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Re: Remember when you thought you were fertile...

  • I was told when I was 19 that it would be very hard for me to conceive and I was dx with PCOS before we were married so I always knew I wasn't fertile. 

    BUT I just KNEW I would get pregnant on Clomid, KNEW I would get pregnant on injects and just KNEW I would get pregnant on our first IVF. Being full of hope while *thinking* you're fertile and knowing your infertile is very disappointing.  

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  • So many of these are true for me too.

    I decided that this summer I wasn't going to play Baseball because I didn't want to have to stop playing before the end of the season and let the team down, and have to tell our team early on. Now not only did I sit out this season in hopes I would get pg, but now I will probably have to sit out next season as well. :(

    Also, last time I went and bought jeans I could have bought a smaller size, but my DH said not to because when I got pg I would have room in the bigger pair, and hopefully that would mean wearing them longer.

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    I remember looking at other people's babies and thinking, "How cute" as opposed to "I hate her and I don't even know her. I bet she got pregnant without trying." I remember discussing baby names and nursery decor themes with DH instead of constantly discussing how much we owe on our home equity loan and credit card and low little we have in our savings account.
    :( This, all of it. Dh and I were randomly talking about how popular a certain name was this weekend and I popped onto babynames.com to look it up. Then I got sad and remembered I'd made a list on there for us years ago with the idea that we'd need names really, really soon!
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  • Tons of these, especially thinking we could plan the month.  Insane.  I feel soooo far away from that kind of hopefulness. One of the things I am most sad about missing out on is the excitement of POS at home and being so surprised and excited about it. 
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     6 Gonal-F, Cetrotide, HcG, Crinone IUI cycles= All BFN,
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    Our beloved baby boy was born sleeping Oct. 13, 2013 due to pROM/IC/Uterine infection.
    2nd IVF w/ICSI- Feb. '14 EPP/lupron/antagonist: Estrace, lupron, HGH, Gonal-F, Menopur, HcG, PIO, lovenox, doxy/dex.=21 retrieved, 16 mature, 15 fertilized!!  5dt of 1 blast/ 6 frozen. BFP!  Beta 1 9dp5dt:83.9  Beta 2: 11dp5dt: 145.2  Beta 3  14dp5dt: 497  Please be our sticky rainbow baby!

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  • I definitely did the tampon thing.  I have also put off buying new clothes for work because I don't want to waste the money since I was sure I wouldn't be able to fit into them in a short while.
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    I remember being scared to miss a day of birth control thinking (knowing) that I would get pregnant. Little did I know, my chances were VERY slim.

    Yep. I was one of those 'set-the-cell-phone-alarm-and-swallow-the-pill-in-one-second" for fear of my life changing with a pregancy in college. Meanwhile, I wasted all the $$ on them anyways.

    Wow, I really had no idea the chances were slim too.

    In college my roomies and I all had our phones set for the same time and we would all take our pills and celebrate "no babies time". Ugh! How I wish I could take that back!
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  • We also used to discuss baby names because we thought we'd need them soon.  

    We used to discuss whether we wanted a boy or a girl first - obviously we don't care anymore.

    We used to discuss how terrible it would be to have twins - now that's just two babies for the price of one.  Score!

    We used to discuss when we were going to announce our pregnancy.  We had a destination wedding and a local reception about a month later.  I thought it would be awesome to get KU before the wedding and announce it at our local reception.  Nope! Then I had the idea of announcing it on Mother's Day. Nope! Father's Day? Nope! My dad's B-Day? Nope! My B-Day? Nope! FIL's B-Day? Nope! MIL's B-Day? Nope! Trip out to California to visit in laws? Nope! Next in line is DH's B-Day, Thanksgiving, Christmas cards, Christmas, New Years... we just don't talk about announcing it anymore, now we talk about announcing our IF.

    We used to think that we'd wait until we were 12+ weeks to announce it to anyone, but now I think we'd announce it early to our immediate families because we would need the support if anything went wrong. 

    I used to wish I had longer cycles for fewer periods in a year.  Now I'm thankful for 26 day cycles because we can try more often.  


