It never freaking ends *prayers needed*

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We had Claire's 2 month appointment and it didn't go well.  She has been fussy for a few weeks off and on, and she doesn't like to nap during the day.  I had seen the ped for this before, and today he was concerned about her tight muscle tone (hands still like to be clenched in fists) and her right eye occasionally wanders.  So, he referred us to a neurologist and we have an appointment tomorrow.  I am totally freaking out.  He wouldn't tell me what for, what he's thinking, etc..  Said she is normal in a lot of ways and doing what she should be - good neck control, cooing, tracking, and so on.  He said the things he is concerned about are very subtle, but wants to be cautious.

The only thing I can find about muscle tone and eyes is Cerebral Palsy.  Ugh, I just can't stand the thought of something being wrong with her, too.  I feel like a total failure of a mother and just want to crawl in a hole and wake up after the appointment tomorrow.  Any good thoughts or prayers would be appreciated that she is ok.  

AngelPack

I will be praying that it is nothing for you.  I am glad they were able to get an appointment so soon for you so that you don't have to worry for very long. 

"...do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself."  I always loved that one.  Enjoy today, tomorrow will be whatever it will be. 

And you are not a failure.  It will be okay.

ECUGirl2004

Aw, man, I'm so sorry. I hope that the doctor is just being very cautious and it's nothing to worry about.

I'm glad you got an appointment for tomorrow though; at least you don't have to wait long. I hope you get good news.

No matter what the outcome is, you are not a failure. You are a good mom and Owen and Claire are lucky to have you. {{hugs}}

uncjules

You are so not a failure. Please never think that. I'll say prayers that everything turns out well. Good luck!

NatPhoto09

I'm so sorry that you are going through this.  I hope that it is nothing and the doc is just being overly cautious.  I will be saying a prayer that everything turns out fine.  Hugs and know that you are a great mom no matter what happens.  Hugs.

becki777

You are not a failure. You are a great mom who is doing everything she can to take care of her babies! I hope Claire's appt goes well and you can get some answers. Its good that you have a doctor who is being pro-active to catch a possible problem. ::hugs:::

tracelini

becki777:

You are not a failure. You are a great mom who is doing everything she can to take care of her babies! I hope Claire's appt goes well and you can get some answers. Its good that you have a doctor who is being pro-active to catch a possible problem. ::hugs:::

Couldn't have said it better myself. Hope it's nothing!!

raceyrae

{{Hugs}} I'm so sorry you're faced with this right now but I'm hopeful the pedi is just being cautious.  Hopefully the appointment tomorrow confirms that all is ok.  And definitely don't think you're a failure!  You aren't and I'm sure O & C don't feel that way.  You're doing great and I'm sure you are a source of strength for them when these things come up.

akspriss

****HUGS**** So sorry u are going through this right now and I hope the appt. tomorrow goes well and it was just that dr. was trying to be proactive and make sure all is well. You are a wonderful mom to both O & C so dont get yourself down!! take it easy and i'll say lots of prayers for you guys!! keep us posted!

lalabee0425

Hoping that everything is ok. That said, are you still at J&M? This sounds like Callie's 2 month apt. They sent us immediately to a pediatric neurologist freaking me out completely. As in, we had to go straight from the pedi.  After 4 stressful weeks, an EEG and a head ultrasound, she's fine. After being put through the ringer for no reason (after a second opinion) we switched doctors finally. Callie was still clinching her fists at 3 and even 4 months. If you want any more info about what we did and our experience just shoot me an email. I know what you are going through because I was in your shoes 4 months ago and playing 1000 "what ifs" in my head. Hang in there.

crescentmoon99

Ugh, I'm so sorry you are going through this! Will be thinking of you guys tomorrow, and hope you get good news at the neurologist.  Sending lots of hugs your way!

unc00ref

Thoughts and prayers.  I know this worries you and stresses you. I'm so sorry to hear.  I pray that it's nothing to be concerned about and that it was all cautionary.  HUGS

lah1177

Many thoughts and prayers for you!! I think it is great that the neurologist can see you tomorrow, it will be great to meet with him/her and get some answers. You are a wonderful mom and your children are very lucky to have you! Best of luck tomorrow!

starz080

First off, you are in no way a failure.  It sounds like the pedi is being extra cautious which is good.  I'm sorry you're going through this  I'm praying and my thoughts are with you.

cmbrown

ECUGirl2004:

Aw, man, I'm so sorry. I hope that the doctor is just being very cautious and it's nothing to worry about.

I'm glad you got an appointment for tomorrow though; at least you don't have to wait long. I hope you get good news.

No matter what the outcome is, you are not a failure. You are a good mom and Owen and Claire are lucky to have you. {{hugs}}

Exactly my thoughts, I'm just not good at writing them out.  Thinking of you.

MelBee12

I hope it's nothing and they are just being super cautious.  From the sounds of it, whatever it is, is very subtle.  You are being a great mom and doing whatever it takes to make sure your kids are healthy.  Do not feel like a failure!!  ::hugs::

MrsHughesNC

Ditto everyone else..Of COURSE you aren't a bad parent. Hoping that the doctor is just being extra cautious. I'm sure if he had serious concerns, he would have told you what they were. Hang in there, and keep us posted! *hugs*

VivianLee

Oh Sweetie, BIG FAT HUGE HUGS!!!  Saying a prayer right now for you and C! 

CurbsideProphet

I'm sorry. I hope the pedi is just being cautious and things go well tomorrow.

withoutshoes

First of all, hugs to you!  I pray the docors are being cautious. I can't believe the doctor wouldn't express his concerns with you today. That's a little strange to me.  

I will be specifically praying for peace for you tomorrow, knowledge for the doctors, and clear concise answers for you.

Please let us know how tomorrow goes.  Also, stop thinking you are a failure!  Hold your head up and hug those little ones tight tonight.

bobsbride2006

Hugs and prayers sent your way. You are not a failure. . .they're just being cautious. What baby doesn't ball up their fists when crying? I'm glad they got you in so quickly. Keep us posted!

tourqeyes

Praying for you!

laceysmom82

Many thoughts and prayers for your family.  You are NOT a failure, please don't think that.  (((Hugs)))