Closets

roxyttandme

Closets are a funny thing. Well, in this context not funny at all. I keep all of Haleigh's clothes hung up in her empty nursery on display. About 95% of the time, as I walk by and see them - they make me smile. Sometimes I go in there and touch and hold her clothes and think about the time in my life that I was preparing for her to wear them - imaging my baby girl in them - imaging myself holding her in those clothes. To me, closets tell you about a person. They carry a sense of who that person is, what they like, what they don't like. They give you a time line of a person's life. Obviously sense all Haleigh's clothes still have tags on them - they also reflect the fact that she never got to experience the life we dreamt for her.

Maybe I am off my rocker. Anyone else get feel this way?  

ruthymusney

That is so sweet. I can't handle the clothes hung up. When I see tiny clothes it makes me break down. I'm sure that will pass at some point.

Mjmksb04

That is great that her clothes bring you some form of comfort. For me knowing that behind the closed nursery door was a dresser full of clothes she never got to wear was too much of a burden and I packed her clothes away. But sometimes when I am thinking of her, I unpack an outfit or two just to look at or visualize how big she would be or how she would look wearing them. I know it sounds sad, but it helps sometimes.

magdalina.h

We didn't have much for Aidan, but what we had I kept them hanging up. We bought the crib the weekend before he was born and I used to go in his room and just rub the crib thinking about what it would be like for him to be in there.

Shayna0182

It's ironic you brought up the topic of clothes.  I actually just gave my boss Hannah's newborn clothes, and crib sheets all brand new with tags.   I did cry while I was putting them in a bag, but they have been hung up in our office closet for almost a year and half.  I just felt it was time, plus I knew there was no way I could ever use them again, even if we had another baby girl.

If I get pregnant again, I am going to follow jewish superstition and not buy anything, until after the baby is born.  

johnnys june

I think this was beautiful put.  Deep, thoughtful, moving.  I might just have to add a tidbit to my blog.  I couldn't have said it more perfectly myself!  *hugs*  You're right, closets tell you the most about a person, even one so small.  Right now the entire nursey is like a close to me.  The door is always closed and rarely open.  But on those rare occassions where I need to go in there to get someting (it's turned into a mini storage room), I usually smile a bittersweet smile when I see the "heroes are born in our dreams" that I painted on the wall for my Logan.  He is and will always be "our little hero."

easjer05

We bought most of Gabriel's clothes two days before he died.  Much of it was gender neutral, because we wanted to be able to reuse it (and a lot of it we will - some not because of the difference in a January baby and a May baby in Texas).  But there were one or two special pieces I am going to put in his memory box when I go through the clothes.  One thing we bought that matched a shirt of my husband's - I joked about how daddy and son could match and how cute it would be.  It was also one of the few newborn items we bought, and I remember stretching it out over my belly and saying in awe that it was so tiny but I couldn't believe how big he'd have to get to wear it.  And another piece that probably would have been a coming home outfit.  I think those will be set aside as just Gabriel's. 

I think clothes can be special.  Ours aren't displayed because we never set up a nursery, but we kept them all.

hannahlb2

I too am comforted by looking at my daughter's clothes. When I see them it takes me back to when we were preparing for her birth. There's so much joy and anticipation wrapped up in her clothes. Some of them are so cute too!