XP: WTF appt was today

Mrs.McIrish

I had my WTF from IVF#1 today. I got the DE speech which I expected to get but it still hurts. We are still going to try again with my OE with MDLF (we did EPP last time). I know I should try to stay optimistic but I really don't have much hope it will get us any more eggs or better quality eggs. When you are aiming for 4 eggs, it is pretty depressing. My embie quality was just atrocious last time so that is the main reason for my sadness and not the low number retrieved.  I am also very much afraid I won't even get to a retrieval this next/final time.  I am currently waiting for insurance approval and it is a fight to get it with my numbers/results of last IVF. They want a letter from the RE saying I have more than a 5% chance of success.  If they approve, we will start when AF shows up in about 2 weeks. 

Instead of seeing the light at the end of the tunnel, it is getting darker here each day and I am just sad beyond words. (DH does not want to do DE or adopt due to the cost.)

owlprof

Oh, McIrish, I'm so sorry.  I have been thinking a lot about you and wondered what your insurance had decided.  I hope that you get another shot at this, and I hope that your miracle baby comes along soon!  Sending you lots and lots of hugs!

Country Girl in the City

I am so sorry that it seems so dark right now.  Hugs

BeckyP005

Oh McIrish I'm hoping the best for you and I'm sorry. This whole IF is depressing and I wish we could all come into some money!! Keep your head up and hope that you get your approval.

ELF4321

I've been thinking about you.  I hope your insurance approval comes through.  You never know, maybe the alt. protocol will get better results (although I totally understand not wanting to get your hopes up too much).  Please keep us posted.

HappyMrsK

I'm sorry. I hope you get the approval and have success with your next attempt.

ForTheLoveOf Pink

I'm sorry too. I've been feeling like I'm so deep in the tunnel too. Sorry this is not working!!!!

Llamamama

I am so very sorry you are having such a rough time  :(I hope and pray that you will get your insurance to cooperate.  I have a good feeling about your next attempt. 

jb2rn

I have been thinking of you. I am glad you updated. I hope your insurance lets you try again. Hugs, as always.

brooklynesque

I'm sorry.  Still keeping my fingers crossed for you.

stever

I'm so sorry

Reilly626

Hang in there, go outside for a walk, perk yourself up and try to stay positive. It only takes one!!!

amandaleigh1

My fingers are crossed that you get quickly approved by insurance! Sorry, about the DE speech...

shyntrue

I'm sorry McIrish!  This process is so hard.  I'm sending you (((Big HUGS))) 

happywifemomofone

McIrish.....I'm sorry that you had to go through a negative WTF meeting.  Been there done that and I hate every meeting that I have to go to with a RE because I assume it's going to be all bad news again.  You have to remember that you had a handful of eggs-but that DOES NOT mean they are representive of all the eggs that you have left.  I try to think that I have probably 1500-2000 eggs left, of those-if 150-200 are of good quality, then that's good enough for me.  It only takes one.  I hope that you have better luck with MDLP (micro-dose flare?)  The micro-dose flare has been the only protocol that got me to retrieval.........and I hope that it can do the same for you.  Good luck with the insurance-that's a sucky hassle.  Sending thoughts and lots of hugs your way. 

I should also be cycling-probably a little after you though.  My day 21 labs are on 9-23, then I have to wait for FP to start stims.

happywifemomofone

Did you ask your RE about supplements or HGH?  Would be interested to hear what other REs have to say about these things.  Just so you know, our RE isn't going to use HGH for the entire cycle-and it should cost between $500-600 OOP.

lhcooper

Ugh, McIrish, I'm so sorry.  Here's hoping it gets approved and you can go for it.  We can talk more about *maybe* trying to get your DH to see the positives in DE or adoption if it really comes to that, but really, it may not!

hav2run

I am so sorry.  Hang in there, and fight with your insurance company.  You deserve another try.

winidpu

I am so sorry for you. IF sucks and it's hard to see the light at the end of the tunnel when all we seem to get is bad news and BFN. I do hope this second IVF is what it takes and you get your miracle baby. Hang in there. 

SaintCity

So very sorry.  I pray with all my heart that everything works out with insurance and you get another chance.  I firmly believe you have some great eggs in there, I can just feel it.  Very best of luck to you!

tst1998

I hope things go smoothly with the insurance approval. I'm so sorry about the appointment. I know it is hard to be optimistic, but we will all be optimistic for you. Hopefully that will help. ((hugs))

ChickensFive

Oh McIrish Im sorry. :?(

Classicoyote

I am so sorry.  My heart goes out to you. Lots of hugs to you and prayers.

solarflare

I am sorry to hear that this process is bringing you to such a dark place. I've felt that before during this whole thing, and it is just horrible, and lonely. I am glad you are probably going to get another chance and will hold out hope that you will get lucky and one of those eggs will be an amazing one. That's really all you need - just one. I am rooting for ya.

UOduckBride2be

I'm sorry you are going through this.  So, a big FU to IF and a big FU to insurance!  We just spent 6 months going through hoops for a jaw surgery for DH that was finally approved so I feel ya on that one.  There I times when I think it makes things easier that we know we have zero coverage for IF because of the games you have to play to get the coverage even when you are supposed to have it, (well, not really because of how expensive everything is, but it is so frustrating). 

I'll be thinking of you and hope that this protocol does the trick for you.  I always feel a little better when the Dr. has a reccommendation that we change something up.  It gives me a sliver of hope that we could have a different outcome.  My hope is that this will be the case for you.  Take Care!

MelleTX

Oh honey, I am so sorry to hear this news for you. I know it sucks and I just hate it for you.

I know your DH is not interested in DE or adoption due to cost, but have you talked about donor embryos? There are services that match you with couples that have embryos already fertilized that they are not going to implant. The costs are much much cheaper because technically you can't "buy" embryos.

There is also adoption through your local county which is free, unlike an adoption through a private agency.

Hang in there, you will get to be a mother. I believe in my heart.

Many hugs to you!

CheezeFace

I'm so sorry.  I dont have any words of comfort but I just want you to know that I think of you often and I am sending you all my good thoughts.  Let's hope for some good news sometime soon.