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  • I remember not wanting to buy new clothes because I was going to be buying maternity clothes soon and not be able to wear anything else.Embarrassed
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  • Ya. Before hubby and I were actively ttc, we slipped up a few times and I was so bummed thinking I would be pregnant during my last semester of college. I just had to graduate before I got pregnant. I graduated in May..
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    June- Cycle Break
    July- Forced cycle break due to cysts
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  • So what was going to be the inevitabe nursery is now my craft room. but we made plans to have the nursery downstairs, we're now turning that into a giant walk-in-closet for our bedroom

    I didn't buy small boxes of tampons (I'm to cheap to spend more) but I wouldn't go out and buy anymore until like the day AF showed up. I tried to time it perfectly and would use like regular when I should have been using super just in case I got pg next month. Now I keep myself fully stocked haha

     

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  • I'm definitely guilty of not buying new clothes because I'm sure that I will need to buy maternity clothes soon anyway.

    I'm totally a planner and have already thought that I'd make the announcement of our BFP on DH's birthday, when DH gets back from military training, Thanksgiving, etc... 

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    1 cycle Follistim: BFN, Lap to remove peritubal cyst May 2013
    2 cycles Follistim + trigger: BFN, Gonal F +IUI April 2014: BFP!!!!!! 

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  • I'll have to agree with most of these. I was the ever hopeful even though I knew I've always had screwed up cycles. I though we still had a chance to get pg on our honeymoon even though I was on BC b/c that kind of things happens all the time, right?!?! Confused

    I also hardly ever buy clothes (b/c I might need maternity clothes) but when I did I liked to get the baby doll shirts or anything with empire waist (b/c I could wear them for a while with a bump....) and now I look 3 months pg in them anyway b/c I've let myself get fat. OOOhhhh the irony of it all. 

    Oh and I broke down about a year into trying and bought this really cute onesie with our school's mascot on it b/c I was afraid by the time I got pg, they wouldn't have it anymore.... well we've been trying another year and a half since then and they have plenty of them stockpiled at the store I work at... so I see them everyday and its like a vicious taunt. 

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    **TTC since 04/09, C/P 02/02/10; 4 weeks, 3 days**
    **Dx: Anovulation, Hypothryroidism, Mild Endo, Pituitary Adenoma (prolactin issues), PAI-1, MFI **

    **7/10: Clomid + TI= BFN**
    **3/2/11: 1st RE appointment**
    **DH= Morph= 2%, Motility= 30%**
    **HSG= All clear!!**
    **3/11: Femara + Pregnyl + TI= BFN**
    **5/17/11: Laparoscopy / hysteroscopy = mild endo**
    **7/11: Novarel + IUI #1= BFN (7mil, 75% motility, 2% morph)**
    **8/11: Femara + Novarel + IUI #2= BFN (11mil, 35% motility, 1% morph)**
    **11/11: Femara + Novarel + IUI #3= BFN (9mil, 2% morph)**
    **Jan 2012: Follistim (75ius) + IUI #4= CANCELLED due to cyst -put on bcp**
    **Feb 2012: Follistim (75ius) + Novarel + IUI #4.2= BFFN (2.5mil, 13% motility, 1% morph)**
    **Mar 2012: Follistim (100ius) + IUI #5= CANCELLED due to 35mm & 14mm cysts**
    **On med break indefinitely...IF Sucks!**

    **Jan 2013: Follistim (100ius) + IUI #5.2= CANCELLED due to high prolactin level, MRI scheduled, pituitary adenoma found, put on Dostinex**
    **Mar 2013: Follistim (100ius) + IUI #5.3= CANCELLED due to uterine polyp, surgery scheduled for polypectomy and D&C**
    **03/22/13: Hysteroscopy, polypectomy and D&C**
    **May 2013: Finally got to start a cycle!!! Follistim (100ius) + IUI #5.4 = BFFN (6mil, 74% motility, 2% morph)** 

