Sad not preg anymore

danast.pierre

I was on Welbutrin 150mg while pregnant...all the way up until the last month of my pregnancy and then I made the choice to ween myself off so DD didn't have to go through any withdrawals.  About 3 weeks PP I had to get back on it b/c I was having baby blues and TERRIBLE anxiety.  I have more of a problem with anxiety than depression, but the depression part is still there.  Right now I'm 5, almost 6 weeks PP and I am so sad that I'm not pregnant anymore.  I cried while packing up my maternity clothes, I cried to DH when talking about getting back on BCP tomorrow (because of everything we went through in order to conceive, it took us a little over a year to get preg), I cry because I'm happy (that I finally have my DD), I cry because I'm sad that I'm not preg...sad that things are never going to be the same as they were before I got preg....You get my point.  It seems that everything is really emotional for me right now.

 Anyone else miss being pregnant or have these feelings?  I don't know if I should call my doctor to "up" my dose of Welbutrin or if I should give it a few more weeks.

alamo10

I miss being pregnant too. It's so odd because I absolutely hated being pregnant. It just kind of makes me sad because I had so many problems with my pregnancy that I probably won't have another one. But it's upsetting that I'll never have the excitment of the first pregnancy ever again.

You should probably give your Wellbutrin a few more weeks. I've been on it for about 3 months now and it took awhile to make me feel better.

danast.pierre

Thanks so much! I share your feelings as well...I guess it's because you can't ever get the first experience back, you know? The next pregnancy (God willing) will be different.  I'll give it some more time. Thanks!

rosesandpeonies

I know exactly how you are feeling.  I am on Wellbutrin.  I was put back on it right after delivery.  The first few weeks I felt exactly like you.  I would get soo sad that I wasn't pregnant anymore.  I couldn't even put my finger on exactly why I missed it...because I was tired and sick for most of it.  I think that it is the anticipation and excitment of bringing a new little one into the world...and then they come and there is so much going on...and that anticipation is gone.  Its kind of like planning your wedding for a year...and breathing wedding all of the time and then it is over....but this is at a whole different level.  I have 2 under 2 so I know it will be a while before I am pregnant again.  I had trouble conceiving DD #1 (15 months and medical intervention) but DD #2 was a happy surprise. 

I also suffer from Generalized Anxiety Disorder (this was before having kids).  I will tell you that I am just now starting to feel myself again (this is almost four weeks on meds).  I am not feeling those same feelings of loss over not being pregnant anymore, and my anxiety is definitely better.  You could call your dr. and discuss it with him/her.  I had to get xanex to get through the first few weeks until my wellbutrin started to work.   I am still having to take one once in a while.  I hope in the next two weeks I won't have to take any.

You aren't alone in these feelings, I promise!

shopgirl78

Yes, really bad the first time.  I had the roughest transition from 0-1.   Horrible L&D and my DD was sick at birth (had to stay in the nursery).  DD also never learned to BF.  I cried forever and desperately wanted a do-over.  I never went on meds.  In hindsight, I was a hot mess and it didn't get better until I got my do-over.  I remember being a blubbering crying mess at 4 months pp after a convo about BFing.  With that said, ach time I have missed being pregnant though.  I still do.  There is something SOOOOO special about that time and the anticipation of it all is so great!  (Although I AM pregnant, I hate it..) Part of me is devastated that we are done, it completely normal to miss that...

jenny1980

I had bad anxiety (was diagnosed with an anxiety disorder following DD's birth), but did not miss being pregnant. We all have our things.

Hang in there, mama!

 

ronitoswife

Wow! I felt like I was reading about myself. I am on an emotional roller coaster right now as well. My son just turned one month and i'm still crying over everything. I miss being pregnant even though I was so ready to not be pregnant anymore. I miss how things were before with my first son( it does feel like our relationship has changed a bit). I miss sitting with my husband on the couch and rubbing my tummy and watching our son move around while inside my tummy. Of course all these emotions on top of the " can I really do this again?" and more similar emotions is just as overwhelming and exhausting. Then there's the feeling of guilt because this should be a magical time and here I am bawling at everything. I'm so glad to know that i'm not the only one who is going through this. It really does help to know that you are not alone. Thank you so much for sharing. I actually have an appointment with a dr this week to see what we can do to help. I don't know to much about Welbutrin, but I would definitely talk to your dr if you feel like it's not helping. I know when I went through PPD before I was started on zoloft and it did seem to help with the blues part but it did nothing for my anxiety so I was switched to paxil and that did seem to help. At least I felt like I could function normally. Hang in there! It's rough, but we can make it through it!