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Very bad news yesterday

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Re: Very bad news yesterday

  • My heart breaks for you!.. Thinking of you....


     
    Dx: PCOS, Anovulatory, Amenorrhea 2006
    TTC: Sept 2008
    IVF#1 Cancelled due to breast biopsy.05/01/20

    IVF#1.2- 9/2010 - Cancelled Oversurpressed

    IVF#2 Microdose Lupron 10/2010 Beta 11/09=BFN
    IVF#3 2/2011 - 2 blasts(2/25) Beta 03/11 =BFN
    IVF#4 Lupron 01/02 =2 blasts, beta's 1-4 198,234,398,3100!!BFP
    FET 3/2014 2 blasts BETA 3/20=BFP TWINS EDD 11/27 TEAM PINK!!!                   
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  • FVCK. FVCK. FVCK.

    NOOOOOOO! 

    Holly, I'm so so sorry. I hate that this is happening. I hate that it is so hard for so many of us. I hate pg loss. 

    TTC with severe MFI since 9/08 IVF w/ ICSI #1 May/June 2010= BFP twins
    Callan George and Bennett Charles born and died 11/7/10
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    FET #1 April 2011= BFN
    FET #2 July 2011= no transfer because my lining sucked
    FET #3 February 2012= BFP! 1st beta 9dp5dt=314 2nd beta 11dp5dt=977 1st U/S 3/20 Twins- Heart rates of 111 and 138 Pregnancy Ticker
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  • I am so very sorry:< It's so unfair. We will miss you. I will continue to think and pray about you guys.
    PAIF and SAIF Always Welcome!
    TTC since 2007
    6 IUIs, 3 IVFs, and 2 m/c :< PCOS, Blood Clotting Disorder & MFI
    IVF #2 Aug 2011 is a BFN:<
    IVF #3 March 2012 is a BFN
    Not sure what to do now. Sad and lost.
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  • Oh Holly, I'm so, so sorry. My heart breaks for you.

     

    TTC #1 since June 2008 *SAIFW*

    TI, IUIs, IVF = c/ps and BFNs

  • I'm so sorry for your loss.  IF sucks so bad and it just isn't fair at all.  Huge (((hugs)))
    TTC since 8/2004
    Me - DX Hashimoto's Disease, Hypothyroid, Rheumatoid Arthritis
    DH - DX Azoospermia - Sertoli Cell Syndrome
    DS-IUI #1-4 BFN IVF #1 - BFP! It's a boy!!!
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  • I am so very sorry- I am in tears. I am thinking of you and wishing  you all the best. So so sorry

    Kristin

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  • Holly, I'm so sorry. My heat breaks for u and ur DH. GL w however u choose to move forward. HUGS
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  • JenCWJenCW member
    I'm so sorry to hear of your loss.  This is devastating, and I will keep you and your DH in my T&Ps during this time.  I hope that your healing brings about a clear decision for how to move on.
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    My heart is breaking for you.  I don't want to say I know exactly what you're going through, but my first loss was very similar.  We had heard the heartbeat at 7, 8, and 10 weeks...as well as great u/s at 7 & 8 weeks.  Then at my NT scan at 12 weeks, I knew immediately that the baby didn't look big enough...and I couldn't see the flicker.  My poor DH was confused as I laid there sobbing in front of the sonographer before he could even utter the words.  Our baby measured 10 weeks 2 days...so s/he passed within a day or two of our last OB appt heartbeat check.  I was absolutely devastated as well so I wish I could give you this biggest IRL hug.   

    I'm so very sorry that this happened to you and your DH.  You've been through so much to have this little one and it's so not fair that s/he was taken from you so soon.  Some things I will never understand. 

    T&P's coming your way as you go through tomorrow and begin to heal from this.  I absolutely hate this for you.     

    Thank you for sharing this with me. Your story is so similar to what happened with us. It helped me to read this and know that you understand how it feels. Thanks.

    I'm glad you didn't mind me sharing my story.  I just wanted you to know you are not alone.  If you ever want to talk, I'm here. 

    I just remember feeling the most helpless feeling in the world....knowing that my so desparately-wanted child was gone and there was nothing I could do about it.  With a missed m/c, you are absolutely blind-sided.  It makes my heart ache and my stomach hurt just knowing the emotions that you're going through right now.  I would tell people that I'd never get "over" losing my baby but in time I'd deal with it better...and over a year later, this is still how our feel. 

