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Can I vent for a second?

I'll keep it short...but it's not sweet...

- I'm super tired...leading up to AF maybe??  Restless nights have plagued me since my loss.
- AF is do this weekend, but his was my first Clomid cycle.  I ovulated (YAY -- 1st time in 9 months), but as my AF due date nears, I feel less hopeful for this cycle...for no other reason than "that's the way it goes." Reality.
- DH has had MF since I ovulated.  :(  I'm afraid to disappointment him.
- I've been searching through lawyers all day...I hate looking for lawyers.  They all seem crooked.  And all they want is my money....that I don't have.
- DH is working out and is a little obsessed with his weight loss.  30lbs down and he looks great.  He still looks at the scale and frets over 1 lb gained...worse than a girl.  And it stresses me out b/c it's not healthy mentally or emotionally for him!
- I miss Logan...alot today.  I think about him everyday...but there are days out of nowhere where it hurts unbearably so.  I hate these days.

 Vent over.  I just needed to tell someone.  A treat for you :)

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Re: Can I vent for a second?

  • *huge hug*
    Lilypie Premature Baby tickers
    Married 9/22/07, began TTC 8/10
    Diagnosed with DOR, LP defect, mild endometriosis and cysts
    BFP #1 EDD 9/10/11, natural miscarriage at 6w
    BFP #2 Medicated cycle, twin boys born 4/4/12 at 29w4d
    BFP #3 EDD 8/8/14, D&C for missed miscarriage at 8w, baby boy with triploidy
    BFP #4 June 2014 CP
  • I'm sorry you are having a rough day.  I hope tomorrow is better for you.
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  • Those down days (or weeks or months) are so hard. I can't imagine losing my baby as far along as you were. I am so impressed that you even manage to get out of bed in the morning, put one foot in front of the other, and dare to hope again. I truly hope that you will be bringing a baby brother or sister into this world for your son soon. ((HUGS))

  • {{{huge hugs}}} It's still early at 10dpo! Don't give up hope yet!

    Thanks for the cupcake! That looks delish! 


    BFP#1 {Cashew} - 9.19.09 EDD 5.26.10
    The day you first lay in my arms, you made my life complete.
    Aurora Rose born sleeping at 35w on 4-21-10
    BFP#2 {Almond} - 2.1.11 EDD 10.12.11 C/P 2.11.11

  • image heathergirl67:
    Those down days (or weeks or months) are so hard. I can't imagine losing my baby as far along as you were. I am so impressed that you even manage to get out of bed in the morning, put one foot in front of the other, and dare to hope again. I truly hope that you will be bringing a baby brother or sister into this world for your son soon. ((HUGS))
    Thank you for the kind words and encouragement...from you all. This journey is so difficult, but I've encountered some amazing women and I appreciate you all so much. Tomorrow is a new day, right!?
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    ?BFP June 2010, short cervix/preterm labor/emergency c-section at 25 weeks 2 days, Logan born October 28, 2010, 1 lb 7 oz. Fought hard in the NICU for 11 days. Our little hero ?


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  • ((((hugs))))  You can vent anytime.  I hope that better days are ahead. 
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    My Chart

    Off BCP 05/09; TTC 07/09; 4 c/p's and 1 m/c

    DOR; MFI; hetero factor v leiden mutation

    1/10 - BFP - c/p 4w4d

    3/10 ~ BFP - 4/5/10 - u/s @ 7w6d - no hb; m/c 8w3d

    Tried many interventions:

    9/10 - unmedicated IUI (1.4 million post wash) = BFN

    10/10 - unmedicated IUI (4.5 million post wash) = BFP

    11/10 - c/p 4w4d

    12/10 injects+TI cycle (3 follies) = BFN

    2/11 - IVF #1 long lupron w/ ICSI; 1 embryo = BFN!

    7/11 - IVF #2 antagonist w/ICSI - 3dt of 3 grade A embies = BFP

    7/11 - c/p 4w5d

    10/11 - unmedicated IUI (2.5 mill post wash) = BFN

    11/11 - unmedicated IUI (12 million post wash) = BFP

    12/11 - c/p 4w2d

    12/11 - IUI #5 follistim (2.5 million post wash) = BFN

    1/15/11 - IUI #6 follistim (12 million post - woot!)= BFP!!! Praise the Lord!!!

    Beta #1 (12dpiui) 164; Beta #2 (14dpiui) 514!!!

    It's TWINS!!!!

    Two BOYS!!!!


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  • ((hugs)) Sorry you are having a rough day.

    Jenn

    image 3 IUI's all BFN

    IVF#1 BFN IVF#2 BFP, loss at 19 weeks FET#1 BFN IVF#3 BFP, m/c FET#2 BFN

    Missing our twins Zachary and Madison, lost at 19 weeks on 11/13/09, edd 4/9/10

    BFP 7/17/10, m/c 7/25/10, edd 3/25/11

    Ectopic, lost left tube 4/20/11, edd 12/6/11

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  • (((HUGE HUGS)))
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  • Big (((HUGS))), friend.  I hope things start looking up for you.  You've been in my thoughts lately.
    Mom to Eliott Alexander, born sleeping at 37 weeks on 8/13/10. Most of us only dream of angels - I held one in my arms.
    BFP #2 - EDD 2/26/12 M/C 6/28/11 @ 5w2d
    BFP #3 - EDD 4/7/12 M/C 8/2/11 @ 4w2d
    Too beautiful for this earth
    BFP #4 - EDD 12/09/12, Lucille arrived 11/26/12
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