TTA time closing in... :::gulp:::

EclairAngst

I'm terrified.  DH and I had decided to TTA until October-ish, which would be this cycle or next, depending on when I get around to O-ing.   I thought that, by now, I'd feel stronger than I do.  I thought I'd feel like I could handle another miscarriage, if that were to be the case.  But just the thought of the stress of a pregnancy about puts me in tears right now.    At the same time, the pull to have a child is so so strong lately.  Stronger than ever, in fact.   I'm not one to wish away anything, but in this case, I'm so scared of pregnancy - I wish I could just skip to having a LO.   This has always been one of my favorite quotes, but I don't think I've ever felt so defined by it:  

Rawr08

Oh hun I know it is scary, if you don't think you are ready maybe you could wait another cycle?  I know nobody wants to wait another cycle. We will be here for you to get you through whatever TTC can throw at you!  Sending you tons of love!

PS- I can't see your PIP, so I hope to look at it when I get home!

CashewsMommy

{{hugs}} It's a very scary process... but I know I wouldn't be where I am today without the big risks I took in life. As long as you have good friends around you, which we will always be, you can do anything!! 

butterfly843

((hugs))

martinimomma

::stalking you::

((Huge Hugs)), my friend.  I wish I could take away the fear, doubt. and pain  You'll know when the time is right.

::backing slowly out of post::

csquared426

Oh hun, I know it's scary - we're here for you.

PS. I love that quote. Thank you for sharing.

Carolee

I've never heard that quote before - love it!  I feel the same way about pregnancy - I'm terrified of things going wrong, and I'm a worrier by nature.  I tend to think about the what-ifs and the worst-case scenarios, and the thought of being PGAL terrifies me.  Big (((HUGS))) to you, and I hope as TTC time comes closer you start feeling less anxious about it.

LilMaggs

PetraStonegirl:

If we refuse to face our fears, we refuse the possibilities that lay on the other side of them.

(((HUGS)))

We are here to walk this path with you. 

This!

I've actually really enjoyed (mostly) my TTA time. I've been focusing on healing, playing with the pony, and being me. For the first time in four years of TTC(AL), I'm actually feeling like I have a shot at beating depression.  It's been something I needed. I needed to define myself as something other than an empty uterus, and after 6 months of TTA, I'm finally getting there. But the thought of going back to TTC leaves my stomach in knots.