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mdluv21

Hi ladies - I usually post of the infertility boards but I am very glad to see this board here.

I lost my boy/girl twins, Owen and Avery, at 18 weeks gestastion after a long journey to get pregnant.  Avery was born first and I just recently found out she lived over an hour and Owen was also born with a heartbeat but he only lived a few short minutes.  They are both buried at a cemetery near our house.

DH and I are getting ready to try again in Jan. with the frozen embroyos we have and I am so thankful there is now a board who understands how terrifying being pregnant again will be.  (If we are lucky enough for it to work.)

I am so sorry for all the ladies who belong here on this board, it is pain no parent should have to experience but I'm thankful for the support.

roxyttandme

I am so sorry for both your losses. 

(((hugs))) 

magdalina.h

I'm so sorry for your losses

Shayna0182

I am sorry for the pain you've been through.  Owen and Avery are beautiful names. 

Auki13

I am so sorry for your losses and I am glad we can be here for you when you try again!  I'm not sure if you want to answer this, and please don't if you don't want to- but what do you mean you only recently found out Avery lived for an hour?  I am glad you were at least able to meet your little ones, and I know they will forever be in your heart. HUGS

krysiahamaty

I remember your post from the PAIF page. I had pretty much just joined when you experienced your loss. I am so, so sorry for your losses and I am hoping for the best for you for your TTC. MH and I will start trying as soon as we can.

mdluv21

Auki13:

I am so sorry for your losses and I am glad we can be here for you when you try again!  I'm not sure if you want to answer this, and please don't if you don't want to- but what do you mean you only recently found out Avery lived for an hour?  I am glad you were at least able to meet your little ones, and I know they will forever be in your heart. HUGS

I had decided that I did not want to hold them after they were born.  I was pretty drugged up and I don't know if it is the right decision but I just couldn't do it and neither could my DH.  The doctor had told us because they were so small that if they were born with a heartbeat that it most likely would only last a few minutes and when she was born I still trying to deliver Owen.

In the process of getting my medical records switched to my new MFM I read all the reports and found Avery had actually lived much longer than the doctors/nurses had let on.  I was still in labor with Owen the entire time she was living but still at moments I wonder if I did the right thing, it is just so hard to know when it happens that suddenly what the right choice is.  In the beginning, I didn't think I want to do a funeral either but then decided we needed that closure and a place to go visit them.

I have pictures of them but I have never opened the envelope.

SockMonkeySam

My daughters name is Avery also. My husband rocked her for hours as I  was still in labor with Alex.

I am sorry for your loss. I wish you the best of luck with your upcoming cycle in January.

Carolee

I'm so sorry for the loss of your twins, and you are right - no parent should have to experience this kind of pain.  I hope this board will provide all of us with another source of support.

lovemymaddy

I'm so sorry. I hope that January brings you lots of hope and good luck!  ((hugs))

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starrkitten89

I am so sorry for your losses.Huge ((hugs))

Auki13

mdluv21:

Auki13:

I am so sorry for your losses and I am glad we can be here for you when you try again!  I'm not sure if you want to answer this, and please don't if you don't want to- but what do you mean you only recently found out Avery lived for an hour?  I am glad you were at least able to meet your little ones, and I know they will forever be in your heart. HUGS

I had decided that I did not want to hold them after they were born.  I was pretty drugged up and I don't know if it is the right decision but I just couldn't do it and neither could my DH.  The doctor had told us because they were so small that if they were born with a heartbeat that it most likely would only last a few minutes and when she was born I still trying to deliver Owen.

In the process of getting my medical records switched to my new MFM I read all the reports and found Avery had actually lived much longer than the doctors/nurses had let on.  I was still in labor with Owen the entire time she was living but still at moments I wonder if I did the right thing, it is just so hard to know when it happens that suddenly what the right choice is.  In the beginning, I didn't think I want to do a funeral either but then decided we needed that closure and a place to go visit them.

I have pictures of them but I have never opened the envelope.

 

I am so sorry you had to go through everything you did.  I can only imagine that it would difficult to see later on that your baby lived longer than you originally thought.  I firmly believe that babies can feel love in utero and I hope it can comfort you like it did me, that our babies only experienced love and comfort in their short lives.  I feel lucky that I got a chance to prepare for Annabelle's death and I can only imagine how confusing it would be having to do it all as it happens.  You did what was best for all of you at the time, and I personally believe that your babies understand that.  (Hugs)

kdp2008

I am so sorry for your loss.  I lost boy/girl twins as well.  I hope that the new year brings nothing but good things for you.