My Premature Introduction
GraceInCA
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Hope this isn't out of line, but I felt like it might be time to introduce myself.
I'm currently going through a loss. The doc labels it "blighted ovum", which I find confusing because at 6w4d we saw a baby in the sac with a heartbeat - it was measuring about a few days behind what I thought based on ovulation. It must have stopped developing very shortly after that, because at 10w6d I was spotting & the u/s showed an empty, irregular-shaped sac. That was 6 days ago, and so I guess I'm still actively miscarrying. What's going on with my body now feels mostly like a period. I am just eager for it to be over and done with so I can move on and try again. I realize that probably sounds callous, but I honestly feel like I did all the grieving and crying I could manage and now I just want to move forward. There is no baby, and there really was no baby. I had the hope of a baby, that was just not meant to be. The pregnancy was so much like my first, I really didn't think much of anything being wrong, but when I learned something was wrong, I cried, I was sad and hurt, and then after a couple of days I felt like "Ok, well that's done now."
DH & I have a son in elementary school, and after all these years considered starting over again. I went off birth control pills in January, tracked my cycle with temps in February, and was KU in March. I considered us very lucky, but obviously not all that lucky.
I'm trying to be as optimistic as my doctor, who is convinced this was chromosomal, and that we should have no trouble conceiving again. But I'm not convinced. How can he know?
I'm incredibly anxious. I feel like I really need to just test the waters again and try to get pregnant. Does anyone have any advice for me, other than to continue to see the doctor and follow up on what's going on with my body? My next appointment is tomorrow.
Thanks for reading. Looking forward to getting to know everyone.
Re: My Premature Introduction
BFP#1 EDD 11/8/11 - MC @ 9w6d, 4/15/11 we said goodbye
BFP#2 DD arrived 5/7/12
My heart is as open as the sky.
Read about it on the blog
2 Corinthians 12:9 But he said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me.
Sorry for you loss.
I had a BO too. It sucks (all m/cs suck).
I hope you find some comfort here.
BFP #1- 11/7/10 ~EDD 7/20/11 ~M/C (bo) 12/6/10 @ 8wks ~Missing my Little Firework
BFP #2- 9/11/11 ~EDD 5/25/12 ~M/C (mmc10w)11/4/11 @ 11wks ~Missing my May Flower
BFP #3- 02/21/12 ~EDD 11/1/12 Audrey Lee Born 11/4/2012
BFP #4 ~EDD 6/20/14 stick baby stick!
mm 2/17/11 * dd born 4/20/12 * bo 1/3/14 * edd 1/21/ 1/15
? to Loss+M/PL+TTCAL+PgAL+PAL
PgAL/PAL welcome
BFP #2 - EDD 2/26/12 M/C 6/28/11 @ 5w2d
BFP #3 - EDD 4/7/12 M/C 8/2/11 @ 4w2d
Too beautiful for this earth
BFP #4 - EDD 12/09/12, Lucille arrived 11/26/12
BFP 4/7/11 EDD 12/16/11, MC 7w
BFP 7/21/11 EDD 3/30/12
Betas: 1,135 4w1d, 2,335 4w3d, 13,998 5w1d
Ultrasound 6w0d = hb 119!
Ultrasound 10w4d = hb 165 measuring 11w1d
Thanks everyone for your kind words.
I've never been so eager to see the doctor as I am to go in for my appointment today. I just need to have some answers and a timeline about moving forward with TTC again.
Also just posted this in the miscarriage board:
Update on my appointment: doc seemed ok with how things progressed. He said I will not likely experience much else, perhaps a few more days of bleeding/tissue and mild cramps. I'm scheduled for an ultrasound next week to see that all is clear. After that, I was given the ok to try after AF's arrival, which he predicted to be in about a month.I guess as far as news goes, it's as good as it was going to get.
What's confusing to me now is how painless this miscarriage was. I really expected much, much worse. I am grateful that we'll be able to try again right away. I have my fingers crossed that the ultrasound next week shows everything is clear.