Just need to vent (longgggg)

MsAng02

I'm exhausted. And broke. And I don't feel like anyone but other single mom's would understand. So if you make it thru all of this- A) you're a saint Thanks for listening.

DD#1's (she's 7) father has been working for cash under the table for over a year and the last CS I received from him was 56.00 last December. The state has finally sent my case to the PA's office- and I know I'm in a long line- for non-payment. He's married to someone who makes substantial money and DD has a TV With Cable in her bedroom at their house but hardly any clothes. But he can't pay any CS- or help with school lunch and after school care (which is what I would be using CS for). They can afford to feed 5 animals. But no CS. They can go on vacations every other month. But no CS. He says- it's Her Money- not his. I've told him before: it's not a crime to be married to someone with money- but it is a crime not to pay your CS. His license has been suspended due to non-payment of a traffic ticket- so I've told him- on the advice of my atty- that he can't pick her up for visitation until he provides me with proof that he can drive. He hasn't.

DD#2's (she's 5 months) father has never called to check on her or paid any money. It's all tied up with the attorneys. Further more- he was working for his brother's law firm and "conveniently" lost his job last week. My atty says it's most likely a stall tactic due to the amt. of CS. he was going to have to pay. And it's not like a HUGE amount- but it would've helped me pay childcare and buy food/diapers. And I can tell you- his ExW/Kids are not doing without. And he speaks to them every single day. etc.

I'm obviously living check to check and I work FT and there are days when I feel like I am failing miserably at all of this. And am I wrong that when I hear other people saying "My H/ SO/ BF is out of town for such and such amount of time and I'm a single mom/exhausted" that it makes me stabby?  I know that my pain/hardship isn't anymore/less than anyone else's; but man! someday's it feels like it.

Phew! I feel better! Sorry this is so long- I really just needed to vent.

PrettyInPearls23

It's completely normal to feel like that as a single parent. Each and every one of us on this board has felt that way at one point or another. There are some days I wish my XH would fall off the face of the earth so DS and I could live our life the way we want to, without having to deal with him. On the flip side, there are others on this board who would give their left arm to have their X involved in their child's life so they could catch a break. We all have unique situations and circumstances, but we can all agree that being a single/only parent is exhausting at times.

 

You're not alone in this...hang in there momma!