A much needed vent--things that suck

Llamamama

I just have to get my thoughts out of my head.. I am so sorry to dump this on you all...

Things that suck:

Getting sick days before I was due to start my period..being nauseated, having bathroom issues (TMI sorry!) is bad but when you think it might be pg related you take it with a smile..til you find out you were JUST sick. 

Reading on fb that my 40 yr old friend is nesting and working on a nursery because she just got pg without hardly trying..

Realizing that after 2 yrs of trying the chances are getting slimmer and slimmer but the desire is 100 fold--which is not making TTC any easier or less stressful.

Getting the Target baby sale flyer in the mail yesterday.. and having to throw it away today.

Having to start the acupunture/herbs (29 pills a day!) all over again but not having nearly as much hope that it will work.

Feeling like I am alone in the process because the few IRL that know I am TTC, are (I am sure) tired of hearing about my failures and the ones that don't know will certainly judge me for trying at this age.

Sorry to be such a downer.. just having a little pity party this morning..trying to get over it before the weekend.    Thanks for reading.

mtlaurel

Sorry, you're having a sucky day. Mind if I join you and add to your list? Misery loves company.

Things that suck:

- Listening to the 26-year old half-wit in the office, who's with a 40-something cop, try to talk about unfair office practices for working moms. She is not a mother, but her ramblings make you 1) sure that she'll have a child before you, and 2) ponder the unfairness of life.

- Wanting desperately to go on vacation after 2 closely scheduled IVF cycles, but realizing you can't because you've blown pretty much ALL of your sick and vacation time on preparing for and doing said cycles.

- Getting PIO shots when you have no hope of achieving pregnancy.

- Completely choking up and getting a hot flash during a project interview for work because you feel overloaded with hormones.

Thanks, I feel little better. Hope you will soon!

Llamamama

mtlaurel:

Sorry, you're having a sucky day. Mind if I join you and add to your list? Misery loves company.

Things that suck:

- Listening to the 26-year old half-wit in the office, who's with a 40-something cop, try to talk about unfair office practices for working moms. She is not a mother, but her ramblings make you 1) sure that she'll have a child before you, and 2) ponder the unfairness of life.

- Wanting desperately to go on vacation after 2 closely scheduled IVF cycles, but realizing you can't because you've blown pretty much ALL of your sick and vacation time on preparing for and doing said cycles.

- Getting PIO shots when you have no hope of achieving pregnancy.

- Completely choking up and getting a hot flash during a project interview for work because you feel overloaded with hormones.

Thanks, I feel little better. Hope you will soon!

Thanks for sharing your misery!  It does help a little to read what others are going thru..it makes me feel like I am not alone after all.  I hate that misery loves company but it does.

Mrs.McIrish

I soo want to jump on the vent bandwagon:

1) Wish the co-worker who is pumping would stop walking past my office with her pump bag multiple times a day. This just reminds me multiple times a day that you are like 30 and just had your 2nd kid in 2 years. Must be nice to be fertile..

2) Wish co-workers would stop sending "out of office, I am going on vacation" emails(just got 2 back to back). You are just reminding me that I am stuck here to do your work while I start shooting up wiht 4 injections a day while you go party.

3) Wish I didn't have to leave my house at 6am tomorrow to go drive an hour to the hospital for the baseline.. Why can't your satellite be opened on the weekend and why do my stupid tests ALWAYS fall on the weekend?

ok, I'm done for now.

Llamamama

Mrs.McIrish:

I soo want to jump on the vent bandwagon:

1) Wish the co-worker who is pumping would stop walking past my office with her pump bag multiple times a day. This just reminds me multiple times a day that you are like 30 and just had your 2nd kid in 2 years. Must be nice to be fertile..

2) Wish co-workers would stop sending "out of office, I am going on vacation" emails(just got 2 back to back). You are just reminding me that I am stuck here to do your work while I start shooting up wiht 4 injections a day while you go party.

3) Wish I didn't have to leave my house at 6am tomorrow to go drive an hour to the hospital for the baseline.. Why can't your satellite be opened on the weekend and why do my stupid tests ALWAYS fall on the weekend?

ok, I'm done for now.

Today I am thankful that I do not work in an office.  Sorry Mrs. McIrish. 

brooklynesque

More things that suck: 

Realizing some friends have had two children in the time since you started TTC #1.

