This cycle is a huge WTF... (update)

MBfromBMC · September 2011

I feel like it has been forever since I have checked in, but it really has only been a few days...

I went back to work last week and today was the first day for students. I am working with four new teachers and one who needs ... ummm ... lots of help ... and so I have been out-of-my-mind busy. I'm kinda bummed that I can't check in as often, but I guess that's life...

Anyway, this cycle has been a total mindf*ck. If you recall, I had to semi-cancel because we had one small follie and we were try to be "clean" by the deadline for the study, so we didn't bother triggering or doing the IUI.

I figured this cycle was a wash, but then I figured I would go ahead and POAS on CD31. I am usually regular like clockwork, so for me that was 1-3 days late. Of course, it was a BFN, so I figured AF was right around the corner. That was Friday.

Today is now CD35 and there are still no signs of AF at all. I tested again this morning on a dollar store cheapie and it was still BFN.

I know that this cycle was a longshot, but WTF is going on?? I have never gone this long. I think it is also driving me crazy because this cycle is so final.

After this, it's either the study or nothing. We're out of insurance options and we're pretty sure we can't swing an OOP injectibles cycle (although we haven't completely canceled that out yet), so obviously IVF is out of the financial question. My work has been so toxic lately, though, that I'm not even sure I will be allowed to do the study.

Last week, three of my co-workers were suspended without pay for absolutely ridiculous reasons - I won't go into detail, but it was stuff that they did on FB in their own personal time. I feel like they are thought-policing us and I am frankly terrified to ask for all of that time off when the boss is being such an a$$hole and when everyone in the team in relying on me...

I guess there is not much point to this post other than to say: Ugh... This sucks...

illinigal · September 2011

I'm sorry you are having a long cycle for you and still hope you are pleasantly surprised with a BFP in the near future. I've never had a normal cycle length and not knowing when to expect AF is definitely frustrating.