**TTC Check-In**

HSartteach

Trying

kimbiebride

ktwdw129

purpletulip

kirknsarah

Tiffany5412

?balihaigirl

AustinBride?

MnMShaw

HSArtTeach

angelaggie

Jess.O?

IVF/IUI/Meds?

texasbeachbride

10-4LilBuddy

On Hold?

AustinMimi?

FireChiefsBride?

katattack

SareBear30

sandieleeann

Mrs. Froggianna

OrangeFelt

EMTX

Give us an update.

QOTW: What's the worst part for you when it comes to ttc?  (And remember that everyone is different, so what may be major for you may not for someone else, so no flames please)

angelaggie

I can't believe I'm saying this, but......Move me to "trying" please.  Eeek!

I took my last pill last night.  I'm scared as I posted earlier this week, but excited too.  My biggest fear is the normal stuff, can we do this?  I mean parents?  It's so adult?  But the thought of making a child with my husband just sounds too wonderful!

QOTW: Since we really haven't tried just yet, I think the worst part will be waiting.  I mean if you think about it, everything seems to have to work out perfect, and if it doesn't...you wait another 4 weeks or so.  I'm a big NOW person, so waiting sucks.

HSartteach

angelaggie--I moved you.  I knew there was someone I had to move, but I couldn't put my finger on whom. 

HSartteach

QOTW:  The worst part for me this time is the anxiety of testing/waiting to test.  I know I should wait, but it is so hard for me.  FFO says to wait until the testing day to avoid anxiety, etc.  But, waiting for me causes more anxiety.

Update:  I am currently at 10dpo and anxiously waiting for testing day.

balihaigirl

QOTW: the worst part for me is the waiting and having to be patient.

No real updates, I'm 4 DPO so I plan on testing late next week (hoping to hold out until about 12 DPO).

GL to everyone this month!

angelaggie

HSartteach:

QOTW:  The worst part for me this time is the anxiety of testing/waiting to test.  I know I should wait, but it is so hard for me.  FFO says to wait until the testing day to avoid anxiety, etc.  But, waiting for me causes more anxiety.

Update:  I am currently at 10dpo and anxiously waiting for testing day.

Ok, what they say makes no sense!  Anxiety is caused by waiting!  *Hoping this is it dust* 

MnMShaw

I think I made it clear where I was yesterday with my vent, lol!  Today is day 2 late... thanks AF!!! 

QOTW: What's the worst part for you when it comes to ttc? 

The worst part is waiting and AF.  I worked myself up so much this month that the fact that I got a negative test is a bummer.  I've been ready to be a mom for so long that I just don't won't to wait any more!! And AF... I never liked you to begin with... but when I want a baby, you are really getting in the way!

Jess.O

angelaggie:

.Move me to "trying" please.  Eeek!

Yay!  

Well...since we're past my fertile window and we're starting next month does that mean I get to move to "trying" also?    We're officially trying next month but there's no hope for April so...

QOTW:  I would say probably waiting as well.  Even before TTC I was horrible about automatically wanting to POAS for any late AF so I can't imagine how the next few months will be.  

brideonjuly8

I guess you can put me back on the trying list, and add me under "Meds" as well, since as soon as I start my period we'll be jumping right back on the Femara track.  Sucks being back here.  Ugh.

QOTW- the waiting to test is hard, sure, but for me the hardest part is all the unknowns.  Will I ever get pregnant again?  How long is this going to take this time?  3 months?  6 months?  Another year?  And now, am I going to miscarry again?  I hate not knowing. 

Mrs.Froggianna

Updated: none. Just waiting to get through this cycle and on to the next when we actually start trying.

angelaggie:

QOTW: Since we really haven't tried just yet, I think the worst part will be waiting.  I mean if you think about it, everything seems to have to work out perfect, and if it doesn't...you wait another 4 weeks or so.  I'm a big NOW person, so waiting sucks.

