You know what happens when you think positive?

GuppyAmy

Negative things happen and it just hurts that much more. I went in for my follie check today and left happy that it was up to 16 with a cup for an IUI tomorrow. Go home pick up my ovidril in case I have to trigger at work. Well, at 1 I get a call from the RE's office. Turns out my estradiol only increase to 105, it was 102 on Monday. So the doctor feels that the best thing to do is cancel the IUI. Okay, not that bad. I can live with it. Then the dumb nurse (she's always the one that calls with bad news, she was the one who told me to keep taking the progesterone when my betas dropped because it MAY not be bad) goes on to tell me that my prolactin was down but not as low as they would like. Well, I don't really know what this means but I was at work and couldn't talk about it there. She tells me that she going to call the pharmacy and get me a medicine where I take 1/2 tablet once a week for 4 weeks and they'll recheck my levels in 4 weeks. I say ok. Then after work 2:30 I call her back, well she left for the day. (see why I don't like her?) They tell me they can get her if I want, I say it's okay. I'll call back tomorrow. 

Since I had to go to job #2 I had my DH go and pick up my meds for me. Well, another problem with the stupid nurse. The pharmacy tried calling the doctor for clarification but no one answered. The medicine they called in, doesn't come in the dosage they prescribed. So they have to wait until tomorrow to get clarification.

Well, since no one explained anything I turned to google. Apparently prolactin can be increased in women breast feeding or if you have pituitary tumor, the medicine they prescribed is dopamine inhibitor. That's all I know. So much for this being our cycle. Instead, it's me drinking large quanities of wine and gaining back the 13 pounds I've lost because I really don't care. I thought losing weight would help us conceive. I also frustrated because I thought taking a break would be a good thing for ART instead, it seems to have thrown off my body. Either that or I'm getting old.

Funny thing though at Job #2 one of my patients, who's 92, and I were talking and out of no where she says "My husband and I tried for 19 years to have a baby and then at 39 I thought I was going through menopause and I found out I was pregnant with my daughter." Maybe this is my sign to let this happen the way it's supposed to, right? Patience is not one of my virtues and after 3 years, 2 m/c's, I'm even more impatient and frustrated. Sorry for the long post. Can't tell half the story.

Court1

I'm so sorry hun. Lots of wine indeed.

heathergirl67

Ugh. What a downer cycle this has turned out to be for you. I'm so sorry. I hope that the meds aren't for anything serious. You never know what they're trying to do. Maybe they just want to balance out a hormone that is out of whack for no reason?

suntoto

Huge hugs!

EntropicEpona

This is not OK. Soooooo not OK. WTF?

I'm so sorry Amy. For everything. Grrrrr. 

butterfly843

((hugs)) I'm sorry.

millejj1

I'm so sorry. hugs

bbhalphen

That's a nice story about your patient, but I am SO, SO sorry you're having to go through this.  It's not fair!

cutebride73

Oh Amy I'm sorry (((hugs))). 

The nurse at your RE would throw me over the edge!!  I think I would call and see if you can talk to your dr and get clarification on exactly what they want you to take and why.  I mean it seems crazy that they are not clear.  I get frustrated with my RE sometimes too, but I will say they are pretty good about calling back on things right away.

I do know what you mean about sometimes feeling like you should just see what happens.  I am not really into this IVF cycle.  Maybe I will get there when I start stimming or maybe this is a defense mechanism for all of the failures I've had.  I don't know, but sometimes I start thinking about all of the stories of people conceiving on their own after all this time and it makes me think that anything is possible.  Then again, it hasn't happened for me yet. 

I don't know.  I guess what I'm saying is I second guess sometimes too. 

Rawr08

I am sorry.  *hugs*

LilMaggs

*hugs*

crystalknpp

I'm so sorry hun. As many ((HUGS)) and as you want coming your way!

jolieandscott

I'm so sorry. Big (((hugs))).

rjl07

I'm so sorry Amy. That is beyond frustrating. Hope you get some answers soon! Hugs

mdm2137

I'm sorry Amy. Hugs.

Olive44

I'm so sorry

KelinandKevin

Big hugs to you Amy!

lunatwo

(((HUGS))) That is awful.  I must say though, I liked your patient's story.

DoingItRight

{{{{{{HUGS}}}}}}  I am sorry that you keep getting this nurse.  I hope that the doctor can get you some answers.  I understand the patience thing.  It is so hard to be patient when this is supposed to be easy and fun and it is not easy or fun for us.

CashewsMommy

Oh hun!! I am so sorry! (((hugs))) What happened when you called the doctor today?