I'm trying to cut caffeine from my diet completely and start eating better. Dr said to make sure I watch what I eat this month so I don't gain much weight. I've eaten an entire sleeve of Thin Mints so far this work day. Lunch will be a salad and some juice. I am dreading the lecture from the dr.
I wasn't sad when I dropped the girls off at daycare yesterday - twins going for the first time. I'm not sure if it is because I already know the center and all of the caregivers or if I was just excited to get back into the adult world after being away for almost 19 weeks - even though I have popped into the office a few times already. I was able to enjoy an entire warm cup of coffee without it going cold. Eat lunch at lunchtime instead of at 4pm because that's the only time I had free. I had 8 hours of no bottles, crying babies, whiny toddlers, or chasing snot from noses. Work was an oasis. I love my kids to death, but I'm just not cut out to stay at home. I love the balance work gives me and makes me a much better mom when I'm home.
Along the lines of Becky's confession...I've been giving serious thought to going back to work--at least part-time. I don't know if it's the cold weather or the fact that Charlotte is sliding into the terrible twos, I'm starting to feel as though I'm not cut out for the SAHM gig anymore.
~Amanda
Mom to Lily Gayle 4.25.06 Charlotte Kathleen 3.27.09 Samuel Thomas ~8.4.12~
I'm so tired of the role-reversal in our house right now. I am so lucky to have a wonderful DH to begin with but one who takes care of the kids while I'm working is golden to me. Iris says da-da all the time now and it stings a little. I know it's just babbling to her but still.
I'm so tired of the role-reversal in our house right now. I am so lucky to have a wonderful DH to begin with but one who takes care of the kids while I'm working is golden to me. Iris says da-da all the time now and it stings a little. I know it's just babbling to her but still.
I feel bad even feeling bad about it.
I know where you are coming from. I tend to have similar feelings over the summer.
My confession is that I almost enjoyed having the stomach bug, because I didn't have to cook dinner for almost a whole week. I hate cooking, making lunches, for that matter anything having to do with spending time in the kitchen. My DH was amazing taking care of the kids. If I hadn't felt like I was going to die, I think I would stay sick just to stay out of the effing kitchen.
I have a big one... And I feel pretty awful about it.
My SIL is pregnant and due exactly one week before me. I'm the oldest in my family and it stung a little that they had the first baby. Then they had the 2nd baby 4 months before I had my first. So again... They beat me to another baby. And now again....
I feel like I really want a girl this time so I can have something first... (we all have boys) but even if we both have girls, they will have theirs first. And I'm scared I'll be disappointed if it's a boy (which is SO RIDICULOUS.. dS is incredible) these feelings SUCK but I can't get rid of them : (
And I wanted to add that I hope it goes without saying that healthy and happy are priority #1. I know how petty this is.
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My confession is that DH has been out of town for two weeks now for work, comes back Saturday, and I have enjoyed the peace. I feel like I have only had to take care of on child instead of two.
I'm secretly annoyed that my DH's family did not have a shower for me.
Let me say this first though....I in no way actually want a shower, it's boy #2, Noah is only 2, we didn't actually need much new stuff just a few random things. We may need new clothes because they're being born in different seasons, but other than that we'll just need diapers. So technically I don't need/want a shower at all...it was just the principle of the whole thing.
So let me explain the situation now DH's family in Ohio is actually his step-family. They've been in DH's life since he was maybe 5 or so. In this family he's got grandparents, some aunts and uncles, and 2 step-brothers, and a SIL.
SIL just had baby #2 in December, baby #1 was 2 1/2 when she was born. DH's aunt threw her a shower. She got mostly clothes, she had a girl this time around, and we all know how much people like to shop for girl clothes. I thought it was silly they had a shower for her, but she's my SIL so I went.
They didn't have a shower for me, never even offered. Like I said I didn't want one, but it just makes DH and I feel like we aren't as much a part of the family because we're the "step" kids. DH has no blood relatives in Ohio other than his Mom and her parents (who practically disowned us becase we lived together before we were married) so it hurts us when they don't treat us like "real" family.
I'm afraid being a single parent has made me hate motherhood completely.
Then again it could be because I spent the day running from place to place DD's before school care->DS' daycare->work->DD's school->ER->pharmacy-> DS' daycare. Now I get to spend the night making dinner, doing homework and nursing a sick kid.
