TTC After a Loss

Heading back over here

Hi Ladies, I got a BFP on Monday but my betas went from 171 to 115. I'm going to have an ultrasound today to rule out ectopic because it is possible this pregnancy is actually left over from last cycle rather than a new pregnancy. It has been an incredibly confusing couple of days.

I'll spare all the details, but if you want to see my whole story, it is in two parts on PgAL (warning the comments in these links have tickers). 

https://community.thebump.com/cs/ks/forums/thread/59475069.aspx

https://community.thebump.com/cs/ks/forums/thread/59516510.aspx

Even though I was pretty realistic about the chances of another loss considering our impossible BFP, I'm still taking it incredibly hard. I hate how TTC and loss are negatively impacting other areas of my life - especially work. 

I emailed a counselor today to try to make an appointment. 

I hope to see everyone leave this board for a pregnancy board very soon. In the meantime, I'm going to try to come back and be supportive as best I can. 

TTC #1 since January 2011
BFP#1 April 12, 2011, EDD December 24, 2011, strong heart beat at 7w3d, d&c at 10w6d
BFP#2 Oct 24, 2011, natural miscarriage, EDD unknown
After RPL testing my losses and subsequent infertility are considered unexplained.
Cycle #22: Femara, TI, and progesterone = BFP!! 
BFP#3 Dec 21, 2012. Beta #1 @14dpo = 134, progesterone 67.8. Beta #2 @ 17dpo = 664! Team green, EDD 9/1/13, healthy baby boy born 9/12/13!
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  • I am so so sorry that you are back. I hate how unfair life is. Sending you some ((hugs)). You are always welcome back.
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    BFP #1
    07/04/10. EDD 03/14/11. Missed m/c 08/09/10. D&C 09/27/10. }Casey & Jaimie{
    BFP #2 01/14/11. EDD 09/25/11. Missed m/c 02/18/11. D&C 02/24/11. }Dustin{
    TTA for 18 months and then TTC for 12 months
    BFP #3 08/18/13. EDD 04/30/14. Missed m/c 09/25/13. D&C 09/26/13. }Daylin{
    TTA for 7 months
    Jan-Mar 2014 - RPL, SHG, karotyping: all results normal
    TTC Again May 2014
    Progesterone & baby aspirin combo for 5 cycles
    - All BFN's
    SA with DNA fragmentation = Perfect results

    Diagnostic cycle monitoring = Polycystic ovaries leading to premature egg release
    TTA Oct 2014 - Jan 2015
    Jan 2015 - Medicated cycle with timed intercourse
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  • Biggest of big hugs, my friend. 

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    I'm sorry my dear you are coming back to us, but we are always here for you. 

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  • ((Huge Hugs)) I'm so sorry you are going through this again. My thoughts and prayers are with you through this tough time!
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  • Thank you so much ladies - this means a lot.
    TTC #1 since January 2011
    BFP#1 April 12, 2011, EDD December 24, 2011, strong heart beat at 7w3d, d&c at 10w6d
    BFP#2 Oct 24, 2011, natural miscarriage, EDD unknown
    After RPL testing my losses and subsequent infertility are considered unexplained.
    Cycle #22: Femara, TI, and progesterone = BFP!! 
    BFP#3 Dec 21, 2012. Beta #1 @14dpo = 134, progesterone 67.8. Beta #2 @ 17dpo = 664! Team green, EDD 9/1/13, healthy baby boy born 9/12/13!
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    Congratulations to the fabulous KGS2003! Her sweet boys are here! Grow boys grow!!!
  • Huge *HUGS* going your way.  So sorry to hear.  I don't think any loss is easy to handle.  SO sorry.
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  • So sorry you are back over here, **Hugs**


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  • Wow that is quite a story- this type of confusion on top of loss does not help matters!!  I will keep you in my thoughts- let us know what happens!! 
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  • I am so very sorry that you find yourself back over here. I feel like there have been several of our girls that had to come back recently, and it is just not fair. ((hugs)) I hope talking with a counselor helps.
    BFP#1 12/18/10 EDD 8/28/11 | 2/14/11 discovered that our baby girl had anencephaly D&C 2/17/11 at 12.5 weeks | no O or AF post loss - Dx: AO + mild PCOS = secondary infertility Provera after 70 days = AF but no O | Provera + 50mg Clomid after 110 days = AF but no O 3 rounds of 100mg Clomid + Estrogen + Progesterone = mixed O results, all BFN hysteroscopy 1/6/12 - removed fibroid tissue injection cycle #1 - 75 IU follistim + ovidrel (triggered 2/9/12) + endometrin = BFP! EDD 11/3/12 | Beta @ 13dpo = 184, 17dpo = 993, 26dpo = >5000 IT'S TWIN BOYS!! Tommy and Charlie arrived on 9/10/12 after less than 6 hours of labor at 32 weeks Image and video hosting by TinyPic Image and video hosting by TinyPic Image and video hosting by TinyPic Lilypie Premature Baby tickers
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    Wow that is quite a story- this type of confusion on top of loss does not help matters!!  I will keep you in my thoughts- let us know what happens!! 

    This exactly.  I'm sorry you're going through this, and I think a counselor is a great idea.  I love mine. 

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  • Hugs. Im so sorry. I actually take the losses harder as each one goes by, despite others figuring i would be used to it by now. It never gets any easier. I hope your return is short and your next move sweet.
    TTC #2: 12/2012
    Back to our beloved RE 10/2013
    BFP #5 3/5/14
    Beta 1: 47. Beta 2: 87. Beta 3: 482!