    Praying all goes smoothly tomorrow and will be thinking about you in the coming days.    

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  • I am so deeply saddened for you both and will miss you. Hoping for the best.

    Huge huge huge hugs to you.

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  • koynkoyn member
    Holly-  My heart hurts for you.  I am so very sorry.  huge hugs
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  • Oh my God. I wish I knew what to say. I wish I could take away all the pain, even for just a moment. I'm so very sorry- you will always be in my thoughts and prayers.
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  • My heart breaks for you. I am so sorry. Take care of yourself.

    TTC #1 since 8/1/10; Me:41 and BRCA1+, DH:46
    DOR (FSH 24.3)/ terrible egg quality ; homozygous MTHFR c677t
    5 IUI's: 2/11 to 6/11 and 1/12= BFN
    OE IVF#1-4 8/11-6/12= all BFN
    DE IVF#1 11/12 bad embryos= BFN
    DE IVF #2 2/13 BFP/Beta hell: m/c 5w6d
    CFNBC 7 months, not doing well; decided on guarantee program at RBA w/frozen DE
    DE IVF #3 1/14  ET 4BB; BFP;M/C 5w1d, incomplete m/c; MVA extraction in ER 7w1d

    DE FET#1 ET 3/1714; BFP, beta 1 3/27= 197, beta 2 3/31= 1586, beta 3 4/7= 13879!!
    First u/s= Twins with HBs at 6w2d! We are Team Pink x 2!!

    K & K born 11/21/14 at 38wks 4 days

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  • I am so very sorry for your loss ((HUGS))
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  • I am so, so sorry.  There are no words for this kind of pain.  I just feel so terrible.  You will be in my thoughts and prayers (((((hugs))))). 
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  • grazygrazy member
    I don't have words to express how very sorry I am for you. Sending lots of hugs your way.
    DS born 7.30.11
  • I am so sorry for your loss.  It is devestating, I know. I hope your procedure goes as smoothly as possible tomorrow and that you begin to heal.  I wish you the best and am sending you ((((hugs))). 

    TTC Since 10/08 4 IUIs=BFNx4
    IVF#1=BFP!! Twins!!
    Bradley and Billy born and lost on 2/2/11 at 19w2d due to pPROM/PTL. I miss you, little angels.
    IVF#2=BFN
    IVF#3=c/p IVF#4=Empty Follicle Syndrome; 1 mature, fertilized, & made it to blast. 5dt of "the lone ranger" on 9/6. Please stick, little one! Image and video hosting by TinyPic Lilypie First Birthday tickers
  • emcaemca member
    I am so, so sorry.  That is terrible news and I really hope that you can take time to heal and mourn.  We will miss you, but I know why you need to leave.  I am really, really sorry.

    After 1 IUI, 3 IVF's with CGH/CCS testing, 10 early miscarriages, and lots of tears and frustration, we are moving on to Domestic Infant Adoption!  We are so excited to see what the future holds.

  • Oh God Holly I'm so devastated for you. I've been there and I honestly don't know how I got through it. I hope to God you are back soon. Not enough hugs in the world right now - please keep in touch and let me know how you are - Carolyn
    1-20-09 BFP third month of Follistim IUI 02-19-09 MC 06-24-09 MC July IUI Follistim Ganirelix Ovidrel Crinone=BFN Aug. IUI Follistim Ganirelix ovidrel Crinone=BFP= scared sh**less 10-12-09 MC = 1 ectopic 1 perfect Dec. IUI Gonal-F Ganirelix Ovidrel Crinone Lovenox 01-02-10 BFP=scared sh**less again 01-06-10 CP SAIF ALWAYS WELCOME : ) March 2010 - IVF in progress converted to IUI 03-30-10 BFN April 2010 - IVF - BFFN June 2010 - IVF - BFFN July IUI BFP! March 26 2011 Gracie is here! imageImage and video hosting by TinyPic imageImage and video hosting by TinyPic
  • Holly- I am so so so very sorry for your loss !!! I know that there is nothing I can possibly say that will make you feel better but please know that we are all here for you. {{{hugs}}} Please do whatever you need to to take care of yourself.


