back to work

monkey_pants

Returning to work today was so much harder than I'd even imagined.  I was feeling fine all day yesterday but then I got in bed and couldn't fall asleep.  I was up until 4!  And had to get up at 6:30 to feed DD and get ready.  My mom is here for three days so she was able to help a bit, and I asked the nanny to come a bit early since it was my first day.

I cried a few times before I left, then again on the subway with DH.  Then I got to work and teared up or cried pretty much every time anyone asked me if I was OK.  Plus I couldn't focus at all on work.  It felt like it was my first day at the company and yet everyone was talking to me as if I knew what was going on.  I really love my job so I'm going to try my best to make it work, but I don't exactly understand how I'm going to do a good job when I used to work 9-10 hrs/day and now it's going to be more like 7. 

I wasn't worried at all about DD since my mom is there and I really like our new nanny.  But I felt totally heartbroken without her all day Anyone else go back to work today?

Those of you who have been back at work longer, when did it start to get better?  I'd like to at least try for less crying tomorrow...

auburn76chic

I started back to work today too, so I know what your going through. Hang in there. Everyone tells me it gets better after the first week. I will be living for the weekends!

MrsStreff

i have been back a week and it still kills me to leave.

daniellepanda

I go back tomorrow and Im really dreading it. I have been crying about it randomly all week tonight being the worst. I just feel awful for leaving him but we financially have no choice. We have contemplated moving somewhere that is a much lower cost of living so that I can stay home with him but im not sure where that would even be.

GracieMaeLovey

Hang in there- it's definitely not easy, but know it will get better.  Keep telling yourself that LO is in good hands. I, personally, was doing great up until yesterday when DS started showing signs of a cold/cough (we're on week two).  Now I'm completely bummed and brainstorming get-rich-quick schemes so I don't have to work.  There's a lot to be said for the working moms of the world- I certainly have a new found respect- so does DH.  Keep your chin up- you're doing good things!

liladelphia215

I cried a good bit the first day - but not so much after that. It did get better, but Mondays are always hard, as are days where DD wakes up before I have to leave (DH is home in the morning), and I go in her room and she is laying there smiling at me.

Lovespeter223

I go back next Tuesday.  I keep telling myself that to take it one day at a time. I'm luck that my Mom is coming over to watch him, but it's still really sad that I have to leave him. I should be able to wake him up most mornings before I go to work, and I plan on spending as much time as I can when I get home. This is probably the hardest thing to face. 

sarag0116

I went back last week.  The 1st day was the hardest but it's getting easier.  I'm busy at work so that helps.  DH takes DD to daycare and I pick her up.  That works out really well for us & I look sooooo forward to picking her up everyday!  I also get myself plenty of time in the morning (2 hours) so I have time to do all the necessary things like get myself ready, make my lunch, nurse DD and pump AND have time to play with her.  That makes me happy to spend time with her in the mornings & evenings.

 

wilma007

I too returned to work - Monday! It?s so sad to say the least. I totally agree with y?all on what you?ve say. I?m hoping/praying it ?DOES? get better quickly I too thoroughly enjoy my job; but, I do wish we had that day care here so I could be with my precious little girl some throughout the day - that all. I tried setting one up here while pregnant; but, the company decided not to pursue that proposal - issue at that time since we?re a small business/company without major resources.

 

We also had some legal problems which added to the cost of providing such service to our employees; which would?ve caused problems since we?re in a manufacturing environment with some toxic chemicals used, processed, even stored within our facility.

 

It?s just too dangerous having them around children being exposed to!