I'm secretly annoyed that my DH's family did not have a shower for me.
Let me say this first though....I in no way actually want a shower, it's boy #2, Noah is only 2, we didn't actually need much new stuff just a few random things. We may need new clothes because they're being born in different seasons, but other than that we'll just need diapers. So technically I don't need/want a shower at all...it was just the principle of the whole thing.
So let me explain the situation now DH's family in Ohio is actually his step-family. They've been in DH's life since he was maybe 5 or so. In this family he's got grandparents, some aunts and uncles, and 2 step-brothers, and a SIL.
SIL just had baby #2 in December, baby #1 was 2 1/2 when she was born. DH's aunt threw her a shower. She got mostly clothes, she had a girl this time around, and we all know how much people like to shop for girl clothes. I thought it was silly they had a shower for her, but she's my SIL so I went.
They didn't have a shower for me, never even offered. Like I said I didn't want one, but it just makes DH and I feel like we aren't as much a part of the family because we're the "step" kids. DH has no blood relatives in Ohio other than his Mom and her parents (who practically disowned us becase we lived together before we were married) so it hurts us when they don't treat us like "real" family.
I felt the same way last fall. DH and I had the first grandchild (for his parents) in December and no one in his family offered to throw a shower. Actually, the pregnancy was barely even acknowledged. It really hurt my feelings because I already feel like they don't really like me and that just added to it. It was almost like there was no excitement about Maddie. She's 3 months old now and none of his family (aside from parents and siblings) have even seen her or made an effort to see her.
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I want to start screaming at H and not stop because he complains about his freaking leg. I know it hurts, I do, but seriously, I am 9 months pregnant and I hurt all over. How about you TRY to help me with SOMETHING... ANYTHING! And stop trying to tell me that I couldn't deal with the pain of knee surgery. Bet he changes his freaking tune when I push a kid the size of a watermelon out of a hole the size of a lemon! He's just being an irritating PITA! FWIW, I also feel bad that I feel this way. Enough so that I haven't really said anything to him about it until yesterday when I about freaking exploded and started crying.
Mr & Mrs - 10/15/05 Elijah Matthew - 5/3/07 ~ Adalyn Rosemary - 3/23/11 *Photos by Kacy Cierley*
My second confession is: I really know little to nothing about SB5. I read the post about it with great interest and learned a lot. I'm embarrassed to admit that I don't know much about it, but the only thing that's been in the news more these days is Charlie Sheen. He takes more headlines than SB5.
I actually love my ILs (who are visiting and staying with us), this week. I think we finally have a nice thing going.
Whats your trick? I hate that I cannot stand mine. But then again after getting an email yesterday that was reminding us of an upcoming bday- that the party is for friends only but they are still expecting a gift or said family is going to be "pi$$ed" at us- makes me not feel so bad for hating them.
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I have a big one... And I feel pretty awful about it. My SIL is pregnant and due exactly one week before me. I'm the oldest in my family and it stung a little that they had the first baby. Then they had the 2nd baby 4 months before I had my first. So again... They beat me to another baby. And now again.... I feel like I really want a girl this time so I can have something first... (we all have boys) but even if we both have girls, they will have theirs first. And I'm scared I'll be disappointed if it's a boy (which is SO RIDICULOUS.. dS is incredible) these feelings SUCK but I can't get rid of them : ( And I wanted to add that I hope it goes without saying that healthy and happy are priority #1. I know how petty this is.
Maybe petty, but normal - and I would feel the exact same way. I am the oldest in my immediate family, and the 2nd oldest cousin. My little sister had a baby when she was 15, and my little cousin had 2 - the youngest at 17. I was a little bummed about it - but thought at least I would get married first. Then my other little cousin (like 5 years younger than me), got engaged a few months after us and married 3 months later (which was before our wedding)... I was a little bummed. But whatever
Welcome to the world Finley Michael - born 2/13/2010
Baby Sister is coming soon!
My confession is that I feel like as a SAHM, I should be able to clean my own house. But we are seriously considering hiring a cleaner/service. And I feel really guilty about it because I feel like people are judging me. (Not that it's going to stop me though...)
Welcome to the world Finley Michael - born 2/13/2010
Baby Sister is coming soon!
