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My worst fears were realized.

MrsSilkyMrsSilky
in March 2012 Moms

I have posted a couple of times about finding my baby's heartbeat on the doppler at 9 1/2 weeks but then couldn't find it for the last week or so.   I kept holding on to hope that it was user error and surely I was in that 3-5% of women that see the hearbeat at 8 1/2  weeks and go on to have a beautiful baby.  

I'm sad to say that I fall in the small percentage.  As soon as the u/s tech but the wand to my belly I could tell. She said "oh look how he's sitting up."  I immediately said where's the heartbeat,  can't see it.  I looked at her face and knew. My mom was with me and she held me as a laid there waiting for the tech to measure.  The baby measured close to 10 weeks and I was about 11 weeks yesterday. My ticker was always a week ahead b/c I ovulate late but the doc always wanted to keep my due date for March 26th.  So there it is.  I'm waiting for the hospital to call to set up my D&C which likely will not be until Friday.

 This is my second loss (first at 6 weeks) then I had a healthy son, now a 10 week loss. I'm a sad mess and I hope from the absolute bottom of my heart that no one else on this board has to go through this.  Just seeing my little baby floating there curled up on the u/s screen will haunt me forever.  I have not meant to post this to make anyone fearful, but this is my story and I wanted to get it out.  I sincerely wish you all a healthy pregnancy. Thank you for all the encouraging words you have given me.

 

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