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Rachael07.07.07

I slept in the guest bedroom last night. DH and I have been having a rough time lately and I don't really know the state of our marriage.

madelyn07

Rachael07.07.07:

I slept in the guest bedroom last night. DH and I have been having a rough time lately and I don't really know the state of our marriage.

I'm so sorry sweetie. Email me if you want to talk.

DeputiesWife

Rachael07.07.07:

I slept in the guest bedroom last night. DH and I have been having a rough time lately and I don't really know the state of our marriage.

I am so very sorry to hear this.

Im here if you need me.  

Rachael07.07.07

Thanks ladies. I just don't know anymore. I'll have to email you both when I get home, sometime around 1-ish.

DeputiesWife

I confess I am way to dependent on my phone and when the track ball thing wasnt working I had a little panic attack.

I confess that I keep telling myself I am ok and telling others I am ok with hopes that I really am. But inside I am completely broken. I feel broken. I cry at the drop of the hat. I am angry with announcements, even though I try to tell myself I am ok. I am ok with them all. Thinking that I will talk myself into believing it. And hoping people believe me when I tell them I am ok. I am ready to move on and do another cycle. I  try to focus on what I do have and the small things that make me happy but cant help but thinking that I am such a huge let down for my family and most of all my husband who works so hard to give me everything and I cant do this one thing for him.

Married071709

DeputiesWife:

I confess I am way to dependent on my phone and when the track ball thing wasnt working I had a little panic attack.

I confess that I keep telling myself I am ok and telling others I am ok with hopes that I really am. But inside I am completely broken. I feel broken. I cry at the drop of the hat. I am angry with announcements, even though I try to tell myself I am ok. I am ok with them all. Thinking that I will talk myself into believing it. And hoping people believe me when I tell them I am ok. I am ready to move on and do another cycle. I  try to focus on what I do have and the small things that make me happy but cant help but thinking that I am such a huge let down for my family and most of all my husband who works so hard to give me everything and I cant do this one thing for him.

(((((Hugs)))))  I'm so sorry you are having a rough time.  IF fluking sucks.  You are not a let down to your family.  You have given your husband a beautiful baby girl.  I think of you often.  (((((((Hugs)))))))

Married071709

Rachael07.07.07:

I slept in the guest bedroom last night. DH and I have been having a rough time lately and I don't really know the state of our marriage.

(((Hugs))) I'm also here if you need anything.  

Nesting.Away

Rachael07.07.07:

I slept in the guest bedroom last night. DH and I have been having a rough time lately and I don't really know the state of our marriage.

(hugs)

Rachael07.07.07

DeputiesWife:

I confess that I keep telling myself I am ok and telling others I am ok with hopes that I really am. But inside I am completely broken. I feel broken. I cry at the drop of the hat. I am angry with announcements, even though I try to tell myself I am ok. I am ok with them all. Thinking that I will talk myself into believing it. And hoping people believe me when I tell them I am ok. I am ready to move on and do another cycle. I  try to focus on what I do have and the small things that make me happy but cant help but thinking that I am such a huge let down for my family and most of all my husband who works so hard to give me everything and I cant do this one thing for him.

You know I'm here for you too. Anytime love. XOXO (((hugs)))

Ginger71

I am very sad when I look at pics of DH's parents holding BIL's baby boy. It is breaking my heart

MBfromBMC

(((huge hugs))) to you, DW and Rachel...

IF is so unfair....

jamielynnohio

Hugs to Rachael and DW! I'm sorry lovies!

*My parents are having a going away party for my brother in two hours. He leaves for Afghanistan deployment Sunday. There are sooooooo many people coming today to celebrate him and tell him bye. But, I confess that I wish it was just our immediate family. He's going to have to be bouncing between so many people we won't get to really spend much time with him. And this makes me so very very sad.

*I also confess that I don't want to see all of these extended family members that will be ooing and awing over my sister's 1wk old baby and asking me when it's going to be my turn!  

ecleptic

We hired a maid service (which isn't bad- we do it a couple times a year to get the deep clean chores neither of us likes to do) because my housekeeping skills went to total crap with this last cycle. DH is upset with them for not getting the house as clean as they have in the past and thinks we shouldn't hire that company again- but the things he's complaining they didn't get "right" were all because I didn't even attempt to clean before they got here (seriously- not even the dishes from lunch) and hid in the back room while they were cleaning because I didn't want to deal with strangers.

They did a great job considering what the house looked like before they came. We've just got random piles all over the place from things I didn't bother to put away. Not the maid's fault- all mine.