My friend who has been trying to get pregnant for a few months just left me a message to tell me that she is pregnant and in the 2nd trimester. She knows about our failed IVF and mentioned in the message that she knew I was on a break but that she was sure that it was going to "happen for me too soon". This girl also works at a fertility clinic, so she knows not everyone gets a baby.
Anyway, I'm sitting at work, crying. I need to be ok with the fact that other people get pregnant, and they might not always be the people who "deserve it", or the people who have been trying longer than I have. But it's honestly so hard.
Vent over.
Re: I'm a wreck
I completely understand. I have a friend who just announced hers to me and both her and her boyfriend are unemployed, on welfare and did not want to have children. DH did help by not understanding why I was upset about that.
You have every right to be down when you hear about these things. People just don't understand that we are happy for our friends and family but we are just sad for ourselves.
BIG (((HUGS))) I hope tomorrow brings some sunshine to your day!
Lots of ((HUGS))... I am sorry things come so much easier to others... I just want to slap IF in her big ugly face.
PCOS
BFP June 3,2012
Partial Molar Pregnancy
D&C July 12, 2012
Forced 6 month break.
BFP January 13, 2013
Positive for HLA-B27, I'm a mutant
Testing - Me ok, gluten issue? DH - borderline count, low motility
4/28/11 IUI#1 = BFP!(5/25), EDD 2/2/12 - m/c 5w3d
7/3, 7/31, 9/25 - IUI#2-4=BFN
IVF#1 - 1 blast = BFP!! (12/30), EDD 9/9/12, confirmed c/p 4w2d
FET#1 3/2/12 - 2 blasts =BFP!! EDD 11/18/12, us#1 = twins! Confirmed m/c 5w6d
4/20-surprise BFP and another c/p 4w2d
FET#2 7/16/12 - 2 blasts = BFN
FET#3 8/20/12 - 1 blast - BFP!! Beta #1-2=177, 354
1st u/s 5w6d, one beautiful little HB
baby girl born 5/10/13
TTC#2 since 12/17/2014, Cycle 8
Repeat Testing...FSH=12, AMH=3.8, AFC=28.
IUI#5 5/10/15- c/p?
IVF#2 8/19/15 - cancelled due to cysts
IVF#2 take two 10/2015 - 5 blasts frozen
FET#4 12/11/2015 - BFN - 4 blasts remaining
FET#5 2/18/16 - BFP!!! Beta1-3, 126, 250, 745!!
Tons of love and ((hugs)) to my IF sister NMscubagirl
Thanks guys! I want so badly to just be ok and be able to be happy for other people, but it's just not there.
Ugh - I need to listen to some "Cheer Up Charlie" from Willy Wonka.