So I have been meaning to post for awhile but have been insanely busy. Warning, this has to do with a baby so don't read it if it will upset you.
As you guys know we are 2.5 years TTC. 3 REs later we are still unexplained and after much soul searching we were gearing up for IUI #1. I was ready to move to adoption and had researched it ad nausea but DH wanted to try ART. Our friends and family however knew we were considering adotpion as a possibility at some point down the road.
I was waiting for AF to call the doctor to get our IUI rolling. 2 weeks ago I get a call that says basically "a friend of a friend has a 10 month old baby she can not care fo (long story but trust me she can NOT care for this baby), DCF is set to step in and take the child but gave her the option to voluntarily place it for adoption can you take it. You have to decide NOW and you have to come now". I left work immediately and drove 8 hours to get the baby. That night AF arrived. I did NOT call the RE to start our IUI (I called DH on teh way and told him to get a crib)! Next day we did paperwork, bought things needed for the drive home, saw the DCF worker, etc. The next day I drove home. That was CD3, the day I would have started my meds for IUI.
Now this is not all a "pie in the sky" story because it is still very risky. We have temporary custody which means the mother could revoke that at any moment before we get the legal stuff taken care of. The grandparents also want the baby but again can NOT care for the baby (I can't go into details unfortunately but you will have to trust me on this one). They don't have any legal rights and since the mom is dead set against them having the baby (because of how they treated her as a child) they probably will not but you never know what crazy things judges decide. We have hired an attorney and will go to court in a few weeks.
So this is why I haven't been around! We haven't had a spare moment. Our lives got turned upside down in the most unanticipated way. In addition to taking care of a totally unexpected baby, we are outfitting a nursery with no notice at all, dealing iwth doctors, and DCF, and lawyers and trying to figure out work schedules (I jsut left work when I got the call and haven't been back since - fortunately they are understanding). Oh yeah, did I mention we're taking care of a baby. Just nuts.
I am sooooooooooo terrified. DH is always optimistic about everything and says repeatedly that he jsut knows this is our baby forever. I am not as optimistic and am so scared that she will jsut be gone. I started crying last night thinking about it - you have all of these hopes and dreams for the future iwth this little person and for her to suddenly be gone would seem almost like a m/c (I mean no disrespect to anyone who has had a miscarriage - I jsut mean you have those dreams for that little person and then know they will not happen). We are doing what we can to keep her and the rest is out of our hands. So much of this feels like IF again - the lack of control, the hoping against hope, the fear of loss, the prayers to be a family forever.
And yes, when I raced out of town and packed the most rediculous suitcase (5 pairs of pants, and ONE shirt and a *** - huh? a suit????) I DID pack my lucky socks :-) And I wore my pomegranate necklace :-) So we are hoping this is our permanent BFP and this is our sticky baby.
I know this isnt' the board for this kind of stuff but this is MY board and I wanted to let you ladies know why I disappeared. I don't know if you guys want updates or not, or if you prefer not to hear. Let me know. And yes, I know this story sounds crazy and you are all wondering if you really just read this - I am living it and can't believe that it is real. This is a crazy, crazy, crazy life I live. Please, please say a prayer or good Karma, or positive thoughts, or whatever it is you do.
Re: My CRAZY story!
OMG that is INSANE!!!!!!!!!!!! And exciting and crazy!
For now I will say congrats on your new little one. I really hope that you can get everything worked out legally!
Dx PCOS 2003/high fasting insulin/clotting issues DH Dx with low sperm count, motility and morphology. Varicocele repair (11/1/2010)
2/2011 - Confirmed no improvement - On to Donor Sperm
4 failed IUIs in 2010
IUI#5 and 6- with DS, BFN
Final IUI - Lucky #7! IUI with DS - 20.Jun.2011 - 21.5 mil motile! Not so lucky - BFFN and the end of our IF journey....
Waiting for our family to be complete through Adoption - May 2012 - Hoping our baby finds us soon!
