Sad and frustrated

MamaB2009 · May 2011

I'm having a bad day. I love adoption and that we have the chance to experience it, but I really mourn the chance to get to TTC and plan our family. The majority of my friends are pregnant right now or have just had babies and I am surrounded by family planning talk and discussion of how far apart they want to space their children, birth plans and nursery planning, etc.

It frustrates me to no end that I have absolutely zero control over how far apart our children will be spaced, and not only that, I also have no control over how they are treated in utero. All I can do is pray and beg God to send me a baby in His perfect timing and pray that s/he will be treated well in utero and that we will be blessed with another wonderful relationship and not go through the heartbreak of another failed placement.

I'm sad that we can't find or afford an agency who we feel is completely in line with our adoption ideals and we have to wait for a birthparent to find us and pick us. And I'm just sad at the thought of our sweet girl being an only child.

It's just a poor me/why me kind of day. Thank you all for being so supportive and listening to me when I whine. I really really appreciate it.

starsmaycollide · May 2011

I'm so sorry. I don't blame you at all for having those days now and then.

I hope the right opportunity will come soon, at just the right time for you. It's one of those things I just don't think makes sense, as you don't deserve to have to worry about these things to expand your family. I just hope that somehow it will all make sense later.

MrsAO · May 2011

I can't imagine how you feel but I'm really sorry. I pray for serentity for you.

AUHOLLEY06 · May 2011

I am sorry that this is such a hard time for you. I hope the best for you and your family and that good things happen for you.

uagirl · May 2011

I am so sorry. I can't imagine the pain and frustration you are experiencing. I'll be praying for you.

MamaB2009 · May 2011

Thanks ladies...I really hate these days. It's so nice to have your support.

SeasideBride06 · May 2011

I truly hate that you have to go through these pains and emotions. I am thinking of you and praying for you.

star21gazer · May 2011

I'm so sorry that you are having to go through this. I'll keep you in my prayers!

Erin&Gregg07 · May 2011

I'm sorry you have to go through this. I hope that everything works out the way you would want it too!

wilma007 · May 2011

[MamaB2009] I?m so sorry you?re having this sad, frustrating day - might this bring a smile to you face, a joy in your heart.

Please accept this simple prayer from me:

?Most gracious heavenly Father might I humbly ask for this a pregnancy - that goes full term for (name). I ask only that this be a healthy pregnancy for her - in His most precious name - Jesus.?

Also I wish both you a wonderful, happy upcoming anniversary!

(((Hugs)))

Wilma

ricejl · May 2011

I'm so sorry you are going through this, you are in my thoughts and prayers.

MJ317 · May 2011

My brother and I were adopted and he's 12 years older than me. My mom has told me many times how she prayed for those 12 years for a baby girl and at times it felt like it would never happen. She said she would pray that God would bless her with another child or for him to take the desire away. I'll be praying for you!

Sunshine05 · May 2011

I'm sorry you're having a rough time of things lately. I (somewhat) understand. With IF we tried for so long and had some hang-ups that meant we couldn't start treatments as early as I'd have liked to. While we did get find success more than 5 1/2 years after starting TTC, I have similar worries about this being our only child, should we not get so lucky again or simply not have the money to go through treatments again. Sending lots of thoughts and prayers your way.