A dream inspired by my IVF being postponed...

BeeBee08

Last night, after finding out that my first IVF is going to be postponed yet again, I had this dream:

I?m stuck in the Ocean for days, treading water, trying to stay afloat and finally a rescue plane is right above, excitement!  I am going to be thrown a life raft!  I was waiving my arms and screaming for help and they just didn?t see me so they turned back.  Now I?m sitting in the ocean again with no help in sight, just praying for someone to come looking again.  I was so close to getting that help.

Why can't our minds even be calm when we sleep?  I just don't think I'm strong enough to get through what lies ahead.  Uggghhhh, so sad today. 

jessican08

((HUGE HUGS)) BeeBee. I'm so sorry you're being delayed.

I hate when IF creeps into my dreams...especially on those days where sleep seems to be the only escape from it.

Wishing you lots of love and strength in the coming months. We're here for you

theworms

you are strong enough, you never know how strong you are until it's tested.

((HUGS))

sorry about postponing again, it sucks balls.

do you do any IF meditations?  i have one that really helps calm my mind, let me know if you want rec

Delta04

Oh Bee!!  I'm sooo sorry.  I hate that the pesky job put the kibosh on the IVF this month.   I know how completely disappointed you are.  ::hugs:: 

illinigal

Hugs.  I'm sorry you have to be postponed.  I wish you much luck when you do move forward with IVF.

Ginger71

(((hugs))) You'll be suprised what you can handle.....and we're here to help you along the way.

Wishing you peaceful dreams......

Edwina.McDunnough

Huge hugs!

vanessagorc

I'm queen of delays...and they SUCK!  Huge hugs!  Even ur sleep is being terrorized, HUGS~

U can do it.....if i can, u sure as hell can too!

DeputiesWife

::hugs::

It is so true.

thinking of you.  

reb259

So sorry to hear you will be delayed.  Maybe the dream will help to take away some of the stress and mentally help you work thru things so you don't have to do it all while you are awake...  Eith way, big huhs and I hope your day gets better.  We are all here for you!!

eponine7682

Oh Bee! I wish I could hug you in person cause giving you ((((hugs)))) just doesn;t seem to be enough. I know you have the strength to get through this, but it seems so unfair that you have to wait even longer. I hope and pray that once it happens, that will be it for you hun.

meg_koole

Aw sweetie.  I feel you.  I could have written the same thing - about not sure if I am strong enough.  Somedays are easier swimming and others you just don't know how you will keep your head from going under. 

Just try to hang in there.

(((Hugs)))

 

SweetDahlia

I am really sorry that you were postponed. I really hate that you can't even get real rest while you sleep. IF just seems to take over everything.

Huge hugs.

SueSt7206

I'm so sorry that your postponed!!!!  keep your head up!!!

Sloane99

Aww, hon, I'm sorry, no one deserves this. You're fully allowed to feel down, but please know that you are more than strong enough to get through this and we are always here on the days you don't feel that's true. ((((hugs))))

Mayan2011

Ugghhhh.. IF totally consumes us, asleep and awake.  I am so sorry you have been delayed.  ((hugs))

BeeBee08

Thank you all so much.  Today is a brighter day and I'm feeling like I have what it takes again.  I appreciate your support so much!