My confession is that I feel like as a SAHM, I should be able to clean my own house. But we are seriously considering hiring a cleaner/service. And I feel really guilty about it because I feel like people are judging me. (Not that it's going to stop me though...)
Trust me, nobody is judging you. They might be JEALOUS of you, but nobody should be judging you.
I'm afraid being a single parent has made me hate motherhood completely.
Then again it could be because I spent the day running from place to place DD's before school care->DS' daycare->work->DD's school->ER->pharmacy-> DS' daycare. Now I get to spend the night making dinner, doing homework and nursing a sick kid.
I miss having help.
Been there, done that. I get it. Let me know if you need a few minutes to yourself. I am happy to help. It sucks! I know.
My confession is that I feel like as a SAHM, I should be able to clean my own house. But we are seriously considering hiring a cleaner/service. And I feel really guilty about it because I feel like people are judging me. (Not that it's going to stop me though...)
But think about the number of hours they will free up for you to play with your little cutie. SAHM is a full time job, just like any other out of the home job. That perception of SAHM/full time homemaker is silly, IMO. As the LO gets older, nap times get shorter. So you have less and less time for things that don't include your DS, while he is awake. I get NOTHING done on weekends, because naptime is over in a flash. I say go for it, and do not feel that guilt. No one expects you to channel the Stepfords. You need some QT with your son, DH, and some much deserved "me" time. No worries.
Ummm...I have WAY too many GNOs in the works right now. And I just had 2 girls' days with friends. All of my girls have decided to go out to play, recently. I have NO date nights set, so DH is not going to like this at all. I just found a new sitter, so I think I am going to get two date nights set up in the next week, just so I can go out and play with the girls and not hear him grumble. I am with him whenever I am not at work, but GNO just brings out the Lucifer in him. I need to get on scheduling the date nights.
Ummm...I have WAY too many GNOs in the works right now. And I just had 2 girls' days with friends. All of my girls have decided to go out to play, recently. I have NO date nights set, so DH is not going to like this at all. I just found a new sitter, so I think I am going to get two date nights set up in the next week, just so I can go out and play with the girls and not hear him grumble. I am with him whenever I am not at work, but GNO just brings out the Lucifer in him. I need to get on scheduling the date nights.
Re: Confessions, anyone?
Katie: 1/16/08 2lbs. 15oz.
Abby & Emily: 12/31/10 6lbs. 2oz. & 5lbs. 7oz.
Honestly. I almost went BSC on a co-worker for using the lactation room during my scheduled pumping time. Hormones much?
Mom to Lily Gayle 4.25.06 Charlotte Kathleen 3.27.09 Samuel Thomas ~8.4.12~
I'm so tired of the role-reversal in our house right now. I am so lucky to have a wonderful DH to begin with but one who takes care of the kids while I'm working is golden to me. Iris says da-da all the time now and it stings a little. I know it's just babbling to her but still.
I feel bad even feeling bad about it.
Knowing a little of your history makes me really happy to hear this! Yay!
Me, too.
I know where you are coming from. I tend to have similar feelings over the summer.
Whoa! Really?!? That's awesome, T. So happy for you!
Tyler Anthony arrived on 9.21.09
The Chronicles of Justin and Tyler
Tyler Anthony arrived on 9.21.09
The Chronicles of Justin and Tyler
My SIL is pregnant and due exactly one week before me. I'm the oldest in my family and it stung a little that they had the first baby. Then they had the 2nd baby 4 months before I had my first. So again... They beat me to another baby. And now again....
I feel like I really want a girl this time so I can have something first... (we all have boys) but even if we both have girls, they will have theirs first. And I'm scared I'll be disappointed if it's a boy (which is SO RIDICULOUS.. dS is incredible) these feelings SUCK but I can't get rid of them : (
And I wanted to add that I hope it goes without saying that healthy and happy are priority #1. I know how petty this is.
I CANNOT stop shopping....even though both kids need nothing. I have no willpower when it comes to cute kids clothes.
Anyone want me to shop for them? At least I could spend someone else's money then
Yes. I couldn't make it up.
Thanks!
I'm secretly annoyed that my DH's family did not have a shower for me.
Let me say this first though....I in no way actually want a shower, it's boy #2, Noah is only 2, we didn't actually need much new stuff just a few random things. We may need new clothes because they're being born in different seasons, but other than that we'll just need diapers. So technically I don't need/want a shower at all...it was just the principle of the whole thing.