    **Jun 2013: Decide to start IVF**
    IVF w/ICSI #1 (Long Lupron Protocol)
    06/26/13: Start BCPs
    07/02/13: HSG #2= all clear
    07/15/13: Start Lupron 10 ius
    07/25/13: Suppression check
    07/28/13: Start stims (225IUs Follistim + 75IUs Menopur) drop to 5 IUs Lupron
    08/01/13: Monitoring: 12 follicles all about 10mm, E2- 313
    08/04/13: Monitoring: 18 follicles (15mm, 13mm, a few 11mm, rest 10mm or below) E2- 1,505
    Start Augmentin- antibiotic prep
    08/06/13: Monitoring: 13 follicles (18mm, 17mm, rest b/w 15mm-16mm!) Ready to trigger!! E2- 2,248
    08/08/13: ER-- 14R, 13M, 10F 
    08/11/13: One fertilized late, we now have 11 embryos!
    08/13/13: 5dt-- 2 blasts (Sheldon and Penny) 3AA and 3BB, none to freeze
    8/23/13: BFFN... Sheldon and Penny didn't stick**

    **8/29/13: Follow up... bad fragmentation issues. Changing protocol to Antagonist for round #2 coming soon! Also started on 81mg Aspirin after getting blood panel done and found out I have PAI-1**

    **Oct 2013: After large cysts, finally starting IVF #2**
    IVF w/ICSI #2 (Antagonist Protocol)
    BCPs started back in Sept due to cysts
    10/27/13: Start stims (225 IUs Gonal-F + 75 IUs Menopur)
    11/03/13 - 11/05/13: Add Ganirelix to the mix
    11/06/13: 3 follicles at 18mm-- Ready to trigger!
    11/08/13: ER-- 17R, 13M, 8F
    11/13/13: 5dt-- 2 blasts (Luke and Leia) 5AB and 4AB, 1 frostie
    11/20/13- 11/23/13: light positives on FRERs and Wondofos
    11/22/13: BFN per RE office (under HCG of 10)
    11/27/13: CP ::sigh::

    *12/03/13: Follow up...great response and quality this time, was given 50% chance of it working, just didn't stick. Great plan for 2014! 

    **Jan 2014: Last IVF of our SRP**
    IVF w/ICSI, freeze all, then FET
    12/27/13: Start BCPs
    01/19/14: Stims (375 IUs Gonal-F + 75 IUs Menopur)

    Congratulations Cutebride!! --TWINS!! Congratulations, Luvie, on your sweet boy! Congrats, Jess! So happy for you ladies! <3<3  
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  • I have to say, I read this post on my phone yesterday (crazy busy weekend, no actual computer time to be had) and enjoyed it immensely. I agree with most of them: no new clothes, small boxes of tampons, not buying OPKs in bulk, etc. The one I thought of was the spare bedroom. We bought the house intending that the room next to our master would be the nursery and kept our futon from the apartment purposely so that we'd have some sort of bed in there for late nights up with the baby. We're now going to turn that into a craft room, and the futon will become a seating area in what we hope will be a creative, relaxing space. Not at all the room we intended. We also didn't buy a house with a pool because we didn't want a pool with small children. I don't think we'd go back and buy a house with a pool given the chance, but that was our main reason.

    I also remember planning every month how we would tell family - how it would be related to someone's birthday or a holiday. I'd worry about what family event that may involve drinking was around that time and how I would hide my lack or partaking. Ah, those were the days.

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    I remember being convinced that I was going to have a honeymoon baby

     Likewise :(


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    March/April 2011 - 150mg Clomid + Ovidrel + TI = BFN
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    July 2011 - Gonal-F + Ovidrel + IUI#1(8/1/11)= BFN
    August 2011 - Gonal-F + Ovidrel + IUI#2 (8/30/11)=BFN
    September 2011 - BREAK NEEDED DUE TO ENLARGED OVARIES :(
    October 2011 - Gonal-F + Ovidrel + IUI#3 (10/23/11) = BFP!!
    Beta#1(11/7/11)=250 Beta#2(11/9/11)=487 Beta#3(11/17/11)=6500

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