Before you found out about your m/c... Any premonitions?

CrystalJB2003

I need to get this off my chest but okay... DH and I tried for about 6 months before we got a Positive pregnancy test. We were beyond excited. I already went out to Babies R' Us, bought massive baby stuff, it was basically a too good to be true dream.. I found out at 11w6d and During the time that I knew I had a horrible gut feeling that something was wrong, like heart wrenching disgusting feeling that something with the baby wasn't right.... I tried to ignore the gut feelings because I felt absolutely horrible for thinking that there wasn't a baby in there (Had a Blighted Ovum) but I truly at the time of being pregnant felt like there was no baby in my stomach... I tried talking to the baby, just thinking that pregnancy was a whole new world a whole new experience and that I needed time to get it through my head that I was pregnant. I didn't say a word to anyone that I had bad feelings about the pregnancy and it turned out a Blighted Ovum/m/c. Did any of you feel like something just wasn't right? Or during the whole time did you feel happy/pregnant? I still feel bad that I had those feelings..

hopefulmom81

I am so sorry for your loss.

 

YES.  Quick story.  I was so sure something was wrong at my first OB appointment that I BEGGED for an u/s just to make sure "everything was growing in the right place".  My OB relented and scheduled one for 2 weeks later, where I found out the baby stopped growing pretty much at the time that first appointment happened.  All along I had been telling my DH that something was off even though I've not been pg before.

I had no reason to believe something was wrong, no symptoms of a problem or anything, but I just "knew". 

My OB says this happens a lot.  Please don't feel bad.  

BritanyV

The 1st miscarriage I had last year, yes.  I pretty much knew from the start and miscarried very early.   The 2nd miscarriage (missed m/c, found out at 13 wks), nope, not a clue.

MissAutumn

Im sorry for your loss....

I did have the feeling.. When I first found out I was pregnant I felt that something was going to happen. I also worry about things but this was different, i couldnt allow myself to get too excited like everyone else. I had a dream on Sunday that I had a miscarriage, it was soooo real. Monday I went and had an u/s, the tech showed me the baby on the screen and i heard the heartbeat, she turned around and said everything looked great. AT THAT MOMENT, the wall and guard went down. I forgot about the worry and in an instant felt what everyone else had been feeling.

1 day later I had a miscarriage. It was horrible. If and when I get pregnant again, I will let go of the worry, I think that the hurt would have been the same if I didnt have a guard up so I might as well enjoyed my preg more.

Jennifer8128

Yes, I almost knew from the start. I was shocked when the pregnancy test came back positive. We were trying for a few months so it should not have seemed so odd. I almost "knew" it wasn't going to last. 

rissa_n

I understand what you're saying.  We got a BFP our first month trying for #2 and I just couldn't believe it.  I never really FELT like I was pregnant, but just thought that meant it was going to be a much different pregnancy than my first one.  I even saw an email recently that I had sent to my DH before my first appointment where I said I just don't feel pregnant and couldn't shake the feeling that something wasn't right with this pregnancy.  Lo and behold, it wasn't.    Even though I had these feelings, I was still blindsided/shocked and totally devastated when I m/c'ed. 

Hang in there. <hugs>

JT325

I'm sorry for your loss....

 I had a really strange dream about a month before our BFP.  I was taking a digital pregnancy test in front of my friends and family-- and instead of "pregnant" or "not pregnant" it said "blighted ovum."  It was beyond freaky and I was panicky when I woke up.

I was 6w when I lost the baby, and I had passed almost everything when I was in the ER, so they never diagnosed me with a blighted ovum.

I haven't told anyone about the dream.  It is all very bizarre!

williams4me

Yes, I had a horrible dream about me miscarrying one night when I was 10 weeks...it was seriously so awful, I woke up soaking wet with sweat, and it freaked me out so bad I didn't tell anyone about it, not even DH.  When we went in for my 12 week appt I was terrified that day, I told DH 100 times I was terrified there would be no heartbeat, even though I saw it at the 7.5 week u/s.  He assured me I was nuts.  I knew before the Dr even spoke...she couldn't find hb with the doppler....then we tried an u/s...still nothing, then we had to do a vaginal one and we finally saw the baby.....so perfect looking....no heartbeat...it had stopped in the 11th week.  I will never forget the way I felt after that nightmare....or after that appt.  In some ways I will never be the same again.

