*We started TTC the day I turned 30. I turned 36 last month.
*I'm posting from my iPhone, so expect no paragraphs. ![]()
*One incredibly amazing person recommended some books and said some things to me that have me working HARD to try and get out of the stupor I've been living in.
*I still have dreams where I'm pregnant. Only now my brain doesn't even believe it IN the dream, as weird as it may sound.
*I have an incredible husband. I love him more now than ever. And it still hurts that I KNOW he'd be an amazing father.
*I used to call people I met on the Internet e-friends. Now, I know they're really Friends. The way a few words from someone you care about can click in your brain transcends time and space. I may not know your voices, but I've gotten a glimpse of your hearts.
*I'm fighting myself. For years I've managed to feel somehow superior to others in some areas, while totally undeserving of anything good in others. It's a struggle and a delicate balance.
*I'm stubborn.
*I've got some sort of undiagnosed ADD.
*I will be losing my job soon. I'm scared. Is it bad that I don't want to start looking for a new job until AFTER I get my severance? I'm kind of looking forward to some down time.
*Sigh. I think that's it. For now. ![]()
***Edited because I couldn't stand the lack of spaces...
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1. I had a dream just like this the other night. I was even telling MrBunny that there was no way I was pregnant because that doesn't happen to me. It was so odd.
2. I could have written this myself. Each time he does something nice or goes out of his way to be a good guy it just is a shot to the gut. I'm really thankful we don't live near my family because watching him with our niece was almost the worst thing I've ever seen.
"It's a child, not a cheeto" Thanks mmariluh!
"Ew. I've read all of two posts from you, and you stink like rotting garbage."
this. all of this. Love you Mariluh!
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{{{hugs}}} The universe can bite me. You're the bestest and don't think for a second you're not.
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TTC #2, Operative hysteroscopy March 2011; IVF #1 long lupron protocol April 2011-cancelled due to poor response; IVF #2 flare protocol May 2011=hospitalization due to abdominal hemorrhage during ER and no fert due to MFI issues. Moving onto international adoption from Moldova January 2013!