I couldn't have said it any better.

texasbeachbride

Update:  Blegh, nothing good to report.  I was supposed to have a lap this week, but found out it was going to be over $3500 OOP and we just couldn't stomach paying that much for something that may or may not tell us anything.  And from what I have been reading, even if endo is found and removed, that doesn't necessarily up your chances much.  So I cancelled...now just in limbo.  We are not going to pursue any treatment for awhile.  Saving for possible IVF in the future, but that is still a long ways off.  

QOTW:  The worst part is the freaking rollercoaster of emotion every month.  Every month when AF comes, I am so beaten down and cry for a day.  Then every single time when I get signs of O, I get so positive again and think this will be it.  Positive feelings build up until I take a test that is BFN and even then, I always think, I'm not out till AF shows.  Then she does...and it starts all over again.  

Sorry for the rambling...I've been indulging in some wine and feeling a bit like a negative nelly.  Cheers to a better day tomorrow.  Good luck to everyone trying!!! 

AustinBride06

Update: I'm at 4dpo as well. Wanna be testing buddies, balihai? though I'm not sure I have the willpower to hold off until 12dpo... Was thinking I'd start testing around 8dpo perhaps. I O'd earlier that I ever have (since I started charting) which is awesome bc it makes this cycle seem a lot shorter (O'd at CD15 instead of CD27 like last time).

QOTW: I think the worst part for me is getting the timing right. With such irregular cycles it's hard to predict ovulation though OPKs have definitely helped.

brideonjuly8

AustinBride06:

Update: I'm at 4dpo as well. Wanna be testing buddies, balihai? though I'm not sure I have the willpower to hold off until 12dpo... Was thinking I'd start testing around 8dpo perhaps. I O'd earlier that I ever have (since I started charting) which is awesome bc it makes this cycle seem a lot shorter (O'd at CD15 instead of CD27 like last time). QOTW: I think the worst part for me is getting the timing right. With such irregular cycles it's hard to predict ovulation though OPKs have definitely helped.

When I'm not on meds my cycles were crazy long like yours, and I was SO frustrated.  I HIGHLY recommend getting a CBEFM!  No guessing, only once a day, and it's brainless.  I used it for 3 cycles and it was spot on for me everytime.  The first day I got a "Peak" I knew I would O the very next day.  I only end up using about 7 sticks a month, and you can buy them on Amazon for like $25 for a box of 30.  I don't even have to temp while using it, but I do right around O, just to make sure. 

sandieleeann

Update:  I started taking prenatal vitamins since the doctor said a month before I go off the pill to start them.  The time is getting so close to stop my pills and I'm excited and scared.

QOTW:  Even right now waiting until I go off my pills is hard.  I have so many friends that are pregnant or already having their babies.  I just want to where they are at.

kirknsarah

I am still waiting for my temp to rise. I am on CD22, the latest it's ever been. And I had EWCM several days ago. So I am confused. We are TTA (because of my chemical pregnancy) this cycle, so the fact that it's taking so long for things to get going is really annoying.

QOTW: I agree with everything everyone has said. The waiting. The not knowing. The "surely it's going to happen this cycle!" and then it doesn't. And the knowing that you can do everything right and still not conceive. It's very frustrating, all around. 

Here's hoping for BFPs for everyone really soon!

OrangeFelt

QOTW:  I'm going to go ahead and agree with everyone else, and quote Tom Petty with "The Waiting Is the Hardest Part!"

Update:  Debuting... my tracking ticker.   I'm not temping, just tracking AF and CM and all of that.  We're no longer "avoiding" but we're not officially trying until September (after all the races I've signed up for this year are done, and timing would be better for taking time off of work).  If it happens before then, great!  If not.. well, I'll probably be disappointed, but whatever.  I'll console myself with the distraction of tri training and little racing victories. 

AustinBride06

brideonjuly8:

AustinBride06:

Update: I'm at 4dpo as well. Wanna be testing buddies, balihai? though I'm not sure I have the willpower to hold off until 12dpo... Was thinking I'd start testing around 8dpo perhaps. I O'd earlier that I ever have (since I started charting) which is awesome bc it makes this cycle seem a lot shorter (O'd at CD15 instead of CD27 like last time). QOTW: I think the worst part for me is getting the timing right. With such irregular cycles it's hard to predict ovulation though OPKs have definitely helped.