I'm so sorry for your loss (((hugs))) 

somnybooks

I'm sorry for your loss.

Yes, I felt that something would go wrong almost immediately after getting my BFP.  Everybody tried to tell me it was normal pregnancy nerves. I wasn't even surprised when the initial episode of bleeding/cramping occurred (DX with SCH at that time).  Two days before the m/c I had a dream that I was miscarrying and woke my DH up talking in my sleep saying "How do they know? How do they know?"  When he asked what I was talking about, I said "How do they know this bleeding is a miscarriage?"  I don't really remember much about the dream.... 

diazzle

Yes, yes, & yes.  I was shocked to find out I was pregnant with #2 and the whole pregnancy just felt different and wierd. I started out having bad back aches and cramps and more morning sickness early on.  We went to the dr. when I was supposed to be about 8 weeks along and the ultrasound showed I was only like 5w or so.  At that point I knew something was going to go wrong. 3 days later I started to miscarry. 

boymamaco

I definitely feel like I knew something was wrong. We went in for the first u/s and saw the heartbeat. It was slower than they wanted it to be so we rescheduled our second u/s for 10 days later. Everyone reassured me that everything would be fine. MH was super upset at me for even suggesting that we might miscarry. I kept my fears to myself. About three or four days before we went in for the second u/s I just knew something was different. I couldn't quite tell a difference in my breast size, or bloating, or lack of thirst, or lack of nausea. It wasn't one thing, or even many things. I analyzed them all and couldn't pinpoint it. But I just knew.

neuromom

Sort of. More like a weird, odd feeling and coincidence.

We just had our 2nd OB apt this past Tuesday when we found out about our m/c. There was no heartbeat on the 2nd u/s at 10 wks (we had seen one at 7 wks).  Anyway, I hadn't told my BFF about my pregnancy b/c she had experienced a stillbirth the year prior and subsequent deep depression. I wanted to wait until my risky period was over in case I miscarried. I didn't want to burden her with having to support me. Anyway, for about a week prior to my 2nd OB apt I kept thinking about my BFF (she lives in another state)--much more than normal.  She was kept popping into my thoughts--nothing really specific but I just had a feeling that she was also thinking about me.  It turns out that our OB apt was on my BFF's bday (3/22). I had planned to call her after the apt, but then learned the sad news about our baby. I immediately thought of my BFF, her recent loss, and the fact that it was her bday. I have been so sad and really unable to pick up the phone to call my BFF b/c I know I will just break down. I emailed her happy bday. I know she will understand when I finally get up the strength to tell her. 

xokell2

YES! I totally had an intuition from day one that something wasn't right.

When I was pregnant with my 2yr old son, I was very secure in my pregnancy and this one I seemed to always be waiting for it to not be.... I had a perfectly health u/s at 9 weeks and started to let me guard down but still knew deep down something wasn't right..... kind of why Im terrified of ttca.... I will never have that security again

hopefulmom81

MissAutumn:

If and when I get pregnant again, I will let go of the worry, I think that the hurt would have been the same if I didnt have a guard up so I might as well enjoyed my preg more.

This is a really good point.  I have been feeling like pregnancy is "ruined" in a way, lately and this is a really wonderful outlook.   

amandachs

YES.  Everyone told me I was just anxious, overly concerned, and since I was symptom free until the day I found out I thought they were right.  Everyone kept telling me I would know if something was wrong.  It was only my gut that kept telling me something was off.  I told my husband "I don't feel pregnant" so many times... it became a joke of "well your not, your just fat" (you'd have to know us, we have really rough senses of humor)  I didn't feel any big changes in my breasts, my abdomen, no m/s, no extreme sense of smell.  At the first apt I told hubby "there won't be anything there" and there were perfectly measured sacks.  At the next one I said "there won't be a baby" and there was a baby and a heartbeat of 168.  I had told him "4 weeks from now there won't be a hb.... I just know it".  I think at that point he was getting a little tired of hearing it,  I had my faintest of all faint bits of spotting, went in for an u/s and I was terrified so see that I was right.  There was my baby with no heartbeat.  All I could do was sob.  I don't know why I had the thoughts I did.... I don't know that they helped prepare me for the devastating loss I feel, sure doesn't seem like it.

