Pregnant after IF

First u/s and very, very cautious intro

Hi ladies: I've been reluctant to post an official intro because I feel like I'm "jinxing it", which is ridiculous, but I think I need to start posting here instead of the IF Vets board out of sensitivity to them. So I'm knocking on wood as I write this...

My very long history of IF and loss is in my siggy. I had my first u/s this morning at 5w3d which showed one very clear gestational sac and the beginnings of a yolk sac (I couldn't see the yolk sac on my little screen but the dr could see it on hers); and possibly one other sac. The second sac was measuring properly but was not clear, so the doctor is less confident about that one making it. That was the one she found first so I got really nervous, when all of a sudden there was another sac as clear as day! As long as one is growing I will be ok.

So, I am very relieved I am not having another ectopic; however this is the week I had a missed m/c after my first IVF two years ago, so I'm still so nervous. If I make it to a heartbeat I think I will relax a little, but right now I just don't feel like this is a successful cycle yet.

Any words of wisdom to help me relax?  

 

Dx: High FSH, stage IV endo, homozygous C677T MTHFR and PAI-1
Early loss 10/08
Lap 1/09
IVF #1 "natural IVF" - 1 egg retrieved, missed m/c
Tried several mini-stim cycles with no response
Switched clinics - dx'd as carrier for Fragile X
IVF #2 MDL protocol Jan/Feb converted to IUI, BFN
IVF #2 take 2: Antagonist, one embie, BFN
IVF #3: Antagonist, no fertilization
One last ditch effort at OE IVF (antagonist with Clomid) cancelled
DE cycle #1 Jan/Feb 2011, BFP, ectopic
DE cycle #2 June/July 2011 - BFP
10/28/11 Baby girl lost at 17 weeks due to pre-term labor. We love and miss you.
DE cycle #3 June/July 2012 - BFP, twins, both heartbeats stopped, D&C
2 frosties but don't know what's next
FET Dec 2012: BFP! Praying this one sticks for the long haul!

Re: First u/s and very, very cautious intro

  • Welcome and good luck.

    I have been working with my therapist on controlled breathing and relaxation techniques every time I feel overwhelming anxiety. Maybe that will help?  And Positive thinking has also been helping me- stay in the "now". I am KU right NOW. That can be hard to do, but it does help me get grounded when negative thoughts start to creep in.

    Hope you feel better soon and can enjoy it! 

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  • Welcome, May! Congratulations on what to me sounds like a very successful first u/s! That is exactly what id expect to see at 5w3d. Terrific! I know this part is hard, but hang in there. It does get a little easier every day.
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  • So glad to see you over here!  I think you saw exactly what could be expected - when is your next u/s?  

    I don't know how any of us got through these pregnancies until we had regular movement but just know that it's okay that you are scared to death and we're all here with you.  How are you feeling?  

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  • No advice, just wanted to send you lots of T&Ps and loads of congrats :)

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    12/10 - Clomid Round 2 = BFN
    1/11 - Voluntary Break = BFN (duh)
    2/11 - Clomid Round 3 = BFN
    3/11 - Femara + IUI = BFP * Beta#1=56 * Beta#2=266
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    Welcome, May! Congratulations on what to me sounds like a very successful first u/s! That is exactly what id expect to see at 5w3d. Terrific! I know this part is hard, but hang in there. It does get a little easier every day.

    This exactly! I know it's easier said than done, but try and take it day by day and u/s by u/s! I have everything crossed for your next u/s!! Thinking of you and sending tons of hugs!!


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  • Oh hon....I am thrilled that everything went well today! You deserve nothing but amazing news from here on out! Congratulations!!! As for advice? Mostly, we all just suffer through first trimester anxiety, but my mantra is always "today I am pregnant.". I try to celebrate each day for what it is, not thinking about yesterday or tomorrow. For better or for worse, it is all out of your hands, so today I celebrate your little life with great joy!!! So happy for you!
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  • I'm so so happy for you honey.  It is normal and totally acceptable to be nervous.  I'm still nervous.  My advice about relaxing is just to try to do things to take your mind off of the baby and focus on other things for now.  
    Beautiful Miracle Baby lost at 21 weeks due to pre-term labor and incompetent cervix. FET#1 BFN, FET#2 BFP, early loss. FET#3 BFN. IVF#2 BFFN. FET #4 BFP after removing bilateral hydrosalpinx and 3 months of lupron depot. Sticky Bun is here!! Image and video hosting by TinyPic Baby Birthday Ticker Ticker
  • May, I am so happy to see you posting here!  What great news!  I hope everything goes well and you see a heartbeat or two at your next u/s!  I don't have much advice for you... I still get nervous before each u/s.  Just try to stay positive and focused on a healthy, happy pregnancy.  A lot of the ladies here use the "today I am pregnant and love my baby" mantra to get through each day.  Whatever works for you!  I really hope this is it for you!!
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  • Hi, may! I am so happy to see you here!!! Sounds like things are right on track. As for relaxing, well, I always find something to worry about, but I just try and take one day at a time. (((hugs))).
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  • Congrats and welcome!  I wish I had some sage advice for you, but you just have to take it a day at a time.  GL!
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  • Congrats and welcome!
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  • i'm so happy to see you over here.  I don't have any words of wisdom to make the anxiety go away, as I'm still dealing with it.  Each day it gets a little better so hang in there.  Glad to hear you have one good looking sac. 

    Huge congrats on getting to this point.  With everything you have been through you need to celebrate every milestone.

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    Yay, May!! I'm so happy for you. Congratulations. I understand being nervous. It comes with the IF territory and I still can't shake it sometimes. I too had one good sac and one that was not as clear. Dr. D gave it less than a 40% chance, but it continued growing. Best of luck to you and I'm so happy to see you here :)
    TTC since 3/08 DOR, High FSH, Hypothyroid, Uterine Polyps, blocked tube, MFI, 5 rounds of clomid, 5 IVF attempts, 2 hysteroscopies, 2 natural conceptions=2 losses (Methotrexate, D&C) Successful DE cycle twins born 10/7/11 Baby Birthday Ticker Ticker
  • Welcome!  I know it's hard to not let your guard down.  I'm glad to see you here!  And yay for a good u/s!!  I hope things continue to go well for you!!!!! 

    I don't have many words of wisdom.  I am still worrying but haven't had a reason to with this pregnancy.  I guess just take each day as it comes and be grateful for each day that your pg.  It's so tough to not worry when you've had numerous losses.  I pray that this pregnancy is a sticky one for you!

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  • Congrats & welcome :) I still feel like I'm jinxing myself anytime I talk abou the baby - I have to make a conscious effort to let myself be happy.  I got some good advice from my mom when I said to her, "I just wish I wasn't so nervous".  She said, "You're a mother now.  You're going to be nervous for the rest of your life.  We all are."  So I guess it's normal :)
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  • Welcome and congratulations! I just had my first u/s at 6 wks, and was so nervous that morning I couldn't think straight... I'm pretty sure I didn't take a breath while I was having the ultrasound until the gestational sac came into view... It is so nerve-wracking! 

    I agree with a PP that it's OK to live in the moment, just a little bit.  You are pregnant right NOW.  You have one sac exactly where it should be.  That is a success in and of itself. 

    Congrats and lots of wishes for a relaxing week until you get to see that heartbeat!

    On a TTC journey since March 2010 that is making me more appreciative of life and love. 7/20 -- Surprise phone call from RE after lap pre-op appt-- BFP! 8/5 -- Ultrasound #1 8/12 -- Ultrasound #2 Pregnancy Ticker My Imperfect Pursuit of Gardening
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