Avoiding friends' invitations if you suspect they might announce a pregnancy.

Being totally obsessed with something you can't discuss with many people (and certainly no one at work, where you could most use an excuse for being so moody and zoned out!).

Realizing how long you've put off taking one of your beloved hiking vacations in exotic lands because "by then I might be pg!"

Realizing too late, soon after a BFN, that you've picked the Sunday Mass where they're baptizing 11 children, including two sets of twins.

Llamamama

brooklynesque:

Realizing how long you've put off taking one of your beloved hiking vacations in exotic lands because "by then I might be pg!"

I totally get this.. I don't plan anything more than a few weeks in advance because I could be pg by then.. after all this time I sure feel ridiculous making plans around the pregnancy that has yet to happen.

Mrs.McIrish

brooklynesque:

Realizing too late, soon after a BFN, that you've picked the Sunday Mass where they're baptizing 11 children, including two sets of twins.

Ugh...awful

sillybelle

All those things really do suck. Hugs to everybody.

owlprof

Getting ready to go to a friend's anniversary party and realizing that even though (1) I am the youngest in the group, and (2) most of my friends started having babies after 35 (without any problem), I will be the only one without kids. 

Oh, and my friend who is an OB will be there, and I'm sure she will ask about my progress.  (She had her babies at age 41 and 42). 

The good news is that there is an open bar, of which I will fully take advantage.

Mrs.McIrish

Ugh.. DH just told me that my neighbor is PG again...due in April.  She has a 2 yr old.  I know it has nothing to do with me but I am so upset.  I hate this neighborhood full of kids that I live in.

INgirlinDenver

Co-worker saying.."I really don't want 4 kids but I guess if I get pregnant again I'll eventually be ok with it."  She said this after kid #2 as well. We had started TTC before she got pregnant with #2.

Another co-worker "You are so lucky that you adopted and didn't have to deal with being pregnant.  I hated being pregnant both times".  When she found out that we were adopting our son, she said "Oh we're going to adopt an older child(at least age 2) as I HATE babies."

Target baby mailer didn't go over very well here either.   

 

 

Llamamama

INgirlinDenver:

Co-worker saying.."I really don't want 4 kids but I guess if I get pregnant again I'll eventually be ok with it."  She said this after kid #2 as well. We had started TTC before she got pregnant with #2.

Another co-worker "You are so lucky that you adopted and didn't have to deal with being pregnant.  I hated being pregnant both times".  When she found out that we were adopting our son, she said "Oh we're going to adopt an older child(at least age 2) as I HATE babies."

Target baby mailer didn't go over very well here either.   

 

 

" I'll eventually be ok with it"..&  "I HATE babies.."  WOW.  And that Target mailer sure got around!  Spreading all it's misery..

Llamamama

Thanks all for the posts.. I am feeling slightly less homicidal tonight..slightly.  On to the next cycle.  Good luck to us all! 

Classicoyote

No need to apologize.  I am with you in this.  I am 43 and my in-laws have realized NOT to talk to me about giving them a grandchild.  I just don't want to talk about it.  Some think we are crazy for wanting a child at my "advanced age."  On top of that, I had knee surgery in August which put me behind again and my knee feels worse now than before the surgery.  I've given myself until I am 44 but I don't see it happening.

Just remember, you ARE NOT ALONE!  We are all here for you.

HUGS!

BeckyP005

Mrs.McIrish:

Ugh.. DH just told me that my neighbor is PG again...due in April.  She has a 2 yr old.  I know it has nothing to do with me but I am so upset.  I hate this neighborhood full of kids that I live in.

DH and I saw a house we liked last year  and when I saw ALL the kids in the neighborhood I ran out of their so fast! No way was I putting myself thru that!!

blondee75

Here are a couple more...

Having others at work find out that they are pregnant...

Having relatives find out that they are pregnant(one who had a vasectomy)!

Having individuals say comments that hit right to the heart(saying such comments knowing that you are ttc)

 

 

Country Girl in the City

I have one too.  There is a woman that works in an office that shares a bathroom with me.  She is very pregnant and not very happy about it.  I have to listen to her say things like "I will do whatever I want to while I am pregnant.  I don't understand why I should deprive myself of anything."