    "Most of the important things in the world have been accomplished by people who have kept on trying when there seemed to be no hope at all." -- Dale Carnegie
    "Our greatest weakness lies in giving up. The most certain way to succeed is always to try just one more time." --Thomas A. Edison
  • I am so sorry sweetie.  huge ((hugs))  I hope you let your heart and body heal.  I will be thinking of you.
    TTC since 07/2009
    Me: PCOS, Blood/Immune Issues DH: Low all 3
    Jun.- Sep. 2010 IUI#1-#3 = BFN
    Oct. 2010 = IVF #1 = B/G Twins (passed away Feb. 2011)
    May 2011 = Myomectomy and trans-abdominal cerclage (TAC)
    Sep. 2011 = Surprise BFP = C/P
    Feb. 2012 = sFET #1 = BFN
    Feb.2012 = Hail Mary IUI #4 = BFN
    April/May 2012 = FET #2 w/our last two embies = BFP (Please let this be it!)
    Beta #1 8dp5/6dt = 234 Beta #2 10dp5/6dt = 695 Beta #3 12dp5/6dt = 1796 Beta #4 17dp5/6dt = 17,888 U/S #1 May 17, 2012 = Twins
    Baby B's heart stop beating at 9 weeks 5 days
    Our little miracle baby is a boy. :)

    Baby Boy Owen and Baby Girl Avery were born too early on Feb. 13, 2011 due to a pedunculated fibroid, incompetent cervix and suspected placental abruption.
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  • I'm so very sorry for your loss. I hope, with time, you'll find a way to heal. ((hugs))
    Trying to grow our family with both fertility treatments and adoption since March 2009 
    IUIs#1-4 = BFN, IVF#1 = c/p, IVF#2 = OHSS, FET#1=BFP
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  • So so sorry hun!!! I am heartbroken for you! You and your DH are in my thoughts and prayers!!!
    Oct1201212 Twins born at 34w2d, Allison, 3lb,4oz-Ethan, 4lb7oz, both 16 1/2 inches. Out of Difficulties Grow Miracles BestBuddiesBoy AprilPosseMultiLilypie Premature Baby tickers
  • My heart breaks reading this, and I know there aren't any words that will make it better. Please know that you and your DH are in my thoughts and prayers. Huge hugs, holly.
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    4 Clomid cycles + 3 IUIs w/ injectables + 1 IVF = 1 m/c, 1 ectopic
    FET May 2011 = BFP! Beta 1 (8dp5dt): 336, Beta 2 (12dp5dt): 2033, Beta 3 (14dp5dt): 4706

    ? So thankful for our little guys, born at 33 weeks. ?
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  • Oh no, I am so very sorry.  My heart and prayers go out to you.
    TTC since 3/07. IVF#1 = canceled. IVF#2 = 0% fertilization. IVF#3 = BFN. IVF#4 = c/p.  
    Moving forward with Adoption 2017!
  • I'm so sorry! Big hugs.
    Stacy
    PCOS, RPL, & Anti Cardiolipin Antibody
  • So sorry Holly :(
    Our Blog - http://thedittemores.blogspot.com/
    Dx PCOS 2003/high fasting insulin/clotting issues DH Dx with low sperm count, motility and morphology. Varicocele repair (11/1/2010)
    2/2011 - Confirmed no improvement - On to Donor Sperm
    4 failed IUIs in 2010
    IUI#5 and 6- with DS, BFN
    Final IUI - Lucky #7! IUI with DS - 20.Jun.2011 - 21.5 mil motile! Not so lucky - BFFN and the end of our IF journey....
    Waiting for our family to be complete through Adoption - May 2012 - Hoping our baby finds us soon!
  • Oh Holly, my heart breaks for you and your Dh.  I am so sorry.  BIG HUGS
    TTC #1 Since 11/08 - Dx: MFI & PCOS
    7 IUIs = All BFNs
    2011: March IVF #1.2 = e/p @ 6w: May IVF #2 = BFN: July sFET #1 = BFN

    2012: Jan We're Certified FC/A Parents
    May IVF #3 = c/p
    June-Nov Foster Mommy to M (Toddler)
    July FET #2 = BFN
    Aug FET #3 = BFN
    Sept-Nov Foster Mommy to Baby Bella (Newborn)
    Nov HSG/Sono = Clear!
    Dec FET #4 = BFN

