I don't think I have ppd, I think it is more like post traumatic stress syndrome. I had a bad c-section. The spinal didn't work, so I felt them cutting me open, then I had to have ga, so I didn't get to experience my baby being born. It has been 2.5 weeks and I still cry about it all the time. I am glad the baby is here, but I still wish I was pregnant, and I think it has a lot to do with not getting to experience the pregnancy ending.
And on top of everything, I just found out we open the hospital almost $4,000!
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Check out ican-online.org and see if you can find a chapter in your area. It usually helps when you can find a support group and know there are others out there who have had a similar experience to yours.
Although my C-section itself wasn't necessarily "traumatic" (although my LO was not breathing/had to be resuscitated at birth,) I still have mixed feelings about the experience (not getting the birth I wanted/feeling like I missed out on the first moments with my son/etc.) The feelings are the strongest right after the birth for a couple weeks because of all the hormones, plus trying to adjust to a newborn, etc. Sometimes you don't feel like you can fully process your birth experience and it is hard to come to terms with.
For me I am having more problems w/ PPD/PPA, and I just had to get help because I know I'm not being the BEST that I can be for my son. My Dr prescribed Zoloft for me today. If you feel like you're not getting any better, then it might be good to find a therapist/psychologist/psychiatrist and maybe they can help you.
Hope it gets better for you.