Better Days ARE Around The Corner

Briellabella

Please excuse my cheesy headline, but I just wanted to catch everyone's attention

I wanted to let all of you going through PPD, depression and anxiety know that there is a light at the end of the dark tunnel. I know, I've been in that tunnel.

When my youngest daughter was about 9 months old, I began having severe symptoms of PPD and anxiety. And I do mean severe. I can't explain how I felt much more honestly than by saying that I felt like I was constantly fighting a huge black hole of depression that was trying to suck me in. I cried all the time. There were many times I wished that I didn't have kids, and I was always afraid of those thoughts. I was terrified to tell anyone what I was thinking and feeling, because I worried what everyone would think - that they would take my kids away. It was the worst time in my life and I couldn't imagine it getting any better.    I wanted to die. I begged my husband to admit me to a mental hospital (thankfully for me, he knew better).                                                                                                           

I would hear women talk about PPD and they talked about how it took months and months to get better. They told horror stories about how their meds made them worse, etc. But then, after about two months of being miserable, I saw a doctor. And a therapist. I began taking meds. I started getting out and doing things - little things, anything. I would go to the mall, or for a walk with friends. In a few weeks, I felt SO much better. It's been 5 months, and it's hard to remember how sad and alone I felt before. I feel like me again.

I want all of you to know that the sadness, the guilt, the anxiety - it goes away with proper help. You aren't alone. Don't give up. Use whatever resources you can get, and fight this!!! Check out the website 'Postpartum Progress'. It has lots of great information.

Good luck, mamas!!! You can get through this!

NewMommy2BeFinally

Thank you for sharing your experience & kindness! I am also past my depression, but now have really bad anxiety. Getting theu my depression was because i got help right away. I too had those awful thoughts. I knwo the women on here are taking care of themselves and are being brave enough to share their questions and stories. Thank you again! :-)