~SAIF/PAIF/Everyone Welcome~
Me= 37 and DH = 41
Dx: DOR, Endo, APA+ (really high beta 2 glycoprotein antibody and high everything else tested), heterozygous MTHFR mutation, positive for lupus anticoagulant, high FSH, low AMH and both tubes blocked (per HSG on 3/8/11)
IVF #1 - long lupron (with HGH, intralipids, lovenox and BA); 4 retrieved, 3 fertilized; ET 2 blasts and 1 frozen = BFN
IVF #2 - a version of antagonist with EPP (with HGH, intralipids, lovenox and BA); 6 retrieved, 4 mature, 3 fertilized, 2 blasts and 1 frozen blast transferred on day 5 = BFN.
IVF #3 April was postponed to May, May was canceled. June/July was canceled. Had a cyst aspiration and then began IVF #3 in August. ER on 8/22; ET on 8/24 with AH. +HPT on 9/5. Beta #1 (11dpo) = 3; Beta #2 (15dpo) = 29; Beta #3 (17dpo) = 60; Beta #4 (19 dpo) = 118. Heartbeat at 6 weeks 6 days =132. Lil is here!
TTC#2: Trigger + TI = BFN; Clomid + Trigger + IUI = BFN.
IVF #4: BCP + MDLF + Lovenox = 7R, 1F = Transferred 1 6-cell embryo on day 3 = BFN
IVF #5: MDLF + Lovenox = 4R, 1F = Transferred 1 10-cell compacting embryo on day 3 = BFN
IVF #6: (New RE): Long Antagonist November 2014 (transferred two 8 cell grade 1 embryos and froze one blast) = BFN
FET#1: BFN
Out of this world!
Good luck and keep us updated. I hope this works out as smoothly as possible and that all your legal issues are wrapped up very quickly.
xo
Whoa chica!!!!! What a crazy and wonderful story!!!! Congrats!!!!
Keeping my fingers crossed that every goes smoothly with everything, keep us posted!!!!
7 IUIs = All BFNs
2011: March IVF #1.2 = e/p @ 6w: May IVF #2 = BFN: July sFET #1 = BFN
2012: Jan We're Certified FC/A Parents
May IVF #3 = c/p
June-Nov Foster Mommy to M (Toddler)
July FET #2 = BFN
Aug FET #3 = BFN
Sept-Nov Foster Mommy to Baby Bella (Newborn)
Nov HSG/Sono = Clear!
Dec FET #4 = BFN
2013: Feb FET #5 = m/c @ 6.5w
May-July Foster Mom to H (8 yr old girl)
June/July/Aug IVF #4 = Freeze All
July = Unofficially Adopting T (10 yr old boy)
Sept FET #6 = TBD
**PAIF/SAIF Welcome**
Wow!! How amazingly wonderful and scary at the same time. I can't even begin to imagine what you are going through right at this moment.
All I can say is give that little girl all the love you can, even if for some reason she isn't your forever child, she deserves every ounce of Love you can give her while she is with you.
Praying that she will never be taken from you! I am so happy for you and YH that you now have a baby in your home!!
b2b Injectable IUI #1 7/25/10 & 7/26/10 = BFP beta 14dpIUI = 133 MC 9/14 at 9 weeks
b2b Injectable IUI #2 12/5/10 & 12/6/10 = BFN
IVF #1 ER 3/28/11 ET 3 embryos 3/31/11= BFN
b2b Injectable IUI#3 6/28/11 & 6/29/11 = BFN
PAIF/SAIF Welcome
Submitted Adoption Application on 6/1/2011
Homestudy 7/19/2011
IVF#2 CX due to Adoption Match
We were blessed with our daughter through the gift of adoption
IVF #2.1 ET 2 embryos 2/14/13 7 frosties
TTC#1 since 2004
LGBT
4 cycles @ home with known donor - BFN
RE un-medicated IUI cycles # 1-7= BFN
NEW RE Clomid 50mg/ Ovidrel/ IUI #8 BFN
Took long break
Nov 2009 - Clomid 50mg/ Ovidrel/IUI #9 = BFP
Beta 12/4 - 10...Beta #2 12/7- 28 Beta #3 12/9 - 80!
