we lost you 365 days ago...

vanceke08

it's been a year today, since our dissolved adoption. sucks. this day will probably suck too. meh. i can't be optomistic today. can't believe it's been a whole year. can't believe I haven't even seen you in 6 months. this kinda bites. one day I was somebody's mommy, and the next...nothing. you can't just turn the "mommy" off, you know? so here I am, with no one to mommy... 

Lord, would you fill these empty arms soon?  

MrsKolasa

I am so sorry. You're right, you can't just turn the mommy off. Love and hugs to you.

wille2b

im sorry... i dont know what that feels like and i cant imagine it. i hope that very soon your arms are filled someone to call you mom!

do something for yourself today

CaptainSerious

I can't believe how difficult that is.  I'm so sorry you are going through this.  Know you can come here anytime to vent, and we will be here to lend you support.

baze2

I am so sorry. Hugs to you today!

 

Nature Lover

I am so very sorry you are going through this and I wish I could give you a hug.  We have a beautiful DD who has been with us for 2 months and her situation is very precarious. We almost lost her in court on Monday. She is still with us but it showed me how close we are and we know we may lose her very soon. I have been crying for 3 days. I know exactly what you mean about not being able to turn the mommy off.  She is my daughter and in my heart will always be my daughter no matter where she is or what the courts decide.  I hope for some comfort for you. Be easy on yourself and know that its OK to wallow a little.  It truly truly sucks and you are right to acknowledge your sadness, anger and frustration. I know nothing can replace the one you lost, but I hope very soon there is someone else to fill your arms.

vanceke08

thank you ladies, you are the best. It is so nice to have a place to come and find people who understand. and who do not judge. you are all amazing and I am so glad I have found this place to come and seek community.