ugh. I'm so sorry to hear this. I've never heard of letting the big one go for the others to grow so that's good to hear that it is possible to do that.  I'm thinking of you. Hugs.

    I don't know what they're doing.  They also haven't added the ganerelix back in so how do they know that I'm not going to ovulate?  The nurse was talking about possible trigger tomorrow which is worst possible timing with work but you know that's how it has to be. :)  Thanks for checking up on me.  

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  • Delta04Delta04 member

    Interestingly, I started out on the TTC over 35 board as well but found that I related to the IF board much more...I guess we can add that to our growing list of  commanilites. :-) 

    I am sorry that you have to be here.  I really hope your well deserved trip will bring you relaxation and clarity.

    TTC since 3/07. IVF#1 = canceled. IVF#2 = 0% fertilization. IVF#3 = BFN. IVF#4 = c/p.  
    Moving forward with Adoption 2017!
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  • Temp590840000005378Temp590840000005378

    Hi Cathy,

    Welcome to the board, sorry about your crappy eggs and your BFN's... hope you get good news soon!! ((HUGS))

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  • Bella2u07Bella2u07 member

    Hello and Welcome to the board!

    I am sorry that you have to be here.  ::hugs::

    TTC #1 Since 11/08 - Dx: MFI & PCOS
    7 IUIs = All BFNs
    2011: March IVF #1.2 = e/p @ 6w: May IVF #2 = BFN: July sFET #1 = BFN

    2012: Jan We're Certified FC/A Parents
    May IVF #3 = c/p
    June-Nov Foster Mommy to M (Toddler)
    July FET #2 = BFN
    Aug FET #3 = BFN
    Sept-Nov Foster Mommy to Baby Bella (Newborn)
    Nov HSG/Sono = Clear!
    Dec FET #4 = BFN

    2013: Feb FET #5 = m/c @ 6.5w
    May-July Foster Mom to H (8 yr old girl)
    June/July/Aug IVF #4 = Freeze All
    July = Unofficially Adopting T (10 yr old boy)
    Sept FET #6 = TBD
    **PAIF/SAIF Welcome**
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  • vanessagorcvanessagorc member
    Welcome Cathy!  I felt the same when i came over too.  Even as i start my 3rd IVF, i have on TTC for 23 mos.  But early on, i learned this was the place for me too.
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