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aweful loss

I thought I'd be in the 2u2 club twice but I lost baby #3 yesterday at 11w6d.

**A little graphic, so just be warned before you keep reading**

It was the worst day of my life. Seriously. I have never been in so much pain and I have never had so many hugs from medical professionals telling me how strong I am and I even had a few pray over me. The entire experience was just mind blowing. To not get graphic...I had minor spotting the other week, it kind of stopped, I had a great weekend w/ the kids. Because the dr. didn't hear the baby's heart beat last week he let me go in for an u/s yesterday. I had aweful cramping to the ponit that I thought I'd throw up on our way to the u/s office. Once there I waited 15 min. They called me back & 1/2 way down the hall I hemoraged. I got to the bathroom and everything came out. I wish I could burn the image from my mind. The dr. gave me his scrubs because my pants were ruined. They still did the u/s and got my Dr. on the phone. He wanted me in his office ASAP. I told him on the way (he's just blocks from my house) I was stopping for pants since the scrubs didn't fit and we had to get MIL to pick up the kids. We were home for 3 min. & I hemoraged again. Made it to the dr.'s, fainted, they called an ambulance, the dr. did some proceedure on me to help w/ the bleeding because I was hemoraging AGAIN, he did some extraction that had me screaming in pain. The medics to me to the hospital, I had a bunch of tests run, finally got in a room at 11:30PM and got released this morning. I'm weak from all the blood loss. Through everything I kept hearing "surgery" "transfusion" and my BP was so low I was setting off alarms, at one point my lower number was in the 40's and my upper # was in the 70's.

I am truely grateful to be alive. To be able to hug my kids.

We still do want a 3rd....we plan on having a fun summer w/ the kids and then trying in the fall. I just need to heal. I lost 2 prior to my kids (no where near as dramatic as yesterday, an ectopic and a m/c that was a walk in the park compared to yesterday) and I know the joy of life surpasses the pain from loss....My dr. will do extra monitoring next time around since I'm moved up to a high risk category now.

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  • So very sorry for your loss. I'm glad you're able to hug your kiddos, and I hope you heal quickly.
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  • I'm so sorry to hear about your loss.

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  • I am so sorry for your loss. 
    Natalie 7.27.07/Lukas 5.29.09/Noah 3.4.11/Brooke 7.31.12 Baby Birthday Ticker Ticker
  • I am so sorry for your loss..that just sounds absolutely heart breaking. I hope you are able to physically and emotionally heal quickly.
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  • I'm so, so sorry.  I lost my first baby and remember passing everything in the bathroom.  It was so physically and emotionally painful, I will never forget it.  I'm so sorry you have to go through this once, let alone three times.
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  • hugs! You are a very strong woman. Hug your children today and get some rest. I am so sorry for your loss. What a horrible thing to go through :(
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  • I'm so sorry that this was the outcome :(     It sounds so scary and painful. I lost my first pregnancy before the boys, and it was so hard. Sounds like you have a good plan in place, and I'm so glad you're okay! 
    Aidan Jake 7/25/08 Cooper Cole 7/27/10 Tessa Morgan 8/9/12
  • So sorry for your loss. T & P being sent your way.
  • I'm so so so so sorry for your loss :(.  What a horrid experience.

    Miscarriages can be very traumatic.  With my first pregnancy I had a missed m/c and a D&C.  A week later I started hemmoraging at work.  I went home and the bleeding continued until I finally went to the hospital.  It was extremely painful and the bleeding was unbelievable.  This was all because of retained tissue from the D&C.  I considered myself "lucky" because I was able to avoid a second D&C by being put on methergine.  I also was being told a transfusion might be necessary.

    Take care of yourself! 

     

    Married 6/28/03

    Kate ~ 7/3/09 *** Connor ~ 11/11/10

    4 miscarriages: 2007, 2009, 2013, 2014

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    No more TTC for us. We are done, and at peace, as a family of 4.

    "Suffering has been stronger than all other teaching, and has taught me to understand what your heart used to be. I have been bent and broken, but – I hope – into a better shape.” — Charles Dickens

     

  • I very sorry for your loss and, what could only be described as, your very traumatizing experience.

    I hope your physical recovery is quick. Good luck trying again in the fall.  

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  • I'm so sorry for your loss. That sounds terrible. Sending T&Ps your way.

    I hope you heal physically quickly and best wishes for the fall.

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  • My thoughts and prayers are with you.
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  • I just wanted to thank all of you wonderful women for the T&P. I have been hugging my kids left and right. Their smiling, loving, innocent faces is what gets me through all of this. :-)
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  • I'm so sorry for your loss and glad you are alright. How awful! Best of luck to you in the future.
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  • So sorry to hear of your loss.  Thoughts & prayers are with you & your family!  Enjoy your little ones - they will help you heal :)
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