I can't believe it's been 2yrs

crystalknpp

since this whole thing started. This time 2yrs ago I was surprising DH as he got home from work with my very first BFP!  We were so naive and excited.  We told our families right away and started talking about baby showers and holidays.  Now here I am going through my 4th loss and figuring out when we would be able to start our 2nd round of IVF.

I'm not gonna lie I was a total FH and never in a million years thought we'd be here.  We got KU our first cycle trying but thats the only part of this whole process that came easy to us.  Ugh I hate that the next few months are filled with alot of tough dates and that looking at a calendar is so painful.

Oct 19th- we lost our first LO  Oct 28th I was due with our little girl which was my 3rd loss and Nov 30th I was due with the 2nd baby we lost and I don't have to tell you ladies why Thanksgiving and Christmas completely suck.  Can we just skip to January now?

CashewsMommy

{{{hugs}}} I know how you feel! It was 2 years ago for me on the 19th. A lot can happen in 2 years. 

crystalknpp

CashewsMommy:

{{{hugs}}} I know how you feel! It was 2 years ago for me on the 19th. A lot can happen in 2 years. 

I'm sorry love.  I hate milestones and that any of us have been through so much!

butterfly843

((Hugs)), November 13th will be the 2 yr anniversary of my first loss. I thought by now we would have our take home baby. But I was also dumb to think I was in the safe time since I was in second tri.

Carolee

Big (((HUGS))) to you.  My 2 years is coming up as well, and I never in a million years thought I'd be where I am today.  I'll be thinking of you these next few months.  I'm with you - I'd love to skip to January also.

crystalknpp

butterfly843:

((Hugs)), November 13th will be the 2 yr anniversary of my first loss. I thought by now we would have our take home baby. But I was also dumb to think I was in the safe time since I was in second tri.

You weren't dumb for feeling safe love.  With my 3rd pregnancy we found out at our 12wk 4 day u/s and I never thought we'd get the news we did.  Everything was going great and there was no reason to think anything bad was going to happen!  I think we need to do our best to hold on to some hope and optimism after all that we've been through! ((HUGS))

Tapatio

I know how you feel. I started this whole process about 2.5 years ago and it doesn't seem to be getting any easier. I'm right there with you...I'd also like to skip the holidays! ((big hugs))

cutebride73

(((((hugs))))  I know it is so hard to believe that we are where we are - it's been over 2 years since we started TTC as well.  I am coming up to my due dates for my 1st and 2nd losses in Oct and Nov, I should be planning a first birthday for one of them now.  Or I should have an almost 11 week old.  Or I should be 14 weeks pregnant.  But none of these things is true.  It just sucks and it's awful and unfair.  I hate that we are all in this position here.  More (((((hugs))))     

MandaS08

I'm so sorry-You've been through so much in the last two years! Huge Hugs!

I just passed the year mark of our first and only BFP and its hard to believe its been that long, and I never would have thought a year later we'd be talking about IVF!  Right after I first miscarried I went ahead and bought maternity clothes for the summer, thinking that of course I would get pregnant quickly again and still need them-I wish I could go back to being that naive again!

johnnys june

*hugs*  I totally get this.  October 28th is my Logan's birthday...last year the holidays were a blur b/c I was numb...this year, I feel it all.  *HUGE HUGS*

lavril

MandaS08:

I'm so sorry-You've been through so much in the last two years! Huge Hugs!

I just passed the year mark of our first and only BFP and its hard to believe its been that long, and I never would have thought a year later we'd be talking about IVF!  Right after I first miscarried I went ahead and bought maternity clothes for the summer, thinking that of course I would get pregnant quickly again and still need them-I wish I could go back to being that naive again!

I did the same thing - "of course" it would be super easy right?  *sigh*  If only we could be so naive again...

Big group (((HUG)))

grr_aargh

:hugs:

 

I'm sorry.  

buckeyebaby814

::HUGS::

crystalknpp

Thank you ladies! Some days are definitely harder then others and I just hate that we have all been through so much!