Hi ladies

MrsKolasa

Sorry I've been kinda MIA lately. It's been a trying summer.

Loooooong story short, Luke's BMom has been scamming us. All kinds of sucky and at this moment, I'm kinda over it.

Here's my current problem... I am in an all out panic over baby #2. I feel like it's never going to happen and I'm terrified. I do have an anxiety disorder, so I know I'm a huge spaz about seemingly small stuff, but this is horrible. The "what ifs" plague me. I look at my son and he is one of the most wonderful things that has ever happened to me and I just can't imagine that this is my one shot at being a Mommy.

He's going to be 2 in a few months and I just turned 30. I know I'm young and so is he, but this is just really overwhelming for me right now.My sister and my future SIL are both pregnant and due in a few weeks. I'm so happy for them, but my heart is just hurting.

I'm so sorry to just pop in to vent and I sincerely hope that my whining isn't offensive to the people who are waiting for #1. I just need to spill this somewhere that people will maybe understand me.

 

butterflygrooves

HUGS

Waiting is hard, especially when you are just plain ready to have another little one there with you already.  I am here to listen anytime you need, you know where to find me.

Dr.Loretta

I know it sounds cliche, but have you considered/are you seeing a professional over the anxiety? That's enough to send anyone to a therapist's couch, and it may help to deal with the emotions you're feeling.

I hope that, if you're meant to be a Mommy to #2, that it will work out for you.

 

ngokli

Whether waiting for baby #1, 2 or 100 (ok, I'm exaggerating with this number), I think we all feel various degrees of anxiety. So, please, DO NOT apologize! The best concept I have learned in my support group is that the adoption process is like a roller coaster. We will have our ups and our downs, which frankly, sucks.

Do you have a support group or a therapist that can help you through this process? I'm part of support group and it's so helpful to get support from others who are adopting. I also spoke to my doctor who validated what we are going through as anxiety provoking. You also have us so please let us know how you feel. We are here for you!

Go_Dawgs

I just sent you a PM.

inlovewithB

I am sorry you are going through such a rough time. 

futuremrsofficer

I'm sorry you're having such a hard time. As PP said no matter what number child it is, it's still frustrating.

MrsKolasa

Thanks for the support, everyone.

I was previously medicated for it and my doctor is very aware of the issue (poor guy)I had worked with a therapist to get off the meds and learn coping skills and was really doing well for awhile. It's just this whole scam has knocked me for a loop. We have a pretty open adoption and I'm not sure how to maintain that after all that's happened. I don't know why she is/was doing this to us, and even if I did get an answer, it wouldn't make it easier. Our agency is offering little support and resources for dealing with this, I suppose it's because there really aren't any out there.

I'll be ok, I know that. I just wish I felt it too.

wille2b

love ya

ByHisGrace7

I'm sorry you are going through this!

mommytoconnor

I know it's hard waiting.  I waited more than four years and I was ready to say enough is enough.  I had been heart broken each and every time I wasn't the chosen one.  Then I got the most amazing call that I was selected.  It's gonna be hard to be patient especially when others around you are all having babies, but if it's meant to be it will be.  You have to have faith and trust that things work out the way they are supposed to.  Keep your chin up and love that little one that you are blessed to be mommy to.  Good luck. 

Honeydew1894

I am so sorry for what you are going through. I hope things start looking up very soon! XOXO