I'm pregnant. Unexpectedly pregnant.
I just took a pregnancy test and it immediately turned positive. I'm freaking out!
I think I'm about 5 weeks but I can't remember if my last AF was a normal AF or could have been spotting. I'm still BFing so I didn't really pay attention or keep track since none of them have been "normal" periods anyway. I'm not even sure of the first day of my last period. ugh...I feel so irresponsible.
I can do this, right? If my guess is right, the baby would be due Jan. 1....two weeks before the girls turn 2. I'm so afraid I won't be able to give everyone the attention and nurturing they need and deserve.
I'm so afraid my body is just done. It is so tired. Miscarriages, surgeries, a MAJOR surgery, shots, pills, twin pregnancy, GD and insulin, c-section, BFing for 15 months (and going). My body can handle another pregnancy right? I'll be 38 when the baby is born!
I'm in desperate need of encouragement. I am excited and happy but am so scared and overwhelmed. I lost two other pregnancies likely due to a hormone issue, so I fear this may end the same way since I didn't take any fertility meds or progesterone.
Sorry....I know I am a rambling mess. My head is spinning!!