When I'm not on meds my cycles were crazy long like yours, and I was SO frustrated.  I HIGHLY recommend getting a CBEFM!  No guessing, only once a day, and it's brainless.  I used it for 3 cycles and it was spot on for me everytime.  The first day I got a "Peak" I knew I would O the very next day.  I only end up using about 7 sticks a month, and you can buy them on Amazon for like $25 for a box of 30.  I don't even have to temp while using it, but I do right around O, just to make sure. 

Hmmm, yeah, I totally JUST bought a pack of 50 OPK cheapie strips so I think once I run through those (and if my cycles go back to being long again, it won't take me long to get through them) I'll probably invest in an CBEFM.

ETA to my biggest TTC frustration: getting DH and I to get in the mindset of FWP.  And the pressure we put on ourselves, even though we say out loud that we know it could take a few months and that we're okay with waiting... both of us just really want it to happen right away.

Forgot to add, GL to everyone who is starting TTC, coming back to TTC, or looking forward to TTC!  Lots of patience dust to all of us!

amyliisa

::whispers::  can you take me off the list, please?

But since it's so new and we tried for so long, I just feel compelled to answer the QOTW.  And this is exactly what I would have said (sorry, I had a brainfart and just c&p'd it instead of quoting it.  No idea why.  And now I can't remember who wrote it, but whoever did hit the nail on the head!):

"QOTW:  The worst part is the freaking rollercoaster of emotion every month.  Every month when AF comes, I am so beaten down and cry for a day.  Then every single time when I get signs of O, I get so positive again and think this will be it.  Positive feelings build up until I take a test that is BFN and even then, I always think, I'm not out till AF shows.  Then she does...and it starts all over again.  "

and to the poster who wrote that, just wanted to let you know - this cycle was successful for us, and it's the only cycle in the past 16 that I had not convinced myself that I was pg.  In fact, i was so sure we had bad timing and was convinced that this cycle would be a BFN.  Your body and mind will play tricks on you - no matter how much insight you think you have into the situation!  Keep your chin up!

GL to everyone!

HSartteach

amyliisa:

::whispers::  can you take me off the list, please?

yay!  How exciting!!Congrats!  and I will quietly take you off the list!

10-4LilBuddy

15 months since we started TTC and I just got a diagnosis of PCOS this week.  I've been seeing an RE since September and now this?  I am so frustrated and sad right now.  I feel like I've wasted so much effort and optimism.

The uncertainty of it all.  I need to know that it will happen.  I am going to be 38 in June and am tired of hearing all the people saying that fertility goes down at 35.  Don't you think I know?  What am I supposed to do?  If I could bend time, I wouldn't be sitting in a cubicle right now?  Sorry for such a downer post - I'm just worn down. 

HSartteach

10-4:  <<<<<hugs>>>>>

brideonjuly8

10-4LilBuddy:

15 months since we started TTC and I just got a diagnosis of PCOS this week.  I've been seeing an RE since September and now this?  I am so frustrated and sad right now.  I feel like I've wasted so much effort and optimism.

The uncertainty of it all.  I need to know that it will happen.  I am going to be 38 in June and am tired of hearing all the people saying that fertility goes down at 35.  Don't you think I know?  What am I supposed to do?  If I could bend time, I wouldn't be sitting in a cubicle right now?  Sorry for such a downer post - I'm just worn down. 

I'm really sorry about your diagnosis.  Hopefully though, now your docs know what's up and can change your treatment plan accordingly.  (((hugs)))

amyliisa

10-4LilBuddy:

15 months since we started TTC and I just got a diagnosis of PCOS this week.  I've been seeing an RE since September and now this?  I am so frustrated and sad right now.  I feel like I've wasted so much effort and optimism.

