PPD or just regular Depression or something else?

taylorkelley44

I have been very anxious, emotional, and completely unorganized for the last few weeks. (like, not remembering to pay bills, laying out of work even though I really need to go, and haven't even registered for school yet - I am a few semesters away from my bachelor's degree).

I have also been struggling with my weight post baby. I gained a good 60 pounds when I was pregnant and really haven't lost any. And last night I sat on my bed when everyone was asleep and highly considered going in the bathroom and making myself throw up... I know it's awful to consider and I didn't do it ... but to be honest I wanted to. I told myself that I could control myself if I started ... that I'd stop if it got too out of hand... but a voice kept saying ... "You can't stop", "You'll end up hurting yourself more", etc.

As for the anxiety, I wll be sitting there and all of a sudden feel like i'm about to bust of my skin. I can't sit still, and i get really cranky and snarky.

Does PPD have anything to do with all this or do you think it's something else?

(Back story ... I did take Zoloft during my pregnancy after my Grandmother passed away 5 months in. My doctor thought it would be the best for me.)

TIA - And please only leave helpful comments. I don't need anyone making me feel worse than I already do.

mrsbnlmel

I have always felt like, who cares if it's PPD or clinical depression or generalized anxiety, if you feel like things aren't right then you need help. Do you know what I mean? At the end of the day the diagnosis is so much less important than reaching out and getting treatment. It's great that you posted here. That takes a lot of courage and is proof that you want things to get better. I'd talk to the same doctor who worked with you after the loss of your grandmother. Best of luck to you! :::hugs:::

ksspiff

mrsbnlmel:

I have always felt like, who cares if it's PPD or clinical depression or generalized anxiety, if you feel like things aren't right then you need help. Do you know what I mean? At the end of the day the diagnosis is so much less important than reaching out and getting treatment.

I really like this statement.  I really have no experience to talk from other than my PPD, but the important thing is to get the help you need.  Thanks, MrsBnlmel

I'll add my luck and ~hugs~ too.

 

FYI: my anxiety caused some of the same physical sensations.