In a way, I'm kind of dreading Christmas. I just don't want to bring a ton of extra stuff into our house. I don't have many gift ideas for J from family so I don't want random stuff that will just take up space. I've become a little crazy about cleaning and decluttering lately and I don't want all the extra stuff. I'm probably not alone with the not wanting extra stuff though. One of my MIL's is kind of bad about buying us completely random stuff that we don't need/wont use and she is the hardest person to buy for so we always end up getting her GC's, which I would love. I don't want to complain about receiving gifts (which I know I am) but every year I end up either returning or giving the things away. She'll ask for ideas, and the only things for us include stuff from lowes (like a gc toward a generator or new windows).
On the other hand, I'm so excited for Christmas with J! Just not the running around that will accompany it.
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Stella pulled Audrey off the couch the other day. DH & I were both in the room but talking and not paying attention. I felt so horrible.
Re: Christmas, I don't know that we're going to do much more than the big gifts for the girls and stockings. I think we can get away with one more year without having to get a lot of gifts to be from Santa, and even then we don't plan on going overboard anyway. And I'm glad b/c I have very few ideas.
TTC since 6/2003. m/c 9/14/03 8 weeks, 5 chemical pregnancies, mmc 6/04 12 weeks, Michael born sleeping 5/25/05 at 22weeks always our angel, fought ovarian cancer and won, m/c 4/06 5.2 weeks and 7/07 6.6 weeks,Our Miracle baby girl born 4/8/10,mc 12/18/11 at 5.3 weeks, BFP 10/26/12 dating u/s on 11/8/12 showing a strong heartbeat!EDD July 4,2013. RCS on 6/27. Baby boy in NICU for 8 long and scary days before he was able to come home. We are now a happy family of 4
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I am having BF supply issues and need to suppliment at least 8 oz of my frozen stash a day, I will prob use it all before I go back to work. I have been to the pedi and a LC. They recommended that I pump 15 mins after each feeding, make sure I feed 8 times a day (he usually only has 6-7) and wake him during the night (he was STTN). I am SO frustrated and a feeding now takes over an hour and I miss 30 mins of play time. I really just want to give up BFing and switch to formula...
I just shoved a fun size Snickers and 3 pretzel twists in my mouth, all at once.
AF is due today, I am not taking an HPT as I hate to waste one knowing it is probable a BFN. Someone once told me you have to have sex in order to get pregnant.
I feel like a bad mom b/c Sophia fell off of the couch yesterday morning when I went to turn on the light. She now has a black and blue mark.
I feel like a bad wife b/c I had a dream about my ex. When I woke up I thought what it would be like if would have gotten married. He's really successful and I assume makes really good money since he posts pics of his new escalade, trips to the beach and Paris on his FB page.
I just want my life to be easy again and have all the nice things we used to have.
I just signed dd up for the next session of gymnastics. It goes from mid Nov - mid Feb bc it takes off during the holidays. She loves it, so that is great. But I was originally going to take this session off since it goes right thru my due date. DH left it up to me, so I signed her up telling him about how much she loves it.
My real reasons:
He will be forced to take her when I have the baby for at least a week or two, so 1. he will see her do gymnastics (bc you know, right now that is HIS "day off" wtf) and 2. I look at it like it gives me 1 hour a week with them both out of the house and time to myself with just the baby.
DH came home after his shift ended at 3pm today. DD was asleep, but stirring around. I ran to the bedroom and pretended to be asleep so that he would have to get her up and I could rest a moment. It worked. And I ended up actually falling asleep for real. I woke up 2 hours later haha.
I have been buying my lunch at work way too much this pregnancy. At first, it was because the morning sickness made me sick with the lunch meat, so I would go to Panera and have the mac n cheese or pizza hut for a personal pan and bread sticks. Now, I justify it with myself that once I return to work I will be pumping during my lunch and only have 10 min to scarf down a sandwich. But really, if DH were spending this much on lunches I would be pissed. It is ridiculous. I picked up stuff this week grocery shopping and really need to get back to bringing my lunch.
Ugh, and you know how I posted in the Batty's potty training thread that she finally pooped on the potty? Yay! But the reason I'm sure that she pooped an extra time that day is bc I let her eat a ton of oreos so I could extend the sitting at the table time. And she didn't even get to eat the cream - I ate all those halfs.