Losing it...

tombomb84

So I posted earlier that I was worried that I might have a c/p since I had 2 days of positive pregnancy tests and today the line was super faint...

Well I just heard back from the RE and my first beta at 14dpo was 16 and my progesterone, even with suppositories twice a day was only 8.  She said I should go in for another beta tomorrow but that at this point I should not expect this to be a viable pregnancy.

 I am honestly hysterically crying right now.  I allowed myself to finally feel some hope and like things might actually work out for me  and now I am heartbroken that it is being taken away.  I don't know what to do or how to handle the pain I am feeling right now. Any advice on how to get through this?

katieworek

I am so very sorry you are going through this.  The only thing I really think helps is to take time for yourself.  It's okay to be sad and upset so that you can grieve your loss. 

((hugs))

eponine7682

I'm so sorry you have to go through this. Your feelings and grief are normal. Take some time for youself. You will be in my thoughts and prayers. ((hugs))

Robeano

I've had two m/c myself and I just want to say I'm soooo sorry for your loss. At this point don't try to get through it, just focus on right now. Cry, mourn, get it all out. Deal with one day at a time and eventually you will find that one day things are a bit easier than the last day until eventually your okay.

SMF&ADS091507

Oh no! I am sorry you are going through this. I have no advice for you, but I am praying for you. Sending you hugs too.

pantsarella

I agree- you need to take time for yourself and allow yourself to feel whatever comes. I think we all feel the need to be strong and keep moving along in this process no matter what. We're all human and we need to process the emotions that we feel. So cry your eyes out, eat chocolate, go for a run, do whatever it is that you need to do to grieve. 

I'm sorry that this is happening. =( 

CLaNa

I'm so sorry. 

RileyGrace

I'm so sorry.  It's so hard to be optimistic with low beta results.  It's hard because you want to be realistic, but it could still work out.  My first beta with my sticky was 21, lower then when I had my cp.  My P4 was 2.24 with 2x day supps.  My P4 was never knowingly over 10. 

Beta limbo sucks.  It's so hard to hold it together and all you want is for an answer so you can start moving forward with whatever the outcome is.  Waiting is so damn hard.  But I just wanted to let you know that it can work out.  It is possible.  I'll be praying that you've got yourself a little late implanter like I did.

(((hugs)))

lily8543

I'm sorry about your beta today.

mswood1977

I'm sorry you are having to go through this, sending lots of T&P your way.

brookelynpaisley

I am just so sorry ((hugs))

lovin life23

((hugs)) I am so sorry hun...my T&P's are with you!!

MandaS08

I'm sorry!  Let yourself be sad - what you are feeling is normal.  However, remember that it does get better-take it one day at a time.

Daisies1706

I'm so sorry hon (((HUG)))

Blueyed228

Im really sorry.

tgreenf

I am so sorry hon.  Hugs to you! And praying for some comfort for you in this rough time!

vxs0038

I'm so very sorry. I have no advice, since I have never been through that, but I do have zombie hugs

vxs0038

I'm so very sorry. I have no advice, since I have never been through that, but I do have zombie hugs

tombomb84

Thank you all so much for your support.  I don't know what I would do without this board.

kmc84

I am so sorry that you are dealing with this! I agree with all the advice you have been given. Be sad, cry, take time to take care of you!! {{Big hugs}}

chels38026

No advice, but just wanted to say I am so soo sorry! :-(

((((Hugs))))

Gregermis

((((HUGS))))  It sucks, I am so sorry girl.

kaleidoskpeyez

I am so sorry. ((hugs))

keliser

I am soo sorry...it is okay to be sad...

pulga131

I don't have any advice to offer but I wanted to offer my condolences. I'm sorry for your loss. ((Big hugs))

TJ1979

I'm so sorry for you.  My only advice is to keep breathing.  Go through all the motions of real life even though life doesn't feel real right now.  Just keep breathing. 

kz's_girlygirl

I'm so sorry   Put yourself first and take the time you need to feel whatever emotions might come up.  T&P's your way.

bandwife928

I'm so sorry! Having a c/p stinks. Even if you only think you're pg for a day or two, the moment you realize it's not going to last is devastating.

cutebride73

I am very sorry for what you are going through.  I wish I could tell you that things will work out and I have known some girls who have had low betas and low progesterone and things have worked out, but it is hard to feel positive. 

I have had 3 c/p's and 1 m/c - it is really hard (I also had a couple days of + HPT's and then the line got darker and then lighter each time with my c/p's).  I can not tell you that there is anything to help get through it, if that is in fact what is happening.  I can tell you that the passage of time helps, but it's still hard sometimes. 

I really hope that your beta goes up and that things work out for you ((((hugs)))) 

zookbride

I'm so sorry tombom, that is some crappy news. Just know you have every right to feel upset, sad, angry....whatever emotions you are feeling (and you'll go through a lot of them) is ok.

It sucks so bad to be let down after having so much hope. Hang in there and give yourself all the time you need to grieve. ((hugs))

DoubleBubble08

I'm so sorry to read this. Thinking of you!