The uncertainty of it all.  I need to know that it will happen.  I am going to be 38 in June and am tired of hearing all the people saying that fertility goes down at 35.  Don't you think I know?  What am I supposed to do?  If I could bend time, I wouldn't be sitting in a cubicle right now?  Sorry for such a downer post - I'm just worn down. 

Hugs to you - I'm so sorry and I know what a roller coaster this must be.  Couple of things - I am 38 and just got a bfp after 16 months of trying.  Also, my good friend, who turned 42 a couple weeks ago, just last night delivered her first beautiful, healthy baby (after 3 m/c's and surgery to correct something in her uterus.  not endo but something about a divided uterus?  That was possibly causing the m/c's).  Anyway, at some point after her surgery, she and her dh had decided to stop trying because of her age and they felt they couldnt handle another loss.  A month later she was pg and everything was/is perfect.  Also, when i was having a really hard time, I came across this blog and read it from the beginning.  It's very religious (Catholic) but it gave me a lot of hope.  www.allyouwhohope.blogspot.com.

 Good luck to you!

Jess.O

Amylisa- Congrats!!!

10-4 - (((hugs)))

Tiffany5412

AmyLisa - Congrats!!! 

10-4 - I'm so sorry you're going through that.  <<hugs>>

Update: I am on day 2 of a 10 day round of Provera.  Then I hope the cycle will be back to normal.  I got pregnant the first time right after a round of Provera so I'm hoping it will help and that this time next month I can be telling y'all I'm pregnant again and asking for sticky baby dust.

QOTW: What's the worst part for you when it comes to ttc? Same as everyone else.  The anxiety and waiting.  I already know I'm going to be a wreck if/when I get pregnant again waiting to see if the pregnancy sticks. 

 

HSartteach

So, today I was walking around school, and I was thinking of how long it is taking some of us to get knocked up as I watch some of the kids walk down the hall.

I decided for me, one of the worst things about ttc is watching these young teenage girls get pregnant so fast without even trying and here we are temping, and charting, and checking CM, and that really sucks.

kirknsarah

HSartteach:

So, today I was walking around school, and I was thinking of how long it is taking some of us to get knocked up as I watch some of the kids walk down the hall.

I decided for me, one of the worst things about ttc is watching these young teenage girls get pregnant so fast without even trying and here we are temping, and charting, and checking CM, and that really sucks.

I so agree! Getting pregnant is not as easy as it looks on Teen Mom, and that makes me mad that these kids who aren't even trying can get knocked up in seconds.

10-4LilBuddy

Thanks ladies.  I appreciate the kind thoughts.

I'm just having a really low day.  I'm a couple days late and I've taken a few HPTs.  I had to get a blood test today to make extra sure that I'm not pregnant, so I can take some meds to bring on AF.  It just really stung to have to prove, yet again, a negative test.  DH is making dinner - aka picking up pizza - and I have a few good books to read tonight. 

 ((hugs to all))

MnMShaw

HSartteach:

So, today I was walking around school, and I was thinking of how long it is taking some of us to get knocked up as I watch some of the kids walk down the hall.

I decided for me, one of the worst things about ttc is watching these young teenage girls get pregnant so fast without even trying and here we are temping, and charting, and checking CM, and that really sucks.

This is so true! (and frustrating!)

Congrats Amylisa!

ssinca

10-4LilBuddy:

15 months since we started TTC and I just got a diagnosis of PCOS this week.  I've been seeing an RE since September and now this?  I am so frustrated and sad right now.  I feel like I've wasted so much effort and optimism.

The uncertainty of it all.  I need to know that it will happen.  I am going to be 38 in June and am tired of hearing all the people saying that fertility goes down at 35.  Don't you think I know?  What am I supposed to do?  If I could bend time, I wouldn't be sitting in a cubicle right now?  Sorry for such a downer post - I'm just worn down. 

Chin up! I know, easier said than done, but I was also diagnosed with PCOS and now look at me:) there's hope! Although Im surprised it took them this long to diagnose you:( let me know if you have any questions...FWIW, I was on femara and metformin (and still take a lower dose of the met).