    2013: Feb FET #5 = m/c @ 6.5w
    May-July Foster Mom to H (8 yr old girl)
    June/July/Aug IVF #4 = Freeze All
    July = Unofficially Adopting T (10 yr old boy)
    Sept FET #6 = TBD
    **PAIF/SAIF Welcome**
  • MSaksaMSaksa member
    So very sorry for your loss. ((hugs))
    Dx Anovulatory PCOS Clomid,Ovidrel,TI=BFN IUI#1-#3 Femara,Ovidrel=BFN IUI#4-Gonal F,Ovidrel=BFN IUI#5-Gonal F,Ovidrel= BFP!! Beta #1 11dpIUI=34, Beta #2=131,first u/s 3/14=1 perfect bug with a heartbeat! Anderson Phillip, Born 11/2/11 7lbs 10oz 21in. Image and video hosting by TinyPic Baby Birthday Ticker Ticker
  • I am so very sorry.  Big hugs to you.

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    IVF #2 brought us our miracle baby!
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  • Oh, Holly, I am so sorry for your loss.  You'll be in my thoughts and prayers, and I hope you can find a way to move on whichever road you choose.  *big hugs*
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  • So sorry to hear your news. 

  • Oh honey....I am just sobbing for you. Saying i am sorry doesn't even come close. My heart is broken for you. Take very good care of yourself, hon. This is so awful and beyond unfair. (((hugs)))
    Brought to you by IVF, ICSI, limited fert, and oocyte cryopreservation.
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  • I am so, so very sorry hun. There aren't enough words to express how much I hurt for you. Whatever you have to make yourself better is what you need to do. I hope that you will stop by every once in a while. (((hugs)))
    DX PCOS w/IR 01/08.
    Currently pg with our 1st after 6.5 yrs of IF (thank you IVF)
     
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  • Oh no...I'm so very sorry. I'm in tears reading this. It's not fair...it's just not fair. I'm sending lots of T&Ps to you and your DH.
    TTC 12/2009
    Me: 32 - Stage II Endo / DH: 36 - Low count and morphology (1%)
    IUIs 1-3 BFN, lap Dec. 2010, IUIs 4-6 BFN
    IVF w/ICSI #1 - ER 2/8: 24R 19M 9F ET 2/13 2-5 day blasts (no frosties) = BFP - b/g twins!
    E & C Born 10/19/2012
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  • I'm so very sorry hun. ((hugs))

    You and your DH will be in my thoughts and prayers.

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  • I am so sorry. Hugs.
    Diagnosis: MFI and Egg Quality Issues IVF#1-October-BFN ER-16 eggs, 8 mature, 7 fertilized, 2transferred and no frozen IVF#2- March-Beta 3/19 ER- 12 eggs, 8 mature, 7 fertilized, 2 transferred and 1 frozen-BFN. IVF#3 July ER-19 eggs, 13 mature, 10 fertilized...waiting til Day 5 to PGD. PGD results-4 out of 5 embryos are normal and will be banked. IVF#4 Sept 11' 22 eggs, 16 mature, 15 fertilized...waiting til Day 5 to PGD. Total normal embryos banked, quality varies: FET-Nov 11'-BFP Beta #1: 156, Beta #2: 489 First u/s revealed TWINS!! 2nd u/s= 2 beautiful heartbeats! 12/17 Lost one of the twins :(BabyFruit Ticker
  • I'm so sorry for your loss (((HUGS))
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  • I am so so incredibly sorry for your loss!!  We will miss you on the board and will be here if you ever need us!  Sending healing thoughts to you and your DH!!
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  • NO!!!!  My heart is completley broken for you. I have been on the losing side of those odds as well, so I know just how hard this is. Do whatever it takes for you to heal, just know you will be in my thoughts and prayers. I am so very sorry. Huge hugs.
    Renee- 37 DH - Chad - 39
    2/06 - surprise pregnancy - twins
    3/06 - m/c 1st baby at 6 weeks 
    5/06 -2nd baby had no heartbeat at 14 wks.
    D&E - Bled out. Blood transfusions. Week in ICU - Cheated Death!
    Diagnosis: Blood clotting and bleeding disorder, immune issues, & cervical stenosis
    5/10 - 1st IVF cycle - BFN
    FET - 10/12/10 - BFN
    1/11 - IVF with PGD - BFN
    IVF - May - BFN
    6/11 New RE - fingers crossed!
    9/11 - IVF - 4 transferred
    10/13 - BFP!!
    It's a boy! Clint Michael, Due in June!!!

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