So let me explain the situation now
DH's family in Ohio is actually his step-family. They've been in DH's life since he was maybe 5 or so. In this family he's got grandparents, some aunts and uncles, and 2 step-brothers, and a SIL.
SIL just had baby #2 in December, baby #1 was 2 1/2 when she was born. DH's aunt threw her a shower. She got mostly clothes, she had a girl this time around, and we all know how much people like to shop for girl clothes. I thought it was silly they had a shower for her, but she's my SIL so I went.
They didn't have a shower for me, never even offered. Like I said I didn't want one, but it just makes DH and I feel like we aren't as much a part of the family because we're the "step" kids. DH has no blood relatives in Ohio other than his Mom and her parents (who practically disowned us becase we lived together before we were married) so it hurts us when they don't treat us like "real" family.
I'm afraid being a single parent has made me hate motherhood completely.
Then again it could be because I spent the day running from place to place DD's before school care->DS' daycare->work->DD's school->ER->pharmacy-> DS' daycare. Now I get to spend the night making dinner, doing homework and nursing a sick kid.
I miss having help.
I felt the same way last fall. DH and I had the first grandchild (for his parents) in December and no one in his family offered to throw a shower. Actually, the pregnancy was barely even acknowledged. It really hurt my feelings because I already feel like they don't really like me and that just added to it. It was almost like there was no excitement about Maddie. She's 3 months old now and none of his family (aside from parents and siblings) have even seen her or made an effort to see her.
I want to start screaming at H and not stop because he complains about his freaking leg. I know it hurts, I do, but seriously, I am 9 months pregnant and I hurt all over. How about you TRY to help me with SOMETHING... ANYTHING! And stop trying to tell me that I couldn't deal with the pain of knee surgery. Bet he changes his freaking tune when I push a kid the size of a watermelon out of a hole the size of a lemon! He's just being an irritating PITA! FWIW, I also feel bad that I feel this way. Enough so that I haven't really said anything to him about it until yesterday when I about freaking exploded and started crying.
Elijah Matthew - 5/3/07 ~ Adalyn Rosemary - 3/23/11
*Photos by Kacy Cierley*
I don't know the back story - but I am happy for you nonetheless... Actually liking my ILs makes me feel so lucky!
Welcome to the world Finley Michael - born 2/13/2010
Baby Sister is coming soon!
Tyler Anthony arrived on 9.21.09
The Chronicles of Justin and Tyler
Whats your trick? I hate that I cannot stand mine. But then again after getting an email yesterday that was reminding us of an upcoming bday- that the party is for friends only but they are still expecting a gift or said family is going to be "pi$$ed" at us- makes me not feel so bad for hating them.
Maybe petty, but normal - and I would feel the exact same way. I am the oldest in my immediate family, and the 2nd oldest cousin. My little sister had a baby when she was 15, and my little cousin had 2 - the youngest at 17. I was a little bummed about it - but thought at least I would get married first. Then my other little cousin (like 5 years younger than me), got engaged a few months after us and married 3 months later (which was before our wedding)... I was a little bummed. But whatever
Welcome to the world Finley Michael - born 2/13/2010
Baby Sister is coming soon!
LOL! Can you warn me if it's not gone by tomorrow, because I don't want to meet up to play if it's not
Welcome to the world Finley Michael - born 2/13/2010
Baby Sister is coming soon!
Welcome to the world Finley Michael - born 2/13/2010
Baby Sister is coming soon!
Trust me, nobody is judging you. They might be JEALOUS of you, but nobody should be judging you.
Been there, done that. I get it. Let me know if you need a few minutes to yourself. I am happy to help. It sucks! I know.
But think about the number of hours they will free up for you to play with your little cutie. SAHM is a full time job, just like any other out of the home job. That perception of SAHM/full time homemaker is silly, IMO. As the LO gets older, nap times get shorter. So you have less and less time for things that don't include your DS, while he is awake. I get NOTHING done on weekends, because naptime is over in a flash. I say go for it, and do not feel that guilt. No one expects you to channel the Stepfords. You need some QT with your son, DH, and some much deserved "me" time. No worries.
this made my day. thank you.
Me too! I feel really popular recently.