Can I admit something?

A&R2005

I am having anxiety/panicky moments about dying during child birth.  I wouldn't say it was a full on panic attack or anything, but I get all heart-racey  and sometimes I can't control the thoughts. I think I'm going to come home and start hemmoraging and that will be it. 

I think it is just because I look at dd and my dh and think who will take care of you and "all this" if I'm not here. I told dh but of course he said (and I'm paraphrasing) "shut up you be ca-razy cakes". 

Am I crazy cakes for having these thoughts?  Did anyone else have weird morbid thoughts?  Should I tell my dr that I'm worried and she should follow me home for the first 2 weeks pp. lol.  

Idk, why I felt the need to admit that!  I don't even really feel much better about it since now I'm thinking about it!  Gah!  

 

hcmamm1

I would just mention it to your dr. I had thought like that, but mine were that I was going to fall down the stairs or get in a car accident. Turns out it was the beginning of PPA for me.

lollitots

I think scary "what if" thoughts are normal. Mine were worst immediately following birth. I had tons of panicky moments along the lines of how do I save 3, as in: what if the house is on fire and I can't get to all three, what if the car drops off a bridge, how do I get all three out of the car seats and out of the car (not that we live anywhere near a bridge), what if there is a mud slide that engulfs the house, what if someone breaks in and trys to take the kids, tsumani, earthquake, you name it.... you get the picture. I totally think some of this is hormone related and goes away a few months after birth.

ghm

Definitely talk to your doc ASAP about it. Your fears could cause stress on you/baby during labor. I have had my fair share of panic attacks, sometimes rational, sometimes irrational. I hope you can find some peace.

xbrooklyngrl

When I was PG with B, I swore DH would be in a car accident or something before I had her. I was crazy town for sure.

If its consuming you, yes I'd tell the doc. If it pops in your head like a random crazy pregnent thought, just push it away.

Do you normally suffer from anxiety issues?

StarryNight39

I was having panic attacks while in labor with Drew. I swore I was going to die while in childbirth. It got bad enough that they had to give me a lorazapam because I was panicking so bad. Talk to you Dr - they can help! 

A&R2005

XBG, that has so crossed my mind too! 

I would say I suffer from mild anxiety.  I'm a rational/logical person so my anxiety is pretty in and out.  I can talk myself out of my crazy.  Unless it has to do with cleaning! Then I don't budge because it's not crazy, it just makes sense lol.  

I have an appt Friday so maybe I'll mention it to her.  I think it's probably just hormones or just the feeling of what if's.  But this one I just haven't been able to shake off as easily.  

xbrooklyngrl

I am exactly the same way so i understand. I think as we get older, some things are a little harder to shake out of our minds than others. Good Luck, I hope you feel better.

 

Cbidt's girl

There is a huge difference between panic attacks and panicky thoughts. Panicky what if thoughts that are fleeting are normal and not a threat to your baby, recurring panic attacks are not normal and the effects on babies in utero are largely unknown. Talk to your doc and determine where your worries are on the spectrum. I definitely had these types of thoughts and mh dh had the same reaction as yours. It was easy enough to distract myself with things I had to do snd it all turned out just fine.

r9stedt

((hugs))

Anxiety is such a snatch.

Littlejen22

I would worry about it turning into depression.  I had worries about something happening to me especially since I had high blood pressure but it was not panic.

A&R2005

Yeah, like I said it's not consuming me or anything.  Nor is it a full blown panic attack.  Just a thought that I keep going back to over and over. 

buffalo_buckeye

I definitely had those thoughts in the last few weeks of pregnancy. They would cone and go but nothing that would consume all my thoughts or send me into a panic. I never had any ppd with either of my kids. I would just run it by your Dr but it's probably just your hormones talking