Maybe I have my answer

babyquestnortheast

Well so much for "wondering" what the verdict it. I passed a pretty decent size clot this afternoon. I'm not thinking I could still have a viable pregnancy with a clot like that. SIGH. The weird thing is I've had no cramping since yesterday. Has anyone else experienced that? Seeing that really shook me to the core. I left work to come home and work from here. It's good to be im my PJ's on the couch.

I am so sad to lose this little one. I wanted her (convinced it was a girl) really really badly. I don't care that it was really early, I don't care that all signs say I can still have a healthy baby. I wanted THIS baby. Does anyone else find TB banners on the right side of the website to be kinda sad? I keep looking around and realizing there are other moms on this site who are celebrating their babies, not mourning them.

 

GHBEA

I'm sorry.  It does hurt and sting a bit I will admit to that.  I also want to be a good hearted person and be happy that these moms didn't have to go through what we are going through.  I also think some of those moms celebrating could have also been in our shoes.

This isn't easy and I hope in the future we all have our little miracles to cuddle and love. 

elizabethwig

i'm really sorry that things didn't turn around. i know it's hard to face it - i held out hope until the bitter end. i completely understand what you're feeling, i think it's perfectly normal to be upset and hurt about losing this one. it's natural to hold a place in your heart for your little one. i know i will. 

my thoughts are with you.

(and yes, i *hate* those banners right now. and that stupid baby saying 'from the knot'! i want to punch that little jerk in the face). 

 

babyquestnortheast

elizabethwig:

i'm really sorry that things didn't turn around. i know it's hard to face it - i held out hope until the bitter end. i completely understand what you're feeling, i think it's perfectly normal to be upset and hurt about losing this one. it's natural to hold a place in your heart for your little one. i know i will. 

my thoughts are with you.

(and yes, i *hate* those banners right now. and that stupid baby saying 'from the knot'! i want to punch that little jerk in the face). 

hahah! OK that just made me laugh really hard so thank you! that baby IS a little jerk.

babyquestnortheast

elizabethwig:

i'm really sorry that things didn't turn around. i know it's hard to face it - i held out hope until the bitter end. i completely understand what you're feeling, i think it's perfectly normal to be upset and hurt about losing this one. it's natural to hold a place in your heart for your little one. i know i will. 

my thoughts are with you.

(and yes, i *hate* those banners right now. and that stupid baby saying 'from the knot'! i want to punch that little jerk in the face). 

hahah! OK that just made me laugh really hard so thank you! that baby IS a little jerk.

elizabethwig

babyquestnortheast:

hahah! OK that just made me laugh really hard so thank you! that baby IS a little jerk.

glad i could help! hah.  

 

mijakach

Aww, I'm so sorry things didn't turn around.

I barely had any cramping at all. I always heard that m/c resulted in extremely heavy bleeding as well as painful cramps. When I was younger, my periods used to be really bad - very heavy bleeding with painful cramps. The bleeding and cramps from my m/c were nowhere near as bad as some periods I had when I was younger. So it's possible to not really have cramping.

And I understand how you feel. I've had people telling me that I was able to get pregnant and it will happen again. And while I do want to be pregnant again, I would do anything if I could get this baby back.

VineyardMel

((Hugs)) This is all so hard--even worse with the uncertainty you've had to deal with. I have to be really careful on this site because it's 98% geared to healthy pregnancies babies. When I bump on my phone I hit the "newborns" tab by accident all the time and it seriously pisses me off. And don't get me started on the newsletters I still get that assume I'm KU. Ugh.

SoCoGirl

VineyardMel:

((Hugs)) This is all so hard--even worse with the uncertainty you've had to deal with. I have to be really careful on this site because it's 98% geared to healthy pregnancies babies. When I bump on my phone I hit the "newborns" tab by accident all the time and it seriously pisses me off. And don't get me started on the newsletters I still get that assume I'm KU. Ugh.

 

The newsletters suck.  That was one of the first things I deleted!  The morning after my D&C I got a "your belly at 11 weeks" update.  I almost threw my phone out the window.  

maxsom

So sorry for your loss.  *hugs*

mijakach

VineyardMel:

When I bump on my phone I hit the "newborns" tab by accident all the time and it seriously pisses me off.

OMG, me too! I hate that the newborns tab has to be right above the link back to the main board. I definitely click on it way too often. I also wish those stupid ads didn't have to be on the right hand side of the page.