So nervous for my appt.

niknak1128

I see my RE again on 10/28. I'm SO nervous. I know we're just discussing what blood tests to run but I'm still scared.  My OB mailed me my placenta findings just because I asked her about it. Of course, I don't really know what any of this means.  I googled a lot which I suppose can be bad or good depending on how you look at it.  Turns out that my umbilical cord was absolutely normal which is not what they told me at the time of my u/s. They said it was a 2 vessel cord which they called a 'variation of the norm' but my pathology report said it was an unremarkable 3 vessel cord which is normal.  I did have placenta abruption.. they think caused my my early water break but could have happened and caused my water break. Not sure. Although everyone I've talked to says that if your placenta abrupts you would have pain and heavy bleeding which I didn't but I guess you can have a tear also. 

I guess I"m never really going to know but I'm SO nervous that I'm going to get there and they're going to say.. yeah you're always going to lose babies so probably shouldn't get pregnant. I know that's totally an over reaction on my part but I'm nervous and scared and I keep having dreams about it. It's like taken over my mind!  

butterfly843

((hugs)) I will keep you in my thoughts for your appt. After I lost my twins I was so nervous my first dr appt. My RE ran the full RPL bloodwork just to make sure before I cycled again that there were no other issues we didn't know about.

pb127

Big (((hugs))) for your appointment. I hope you get a chance to sit and go over everything with your OB and get some questions answered, and hopefully get a little peace of mind. Thinking of you!

johnnys june

*hugs*

lovemymaddy

((hugs)) I'm calling tomorrow to hopefully schedule my appointment. I have the same fear you do as far as my dr. saying the same thing as well. However, if that would be the case for some reason then I'd like to know now...I hate how our brains work now. 

krysiahamaty

Keeping you in my thoughts. Good luck and keep us posted.

Carolee

Good luck at your appointment.  I'll be thinking of you.

niknak1128

Agree! I hate that it makes you always skeptical.. afraid to believe in it too much.. afraid to have your hopes too high. It stinks.  I read something in my pathology about retroplacental hematoma. That freaked me out.. when I googled it was basically a pocket of blood between the uterine wall and the placenta.. at least that's what it seemed like.  When I went for my first u/s at 6wks .. there was this small pocket off to the side in my uterus and they said it could be blood or water or a sac that never developed. So now of course my brain keeps thinking.. hmm I wonder if that's related.  I should just stop googling but I can't help myself.