Miscarriage/Pregnancy Loss

It's been a while...

First of all, I want to say "HI" to everyone here, and thank you all for your posts.  I have really enjoyed reading them and hearing other people's stories. I did an intro post back in October when I miscarried, but since that's been a while, here's my story.

Although, FH and I weren't actively trying to get pregnant, we did so back in October and I miscarried  at 5.5 weeks. 

In January I stopped BC and we only used condoms about 25% of the time, now for about a month or so we haven't used anything at all. 

I chart my cycles but won't start doing temperatures until May.  I am a teacher so the active TTGP will start in June, when I am done with school. 

Anyway, my vent is that now that we are on the track to getting pregnant it seems that everyone I know is pregnant.  I am seriously considering deactivating my Facebook account because every single day I see someone else is KU and I can't help but be envious, even though I am happy for them, it still hurts.  My EDD was June 12, and as that date gets closer I keep thinking of how big my tummy would be, what we would be doing to the nursery and so on.  I truly am happy for my friends, and I know that a lot of women get pregnant after a m/c but I have a family and personal history of "reproductive issues" (for lack of a better term) and I just want to be KU now...I know that sounds silly and I am just adding undue stress to myself and my FH but dangit, it just hurts.

Sorry to be a Debby Downer on a Friday, but I needed to vent.  Thanks for listening.  Hope you all have a great Friday and a wonderful weekend..

 

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  • I say vent away. That's what the board is for. and I'm on a FB break too

    It's just painful.

    hugs and GL TTC.


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    I say vent away. That's what the board is for. and I'm on a FB break too

    It's just painful.

    hugs and GL TTC.

    Awww thanks so much.  Hugs to you, too. 

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  • Oh facebook... so annoying.  There have been a few anti FB posts today...  I think that other than this week, when I found out we lost the baby and miscarried, November, the due date month, and the fall in general will be REALLY REALLY difficult.  Have you made any plans in honor of your baby in June? 

    BFP#1 EDD 11/8/11 - MC @ 9w6d, 4/15/11 we said goodbye
    BFP#2 DD arrived 5/7/12
  • I am so sorry that you are still struggling with your loss. I too was due in June and it is hard to think what I would be doing for our baby right now. Even when she was born 14+ weeks early and small, my mind was still in planning mode ("I'm going to get out of the hospital and heal up really well so that I can be so strong by the time she comes home, and we really need to start setting up the nursery...") There is still a part of me that gets into that timeline. I won't be able to start TTC for probably a year (I have to have a major abdominal surgery first) and the hardest part has been accepting this new limbo timeline.

    I hope that things go well for you this summer as you start more actively TTC and you get a sticky baby soon!

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