    Baby CCH v2.0 due 11.14.14

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  • I'm so sorry that you are back.  T&Ps for a good u/s today.
    Me (28): fine, DH (28): MFI
    Married 6/21/09
    Off BCP and TTC 4/17/11
    BFP #1 (ended in CP) 7/15/11
    Varicocelectomy surgery 9/4/12 - T improved to normal, but still low count

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  • I'm so sorry for your loss.  What an emotional rollercoaster, it's so not fair.  ((hugs)) Take care.
  • Oh sweetie.. I am so sorry ((huge hugs))
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  • Oh, I am so sorry. I remembered your announcement recently that you were moving over to PgAL. ((hugs))
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    BFP#3 ~ 4/15/12, EDD 12/21/12 ~ DD born 12/22/12
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  • I'm so sorry for your loss and all you are going through. I hope we can be here to offer some form of support when you are ready for it. ((BIG HUGS))
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  • (Hugs). I'm so so sorry you have to come back here.

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    ♥BFP #2 "Offspring"- 11/10/12 | EDD: 07/25/13 | incomplete m/c 12/14/12 @8w1d | D&C 12/21/12♥
    ♥BFP #3 "Progeny" - 02/16/15 | It's a BOY!! | EDD: 10/17/15 | BD: 10/23/15
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  • ((Huge hugs)) I am so sorry that are coming back

     

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  • So sorry you have to come back! ((Big Hugs))
    Married since 06/2004, TTC since 01/2011

    BFP #1 and M/C 5/2011

    BFP #2 7/1/2011, Blighted ovums officially diagnosed at 9w6d, D&C 8/19/2011.

    BFP #3 12/7/2011, EDD 8/15/2012, Harper Lorelai born 8/09/12

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  • I am so sorry! You are in my prayers.
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  • ((huge hugs)) I am so sorry that you have to go through this.
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  • I am so, so sorry you are having to go through this. T&Ps your way.
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  • I'm so very sorry that you're going through this again. No one deserves to go through this once, let alone multiple times.
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    BFP #2 ~ EDD 11.15.2012 ~ CP 3.7.2012
    BFP #3 ~ DS born 12.03.2012

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  • I'm so sorry. Seeing a counselor has been so helpful to me in this and other areas of my life, so I'm glad you took that step. (((HUGS)))
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  • I am so, so sorry.
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  • I'm so sorry that you have to be back here.  My thoughts and prayers are with you!!

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    November '11 ~ IVF#1 ~ ER 11/18 (29R, 17F) ~ 5dt of one beautiful blast on 11/23 = BFP!!

    Beta #1 9dp5dt = 116, P4 = 28 ~ Beta #2 13dp5dt = 700 ~ Beta #3 20dp5dt = 9500, P4 = 26

    1st u/s 12/27 - hb of 156!! EDD 8.10.12 :)   **TEAM GREEN!**

    Sweet baby boy born 8.18.12

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    ~ More testing - hysteroscopy, endometrial biopsy & more b/w - all normal / negative~

    Surprise BFP while waiting on FET #3 ~ beta #1 500; beta #2 1600; first u/s 4/3 - measuring 5w5d, no hb yet!; 2nd u/s 4/10 - hb 132, measuring 6w6d - EDD 11.29.14 :)    **TEAM GREEN!**

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  • I'm so very sorry you're back. Lots of hugs.

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  • Oh Hungry, I am sorry :( So confusing.....I have gone to see a counselor as well and I must say it has helped.  She has validated what a huge traumatic even M/C is and makes me feel like I am not just being overly sensitive or just a big bag of nerves.  Take care of yourself and I am here if you need to chat.  ((hugs))
    Chemical Pregnancy 2001, Married 8/8/09, TTC April 2011, BFP 5/8/11, Missed M/C @ 9wk5d, D&C 6/21/11 BFP 11/13/11 Chase Everett born at 29wks 0 days on 5/7/12 at 2 lbs 14 oz, 14 1/2 inches long.
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  • I am so sorry you are going through this. Sending big hugs and lots of T&P's your way.
  • I am so sorry you are back :( Huge hugs for you and your husband.
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    BFP #2 7.23.11 ~ EDD 3.28.12 ~ MC on 8.16.11
    BFP #3 11.17.11~ EDD 7.31.12 ~ MC on 1.18.12
    BFP #4 4.12.12 ~ EDD 12.25.12~ Born on 12.26.12
  • So sorry for your loss!  Sad (((HUGS)))

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    BFP #1 5/4/11 EDD 1/12/12 natural m/c 5/17/11


    BFP #2 8/9/11 EDD 4/18/12 ectopic pregnancy (methotrexate) 8/24/11 ruptured tube and removal 8/29/11


    BFP #3 3/9/12 EDD 11/19/12 Logan born 11/18/12

    BFP #4 10/21/14 EDD 6/30/15


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  • I'm so sorry.  ((giant hugs))
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  • ((big hugs))... I am so so sorry hun
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  • I'm so sorry hun. It sounds like you've been on a roller coaster of a ride. We're all here if you need us! ((HUGS))
  • SO sorry that you have to go through this again. Will be thinking of you and praying for better days ahead.
    TTC #1 since January 2010
    BFP 6/11/2011. Heartbeat seen on u/s 6/29. No heartbeat 7/13 at 9w0d. D&C 7/18.
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    BFP 1/3/2012. Please God...let this be our take home baby!
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  • I'm so sorry that you had to come back.  It's just not fair.
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  • :::Huge Hugs:::
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  • I am so sorry.  ((Hugs))
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    BFP #4 12/13/11 EDD 8/19/12 Praying for this little baby!
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  • Oh honey... I'm so so so sorry.  ((((Humongous hugs)))) to you.
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