1st sonogram 12/28 - slow hb and growth
m/c 1/1/2010 Courtland 8w0d
Nov 2010 cycle cancelled - polyp removal/hysteroscopy
April 4 2011 - IUI #10 BFFN
July 5, 2011 - #11 BFFN AMH .62 Boo
Seriously you almost had me in tears with your story!!! I'm sending you all the T&Ps I can spare. I love this story. Keep us posted!!!
Dx: LPD, underdeveloped follicles, blocked left tube
3 C/P, 1 BO, 1 Ectopic
IVF#1=BFN (3/11)
FET#1=BFP
Oh my goodness what a turn of events!! I hope everything works out for you and that this baby gets to have very loving capable parents. Lots of T & Ps for you!
Please keep us updated!
Me: PCOS, Blood/Immune Issues DH: Low all 3
Jun.- Sep. 2010 IUI#1-#3 = BFN
Oct. 2010 = IVF #1 = B/G Twins (passed away Feb. 2011)
May 2011 = Myomectomy and trans-abdominal cerclage (TAC)
Sep. 2011 = Surprise BFP = C/P
Feb. 2012 = sFET #1 = BFN
Feb.2012 = Hail Mary IUI #4 = BFN
April/May 2012 = FET #2 w/our last two embies = BFP (Please let this be it!)
Beta #1 8dp5/6dt = 234 Beta #2 10dp5/6dt = 695 Beta #3 12dp5/6dt = 1796 Beta #4 17dp5/6dt = 17,888 U/S #1 May 17, 2012 = Twins
Baby B's heart stop beating at 9 weeks 5 days
Our little miracle baby is a boy.
Baby Boy Owen and Baby Girl Avery were born too early on Feb. 13, 2011 due to a pedunculated fibroid, incompetent cervix and suspected placental abruption.
"What the heart has once owned and had, it shall never lose." - Henry Ward Beecher
SAIF/PAIF Welcome
Lots of love and luck to my PAIF/3T/IF Veteran ladies, especially my dear friend Zookie. Congrats to Papps, Teach84 and Starbuck on their little ones.
Callan George and Bennett Charles born and died 11/7/10
FET #1 April 2011= BFN
FET #2 July 2011= no transfer because my lining sucked
FET #3 February 2012= BFP! 1st beta 9dp5dt=314 2nd beta 11dp5dt=977 1st U/S 3/20 Twins- Heart rates of 111 and 138
Living After Losing
WOW, u weren't kidding! I so so hope it works out legally for you. What an amazing gift!!!!
Please keep us updated!
TTC since October 2007
Dx with Unexplained IF
IUI #1-3 w/clomid: Jan-March 2010...BFN
IUI #4 w/injectables: April 2010...BFP
1st u/s: 5/17-one little perfect hb@7w2d, 2nd u/s: 6/5-no hb@10w;
missed miscarriage: 6/10 d&c
IUI #5-7 w/injectables: Sept 2010-Jan 2011...BFFN
IVF #1: Feb/March 2011...pretty please let this work!!!!
Expecting twin boys!!!!!
Very best of luck with everything and keep us posted.
Jan to April 2010 - Clomid - All BFN
June 2010 - IVF - BFN
Oct 2010 - FET #1 - BFN
Dec 2010 - endometrial biopsy
Jan 2011 - Surprise BFP! - m/c at 6w5d
March 2011 - FET #2. Thawed 11 Day 1 embryos; 5 'exploded' / possible lab error?
ET 4/2/11 transferred 1 blast & 1 morula
Beta#1 10dp5dt =81; Beta#2 12dp5dt =222 Beta#3 16dp5dt =1337
It's a BOY!!!
Wonderful news! I hope everything works out
I love that you packed your lucky socks.
Keep us updated!
TTC since 2007
6 IUIs, 3 IVFs, and 2 m/c :< PCOS, Blood Clotting Disorder & MFI
IVF #2 Aug 2011 is a BFN:<
IVF #3 March 2012 is a BFN
Not sure what to do now. Sad and lost.
