Need some major help/advice/encouragement

mpiemont

I'm in a really dark place right now and am actually pretty scared. 14 weeks post partum and I am just coming to terms with the fact that there's something wrong with me. I think I have major pp depression. I've dealt with depression and anxiety before but never like this. I look at LO and feel anger and frustration. I constantly am wishing I could turn the clock back and not had a baby. I resent him for changing the entire dynamic of my marriage and for totally uprooting my life as I knew it. It's so hard for me to admit all of this. I am sick to my stomach even typing this. I went to see someone last week to start talking about my problem. Just wanted to know if I'm the only one who feels this way. What has worked for you to make you feel better? I just feel so low.

elizabethe67

im only 8 days pp but am dealing with a very familiar low. i am in love w my lo but constantly feel like i have dne/ am doing something wrong a she cries all the time.  the most important thing is that u are seeking help. another thing that i think makes a huge difference is your nutrition.  i recommend lots of vitamin d and fish oil-or omegas-however u get them.  do u workout? have u done anything for u?

TUSBride22

I know it's really hard to admit, and even harder to ask for help.  I didn't end up asking for help until my 6 week checkup, but I knew something was wrong and I spoke up.  Good for you for telling someone, that is a great first step!  It's not easy walking around with those feelings, along with guilt for feeling them. 

What worked for making me feel better was talking to other women who had gone through the same thing; you are NOT alone!  Another thing that helped; having a schedule for myself.  I was so scattered all the time, I felt like I couldn't keep up and was the worst mother ever.  I started making lists of what to do during the day; what time LO would wake up, nap time, etc.  Then try to do something for yourself.  It's difficult, but just try.  Paint your nails, go outside (this is a big one), have a cup of tea by yourself, watch a show you love, do something YOU like to do. 

I promise you, it gets better.  The first few months are the worst.  But it will get better.  You can do it, just hang on, and don't stop asking for help.  You deserve it.

 Edit:  Did you talk to anyone about going on medication?  I went on Celexa and it changed everything...

GalwayGirl80

I had postpartum depression with my first and I remember asking everyone if I'd ever be happy again. All I wanted was my life back again. I was miserable.

 The good thing that I can tell you is that you will have your life back again and you will be happy again! It just takes a little bit of time to get used to your new lifestyle.  

My advice is to get on an antidepressant right away and see a therapist because even your closest friends and family may not understand what you are going through. But still, you should definitely surround yourself with friends and family.  Also, if possible, start planning some day trips or some vacations. It'll give you something to look forward to. And of course, continue to post on here because i think there is a lot of support in these boards, too.

I wish you the best luck and pray you will find peace of mind soon.