Pity Party for 1- Anyone want to join?

Married071709

I have been fine for the past 2 months or so.  Living like and accepting the fact that its going to take a while longer to get pregnant.  I had my 2nd lap on April 11.  I had some hope that it might be our solution. . .

Nope, still in pain, except now its on the left side instead of the right.  Fabulous. It's my "fertile" time and I can't even have sex with my husband cause the pain just about sends me through the roof and sends tears streaming down my face.

2 opinions so far, 2 completely different opinions.  "IVF is our only option".  "What? That's crazy. You don't need IVF."  Which one do we believe? 

Looked on the insurance website to find that my $3750 out of pocket max has been met.  Thank you Endometriosis and laprascopy #2.  This is good news cause everything til the end of the year is covered 100%.  We still pay oop for IF treatments though.  Now we have $2500 in bills that will be arriving in the mail sooner then later.

Saw a rhuematologist who thinks I might have inflammatory arthritis.  Another issues to add to our current list.  I feel like a neurotic freak.  I go to so many appointments and feel like nothing is accomplished. 

I just feel overwhelmed and stressed.  What do we do?  Do I lose 6 months of time while on Lupron?  Who knows if that would even help.  Will it make me a raging b*tch that no one will want to be around?  Do we put ourselves further in debt to do treatments?  How will we pay for those treatments?

I have so many questions running through my head and no one can answer them.  My husband doesn't know what do it either.  I just feeling like crying and drinking a stiff drink.  

If you made it this far thank you for reading.  I just needed to get this out.

 

Anasara

((hugs))

That's a lot to digest; best of luck! 

abbe19

I am so sorry. IF sucks. It is very overwhelming and a lot of us don't have any clear answers. I had a lap, minimal endo was found but they put me on Lupron for 4 months. It wasn't easy but I wasn't unbearable (I don't think ). We have absolutely just thrown money at doctors trying to get ourselves pregnant. But what are you going to do? At the end of the day, we want to do everything possible to give ourselves the best chance of conceiving. I haven't gotten pregnant yet but one way or another, I hope we can become parents soon. Hang in there. (((hugs)))

Temp590840000005378

I'm sorry hun, I can totally join your pity party!  I have endo too and intercourse is so painful, especially when it's close to ovulation.  I hate it, I've always had this issue from Endo.  I had my 1st lap 3.5 years ago and have been considering if I should have a 2nd lap.  It sounds like doing a 2nd lap didn't help you much?  Ugh, it's so hard to decide what to do next.  I haven't taken lupron, I did take Aygestin for 6 months which is kind of similar, it was nice not having a period for those 6 months and not having to deal with painful cramps.   Vent all you want and fee free to pm me if you ever need to.  ((BIG HUGS))