TTC since November 2008; me - poor egg quality,hypothyroidism,missing beta 3 integrin;
DH - some MFI;
1 month clomid plus timing - BFN;
3 months clomid + IUI - BFN BFN BFN
IVF #1 Nov/Dec 2009 - BFP - c/p;
IVF #2.1 Jan 2011 - Converted to IUI - BFN;
IVF #2.2 March/April 2011 - ER 3/23/11: 12 retrieved, 8 mature, 3 fert-ET 3dt 3/26/11: 3 embies - BFN;
IVF #3 May 2011 - ER 5/19/11: 20 retrieved, 10 mature, 9 fert-ET 5dt 5/24/11 3 embies - BFN;
Switched RE's for IVF #4 (CCRM) Oct 2011 - Surprise BFP before starting IVF #4!
Amazing! I am so happy for you guys! It will work out, with all these positive vibes from us:)
Can't wait to hear more updates and see pictures!
Congratulations! I teared up reading this and am so very happy for you!
I will keep you and YH in my T&P that this will all get worked out legally and that she will be yours forever.
Definitely keep me posted!!!
TTC #2 since June '08
~*DD 10.21.07*~
dx unexplained
IUI #1-4 BFN
IVF#1 June 2011 BFN
IVF#2 Dec 2011
Beta#1 12/21 : 812 Beta#2 12/23 : 1634
EDD 8/25
*PAIFW/SAIFW*
That is amazing news! Congratulations!
I'll keep my fingers crossed everything works out and please keep up posted!
GL with you LO!
TTC Since 10/08 4 IUIs=BFNx4
IVF#1=BFP!! Twins!!
Bradley and Billy born and lost on 2/2/11 at 19w2d due to pPROM/PTL. I miss you, little angels.
IVF#2=BFN
IVF#3=c/p IVF#4=Empty Follicle Syndrome; 1 mature, fertilized, & made it to blast. 5dt of "the lone ranger" on 9/6. Please stick, little one!
5 REs + 3 surgical hysteroscopies for septum/lap + 3 failed IUIs
IVF w/ICSI/AH & acu = BFP!, unexplained spontaneous m/c @ 8w2d (our little girl),
FET w/acu = BFP!, B/G twins!, lost MP @19w, dx w/funneling cervix @20w,
twins nearly lost to IC @21w, saved by rescue cerclage, 17P & 16w of bedrest
Our twins born @36w4d via CS when A came foot first
Thankful for every day
After 2+ years and multiple treatment cycles,
including an IVF vacation in Costa Rica/Panama,
IVF #2 brought us our miracle baby!
Surprise! Baby Boy is on the way!
Praying for you that this works out the way you want it to!!! Very exciting!!! Keep us posted!!!
Because we're fancy like that.
I am so, so happy for you and your DH! I have a good feeling that all of the legal issues with this process will be sorted out and your LO will be safe and cared for by you two! She is so lucky to have you and your DH in her life! I will keep my fingers crossed that everything will work out perfectly
::: Married June 2003:::

TTC #1 since: Aug. 2008
Me: 34, DOR, MTHFR-A1298C (heterozygous), decreased blood flow to uterus, Mild Endo
DH: 38, Balanced translocation 5&10, unexplained MFI, normal SA and SCSA
Tx History: IUI 1&2= BFN
IVF# 1 W/ICSI= BFN
IVF# 2: cancelled d/t no response
IVF# 3= 1 egg retrieved=immature/not viable
IVF# 4= c/p
***CCRM ODWU***
Found DHs BT and Me-decreased blood flow to uterus
Recommended DE IVF w/PGD, incorporate electro-acupuncture. Decided to cycle locally
***New RE***
DE IVF# 1(cycle #6) w/pgd, (freeze all): 30R, 23M, 15F, slow/poor embryo development, 4 biopsied, 1 Normal "Norm"; DE IVF w/PGD, incorporate electro-acupuncture.
IVF# 6: (OE/DS) cancelled
IVF# 7: (OE/DS) 1R, 1M, 1F, arrested day 5
Plan-DE IVF# 2 (cycle #8): DE/DS in May 2015
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