Bonnie_Blue

Yes.  It's hard to think about now but two days before I found out I had two dreams in one night.  In both dreams I was watching two koi swim around in large bowls.  After awhile, one after the other, they both stopped swimming and were still.  I miscarried twins.  One at 7 weeks and the other at almost 12.  I happened to be somewhere today and saw koi swimming around in a pool.  I felt like I was falling into quicksand.

Tegan

I didn't have any premonitions, but I did stop feeling pregnant two weeks before my loss. My boobs stopped being sore... my abdomen felt different... I just didn't feel pregnant anymore.

LaTi07

I'm so sorry for your loss.

I did have one dream that stayed with me. It was the night before I started having my cramps where my doc thought I had an ectopic pregnancy. I had a dream that I could hear my baby crying, but I couldn't find him/her. I was racing all around my house trying to fine him/her and I couldn't. I was completely hysterical in my dream and the longer it took the louder my baby cried. It was that blood curdling cry too. I woke up in a horrible sweat and was so upset. The next day is when everything started going downhill.

Since my m/c I've had one dream that still breaks my heart and makes me sob to think about. I'm at a park and I see a little boy playing who I think looks just like my DH. I am so captivated by him that I just stare at him. Out of no where he runs up to me and says "It's okay mommy, I'm okay" smiles and runs away. I went to say something to him, but I woke up. Since my DH and I saw the pregnancy test, we were so sure LO was a boy so this dream just really tugged at my heart strings.

cburke81xo

First off...I am so sorry for your loss,

I had a feeling from the beginning that something was not right. My pg was not planned (although we didn't do much to not prevent) and I got pg right away after coming off my pill.  It was my frst and when I saw the BFP I just could not believe it.  I actually called my girlfriend up, who has two kids, to see if she thought the testes could be wrong! lol..I know silly me! Anyway, I even told her that this could not be right and I didn't have a good feeling about it. I never really felt pg and had little to no symptoms.  I did however have a constant pain in my right side. Nothing too crazy but it was there from the beginning. Even after I the few times I called my doctor and told them about it they kept saying it was normal. Well the pain ended up getting worse and long story short I lost my tube from an ectopic.

My girlfreind thought I was crazy when I told her it did not feel right but in the end my gut feeling was correct.  Only you know your body better then anyone else and you should not feel bad to have those feelings. I am sorry you were not able to talk about it to anyone. I can't imagine you carrying that on your mind.

((BIG HUGS))

 

1220winterbride

hopefulmom81:

MissAutumn:

If and when I get pregnant again, I will let go of the worry, I think that the hurt would have been the same if I didnt have a guard up so I might as well enjoyed my preg more.

This is a really good point.  I have been feeling like pregnancy is "ruined" in a way, lately and this is a really wonderful outlook.   

i pray for this everyday. i'm so afraid that I will be guarded or over cautious. t&P that we all have a joyful, happy & healthy next pregnancy.

SoonToBeMrsDTS

Yes, even before I was pregnant this time I had a terrible, horrible feeling that something was going to go wrong. Is that weird? I think I just felt like I was due because so many people I know had lost at least one baby and I hadn't. I was super super sick with this pregnancy. I was almost in tears at our 10w u/s because I was sure there was not going to be a hb. We had hardly told anyone about the pregnancy, not even my mom because I was so sure something was wrong. The u/s looked perfect, hb was 185 and the baby was moving all over the place. DH took me to lunch and cried because I was in disbelief that everything was ok. About 2 weeks later that heart stopped and we learned that there was originally twins and one stopped developing at some point before the first u/s. My doctor said that it is common when you lose one twin to lose the other one but I guess we'll never know what happened. Sometimes I'm afraid I stressed myself out so bad that my babies couldn't survive. 

Mrs_W_Pookie

I'm very sorry for your loss.  From very early on after finding out I was pregnant I just had a feeling that something was not right.  I am not sure why I felt like I needed to tell everyone I was pregnant.  I just had a feeling of dread.  When I didn't really get morning sickness like I did with DD#1, it reiterated that feeling even more.

kristie2422

I'm so sorry for your loss.

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I had a bad feeling from my BFP that I couldn't shake. I started spotting almost immediately like I did with DS, but it was different. My OB said it was normal and I shouldn't worry. However, I couldn't get rid of this feeling that something wasn't right. It's weird how well we seem to know our bodies and our own intuition.