For the last 3 months 3 weeks and 3 days I just haven't felt right. Even the day DD was born I felt absolutely no connection to her. I blamed it on the epidural. The three weeks that followed it still didn't feel like she was mine. I blamed it on baby blues. Now I don't want to take care of her. I hardly hold her I usually have her in the swing or on the floor. When I do hold her I usually give her DH and find something to occupy myself. I worry constantly about her though. I'm always afraid that I'm going to wake up and she won't be breathing. I'm constantly angry at DH. I blamed that on AF returning and my hormones get back to normal. I pick fights with him then proceed to cry for 2 hours after fighting because I don't want to fight I just can't not be angry with him. I constantly beat myself up and feel like I failed DD because I stopped EBF at 1 month just because I wore me out. But right now everything is so very clear. Something is truly wrong with me and I need to stop ignoring it.