Riding the Pity Train (PG mentioned not mine)

KGS2003

Last night a friend of mine had her baby. I thought I would be okay but I wasn't. The flood gates opened and I just couldn't stop crying. I am normally one to keep my emotions in check. ( I was raised to never show weakness and crying was weakness in our house) I just cried and cried. I am truly happy for her but sad for me. I should 30 weeks or 8 weeks depending on which loss I am thinking of.  

DH saw how hurt my heart was.  He knows I'm still going through the latter part of this MC. He wanted to do something nice so he took me to lunch today.  While we were chatting with our waitress she tells us she's 5 months pregnant and can't find a halloween costume cause everything is soooo tight.  This girl was a stick and I would have never known she was pregnant if she hadn't of mentioned it. It took everything I had to keep it together. So something nice turned into another reminder of the never ending ache in my heart. 

I find that I can't talk to my best friends cause their triplets and twins stories are hard to handle right now. I feel like I have no where to turn, so of course I came here.  Thank you for listening.  I'll do my best to get off the pity train at he next stop.  

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amandachs

Sometimes you just have to ride the train until you're ready to get off.  (((Hugs))) Take it easy on yourself, nothing about this journey is simple and you're entitled to your feelings.

orangegoggles

Big hugs. I had a cry fest today too. It isn't an easy ride

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dunlap09

I'm right on that train with you today.  chooo chooo Tomorrow will be a better day.

kevinandmonica2011

((big hugs))

bribri81404

amandachs:

Sometimes you just have to ride the train until you're ready to get off.  (((Hugs))) Take it easy on yourself, nothing about this journey is simple and you're entitled to your feelings.

This exactly! I rode that train for a while, all by myself at first!! I'm glad I finally found all these wonderful ladies on this board for my sanity!! ((Huge Hugs)) 

KGS2003

Thank you ladies. I knew you would understand.

bluebonnetmeg

I am so so sorry. ((hugs)) Even though my loss was not that recent, I still break down occasionally. At TV shows, in front of the grocery store, in the shower. Sometimes you just need to cry. I hope tomorrow is better.

ktsnshn

I am so sorry. It seems like the days you are trying to avoid thinking about being pregnant and babies are the days that there are babies and pregnant ladies everywhere. (((huge hugs)))

mikeANDjen448

I'm so sorry!!!   {{{hugs}}}

charmedgrl517

((HUGS)) So sorry....I am right there with you I hope tomorrow is better for you.

jenn0021

I'm so sorry. Crying is not a weakness. I like to think of it more as a necessity. I understand how it feels to hear about other peoples babies and pregnancy announcements and how much it hurts. Sending you big ((hugs)) and hoping tomorrow is better.