AW: I need to vent.

mwlove

I'm a ball of emotions right now.

First off, my birthday is this Saturday.  I'm trying to be excited, but it's hard because my step-dad passed away on my birthday 2 years ago due to cancer.  I have a hard time being happy when it's such a sad day. 

Second, I still don't have a job.  I'm getting ready to start my 3rd year of teaching.  The past two years I have been laid off due to a reduction in force due to budget cuts.  Last year I got called back, but this year I don't believe I will be because I'm farther down on the recall list because they laid off more of us this year.  I so badly want a job and to be back in the classroom teaching. 

Lastly, I'm getting anxious about our first IUI.  I want to be excited that maybe this is just what we need, but I'm scared that it won't work.  I know I'm early in the IUI treatments, but I'm still scared they won't ever work and I"ll have to do IVF, which DH says we will do but not for another couple years.

Thanks for letting me vent.  I just needed to get this off my chest without running to DH because he already hears enough of my stress!

I love you ladies:) Thanks so much for listening!

Rachel.lilly

first off, Happy Early Birthday! and second, I'm sorry for your loss and im sure your step dad would want you to be happy, perhaps he will send you a little miracle. The job issue is rough I'm sure, but keep your head up. Things will get better in due time. maybe while you're laid off, you can take up a new hobby and help make time go by and relax a little for your IUI. I just had my first IUI and I have the same fears, but I'm not sure DH and I will ever be able to afford IVF. So you're not alone. I hope this helps and GL!

mdiblasi10

Happy early birthday! I am sorry that it is also a sad day for you. Good luck with your IUI and hang in there! ((hugs))

Gregermis

((hugs))  Happy Birthday!  Hang in there

pulga131

Happy early birthday. Sorry for your loss though. Losing a parent or step parent is a very difficult thing, and times like this when you are struggling, make you miss them so much more.  I lost my mom 7 years ago (though not on my b-day our b-days are 5 days apart so we always celebrated together) so I totally understand your pain.  Where do you live? I am also a teacher.  All these budget cuts are definitely stinky.  I always thought teaching was a "safe" job that wouldn't be affected by recession. Boy was I wrong- I lost my job due to cut backs on my first year.  Just when I thought I wouldnt find another, I got hired teaching something totally different 2 weeks before school started. This will be my 3rd year at the new school and I LOVE it there. Getting laid off at the first job was the best thing that ever happened to me.  Hopefully, a better teaching position will come along for you and just remember a lot of schools hire right before school starts so keep searching! and, think positive on your IUI. GL

katib77

Hang in there!  My brother got RIF'd last year and was taken in at 3/4th schedule and hours.  And this coming year he's back 100%.  Try to have faith that your are a good teacher, and they will do what they can to have you teaching again.  That being said...if they don't - put in for sub jobs and also look into part time retail work or temp agency jobs so you can stay flexible and keep some money flowing in.

Try to enjoy your birthday. While it is a sad time, I'm sure your step dad would want you to enjoy yourself.  Can you try to make it a celebration of life kind of day?  Do something to express the joy of living and share a great memories of him with people in remembrance. 

As for the IUI, I wish you the best of luck! 

Eve_Angelique

Happy Birthday! Sorry that it now brings up sad memories, that has to be difficult. Good luck with teaching! I know how you feel I would be starting my 4th year this year, had I not been laid off after year one. I have been subbing since, I hope you have better luck then I have. Good luck and lots of baby dust to you in your first IUI!!!

Cheetara2

Sorry that you're dealing with so much right now  I hope things get better soon. GL with your IUI!

mwlove

pulga131:

Happy early birthday. Sorry for your loss though. Losing a parent or step parent is a very difficult thing, and times like this when you are struggling, make you miss them so much more.  I lost my mom 7 years ago (though not on my b-day our b-days are 5 days apart so we always celebrated together) so I totally understand your pain.  Where do you live? I am also a teacher.  All these budget cuts are definitely stinky.  I always thought teaching was a "safe" job that wouldn't be affected by recession. Boy was I wrong- I lost my job due to cut backs on my first year.  Just when I thought I wouldnt find another, I got hired teaching something totally different 2 weeks before school started. This will be my 3rd year at the new school and I LOVE it there. Getting laid off at the first job was the best thing that ever happened to me.  Hopefully, a better teaching position will come along for you and just remember a lot of schools hire right before school starts so keep searching! and, think positive on your IUI. GL

We live in IN. Yea I definitely thought teaching was a 'safe' job too.  It's crazy how many teachers are out of a job...it's sad.  I'm glad everything worked out for you in the end!

mwlove

Thanks ladies for all your kind words!  I like the idea of celebrating life tomorrow and sharing memories of my step-dad with the ones I love.  I will definitely keep that in mind for tomorrow. I really appreciate it ladies:)

mwlove

Thanks for all the kind words!  I really appreciate them ladies!

I really like the idea of celebrating life and sharing memories of my step dad with the ones I love!  I will keep that in mind for tomorrow!