I am a mess today

EVA116

I forgot to take my Lexapro for the past two nights and I am a wreck. I just started crying in front of my boss for no reason. I just feel so sad. I am definetly not ready to be off the medication and that is making me even more sad. I just want to go and sleep. I should have never forgotten to take my meds. I can't even concentrate on anything. Now I am going to go home from work tonight and probably be an aweful mom because I don't feel like playing...just sitting.

Oh and my anxiety is through the roof. I have almost had a panic attack like three times today.

and I smoked a cigarette.

Man I am a mess.

EVA116

Sometimes I just get so mad....why did I have to get PPD. Why can't I just feel okay all the time? Motherhood is hard enough...none of us should have to feel this way.

ksspiff

oh no! I hope the rest of your day goes by uneventfully and you take that pill as soon as you get home. Dumb PPD. But remember, if you had the flu and had to come home and be a bump on a log instead of have playtime - you'd be dissapointed but accept it. Just try to keep the same mindset tonight.

chloe071603

   I'm sorry you're having such a bad day.  I forgot my Zoloft this morning, and it was my first day back at work after maternity leave.  I had to walk into the bathroom at least 6 times fighting tears.  I agree that it's not fair -- I would give anything to just feel normal and not panicked over every stupid little thing in life.