She had surgery last week to have a port for the Chemo put in. She did great and the incision was healing nicely, she however was not.
Just sleeping. Not showering, eating or drinking.
She was due to start chemo on Monday, but that's not an option currently.
The Home Health nurse was at the house yesterday and her blood pressure was really low. Gma was taken to the hospital and admitted with pneumonia. She'll be there through the weekend.
She's on agressive rounds of antibiotics, but it's not looking positive for long term.
I'm sad. I'm worried about my Mom and the rest of her siblings. I'm tired.
On one hand the confirmation that her life is close to end is comforting. It's a benefit to begin the greiving process now and savor the time we have left. On the other hand it totally sucks to know that goodbye is so close.
There was and is so much I have left to learn from her and I regret not making MORE time for her.
Meanwhile, DH's grandmothers services are still on hold. Dates are conflicting for one cousin because of a babysitting job, and the other because she doesn't want to pay for a flight up here from San Diego (when she just drove up for the Great Aunts services last weekend). If it were our say, the date would just be set & if you can't make it, tough cookies, let's put the poor womans ashes to rest already.
Re: Gma update, rambling vent :(